So am I starting another Destiel AU? When I still havent finished three of mine? Maybe… don't yell at me I cant help it ok.
Castiel was anxious. All of the time. It had started when he was in sixth grade, his mother died and his father abandoned him and his two older brothers; Lucifer and Gabriel. It had begun the night his mother died, he kept worrying about her not being there, and then his father was staying with them less and less. The longer his father was away the more anxious he would become. Then one morning he got up and his father wasn't home, he had left a note saying he wouldn't be coming back. That's when he had his first panic attack. They got better over time, but sometimes if stress overcame him or something upset him it would trigger another one. He hadn't had one in four months, which was relieving but also frightening because one could pop up on him at any moment.
He was a junior in high school, he'd been going to Lawrence high since his sophomore year and he only had one friend, bipolar sociopath Meg Masters whom he loved dearly. He was on speaking terms with everyone, he just wasn't close with anyone other than Meg and his brothers, and Lucifer was out of high school for three years now, and Gabriel was a senior. At Lawrence High there wasn't really that whole "popular and nerds" type of thing that went on, everyone was friends with everyone. People had their own friends that they were very close with but everyone got along with people outside their own groups. Accept for Castiel. He didn't like being around lots of people because they looked at him like he was inside a cage.
You see, people thought Castiel was mysterious and that made him a little scary and easy to avoid. Girls thought he was handsome and rugged and apparently anti-social awkward nerd was a thing now because they were all into that. Too bad he was as gay as Elton John's penis. A lot of people at school new he was gay, that wasn't an issue for him, nobody cared, some people didn't know, and found out when they were awkwardly rejected because they didn't have a dick.
Cas was new to this school the year before, and so he was also a little exotic because he was one of the only kids who hadn't gone to school with everyone since kindergarten. Everyone knew each other here, but nobody knew Castiel.
He was currently sitting in the back of his English class, they were reading Animal Farm, he was in the senior English class because he was too far ahead for his junior class when it came to English, but as the teacher has suspected Castiel had also already read Animal Farm, so he was doodling. He loved to draw, it had always been escape for him. Right now he was doodling a pig dressed like Hitler kissing another pig dressed like Stalin. He thought it was funny and controversial and he loved it.
"Class, excuse me, I know we just started but it seems that I have to interrupt you." Miss Bradbury, his favorite teacher, said speaking up. "It seems we have a new student, but he's not really new is he? Dean Winchester is back to stay girls and boys." she said smiling and gestured to the boy that he only just noticed standing at the front of the room.
Dean Winchester. Castiel had heard about him, and his younger brother. Apparently they were good people but had left the school the year before Castiel had started there. He didn't know the whole story, and it wasn't a huge deal to him if he found it out anyways.
There was a huge deal though. Dean was gorgeous.
The larger teen age boy stood at six foot one, broad shoulders and tan freckled skin. He had sculpted cheekbones and nose, and wonderfully square and smooth jaw. His hair was a light brown, it was very short on the sides and longer on the top and front, giving him a sophisticated but rugged look. It stuck up a little in the front but it didn't have gel or hairspray in it. And his eyes. His eyes. They were literally the greenest green that he had ever seen in his entire life. He was clearly well muscled but he wasn't too cocky about it. He was wearing a Led Zeppelin t-shirt that was tight around the chest and arms, and jeans that were a little tighter than normal, but were obviously worn and used. Covered in what looked like oil stains.
"Hey guys, long time no see, right?" Dean said casually, shyly lifting a hand and the class chuckled. A lot of boys got up to shake his hand and give him welcome home hugs. Girls waved flirtatiously and winked at him but he kept them at bay with a simple smile that said, 'I know I'm hot but not interested right now'.
"Alright, alright, settle down you friggin' bastards, and read please." Miss Bradbury and Castiel chuckled lightly at her profanity.
The class laughed as well, and went back to their seats and Dean made his way to the back to the only empty seat left…that just happened to be next to Castiel. Oh great, just what Castiel needed right? Someone who was going to ask him questions.
Dean slumped down into the desk and took out his copy of Animal Farm and began reading, halfway through what looked Castiel guessed was the second or third page Dean began looking around, yearning for a distraction. His eyes halted on Castiel. Apparently he realized that there was a face in this room that he'd never seen before.
"Oh, uhh hi, I'm Dean. You must've gotten here after I left?" Dean said leaning over to whisper to Castiel.
"Uh, yes, I transferred here from California last year. I'm a junior, but I take this English class. My name is Castiel Novack." Castiel whispered back, throwing in a small smile to be polite. Dean grinned, which made Castiel smile wider.
"Nice to meet ya Castiel. So you're a brain wave like my little brother Sammy huh? That's cool." Dean said clearly trying to ignore the book in his hands.
"And you're not so fond of school like my brother Gabriel?" Castiel ventured nodding at the book in Dean's hands and Dean chuckled.
"Oh and you are? What are you doodling anyways?" Dean retorted looking at the doodle on Castiel's desk.
"Well, I read this book over the summer. So I am drawing,.. Uhh, a political cartoon?" Castiel said showing it to Dean.
"Ha! That's fucking hilarious. You're really good at drawing Cas. I can call you Cas right?" Dean then asked.
"Cas is nice, it's better than Cassie. And thank you." Cas said blushing a little.
"Ahem, Novack you little shit, stop distracting Mr. Winchester from the work you've already completed. Have you done anything productive?" Miss Bradbury asked grinning at her favorite student.
"Other than finish the book? I drew a controversial political cartoon? Would you like to hang it up?" Cas asked snarkily and she waved him forward. Cas got up from his seat, winked at Dean, and made his way to Miss Bradbury's desk. The class chuckled, and a few girls oblivious to his sexuality grinned at him.
"So Castiel, how are pig versions of Stalin and Hitler being gay for one another related to this book at all?" Miss Bradbury asked him trying to hide her laughter.
"It's a metaphor." he said simply, "Proving that opposites don't have to attract, you can have similar views and be able to agree on things. Like Hitler and Stalin's views on running the world and shit." Castiel explained to her and half to the class. A few people laughed and others nodded in agreement.
"You just made that up, didn't you?" Miss Bradbury asked.
"Sure did." he said grinning cheekily and made his way back to his seat, where Dean grinned at him, with a little admiration but mostly curiosity.
The bell rang, and Cas jumped out of his seat, he wanted to get to lunch and talk to Meg. He threw his plain black back pack over his shoulder, smiled at Dean, and left the room before Dean could say anything.
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Dean was excited, a little nervous, but mostly excited. He was finally returning to his home town where he'd grown up, to finish his last year of high school with his actual friends. He and his younger brother Sammy had moved in with their mother after their parents, Mary and John, had gotten a divorce and their father had become abusive. But then Dean finally turned eighteen, and took Sammy back home so they could live with their Uncle Bobby and be where they wanted to be.
It's not that they didn't love their mom, they did, but she had changed after John had left her, after he had become abusive. She was strict and cold and locked away inside herself. Dean had grown up with his parents arguing all the time so staying with Bobby wasn't actually a new thing. It was just like coming home.
Dean made his way to his third period English class with his favorite teacher Miss Bradbury, she had always been really nice to him and Sam. He wasn't a huge fan of English, it was always hard for him to concentrate on something that involved so much thought. Concentrating on a car engine was what Dean wanted to do, he loved being a mechanic and it was what he wanted to do for the rest of his life.
He walked in a cleared his throat, Miss Bradbury motioned him forward and a lot of kids smiled up at him. He spotted Jo and Ash, his best friends in the entire world, that he had kept in touch with while he was away, in one corner of the room. He'd spent a few summers with them while he was away, and he was happy to see them.
Dean did notice that there was only one seat open, in the back. Thank god. Miss Bradbury introduced him and he went to his seat after saying hello and pulled out his copy of Animal Farm, he'd already seen the movie so reading it was going to be even more boring. Half way through the third page he started looking around the room and his eyes stopped on the kid sitting in the desk next to him.
Who was that? Dean had never seen this guy before, he was lean, and his deep black hair was messy and out of place every where, some of it hung into his face as he doodles on a piece of paper. He was wearing a light blue t-shirt, it was fitting, clung to his thin but muscles frame, it had The Breakfast Club movie poster on the front. huh, good movie taste, Dean thought. His jeans were skinny jeans, black, but clearly faded and worn out, he had a plain black belt on, and a pair of very scuffed black doc martin boots.
Dean decided to introduce himself, "Oh, uhh hi, I'm Dean. You must've gotten here after I left?" he leaned in to whisper to the other boy.
"Uh, yes, I transferred here from California last year. I'm a junior, but I take this English class. My name is Castiel Novack." Castiel whispered back.
Castiel. What a strange name, it fit him though.
Dean shivered a little when Castiel spoke, his voice was much deeper then he thought it would be. He liked it, a lot.
Dean had come out as bisexual his freshman year of high school, his father wasn't too fond of it, but everyone else didn't really seem to care. A lot of people weren't even surprised because honestly, he was the biggest flirt, and he flirted with everyone. everyone. He'd never had a boyfriend though, a few short relationships with a few girls over the years but no boy has ever really caught his eye.
"Nice to meet ya Castiel. So you're a brain wave like my little brother Sammy huh? That's cool." he wanted to continue the conversation, he honestly didn't want to read this shitty book, plus Cas seemed really neat.
"And you're not so fond of school like my brother Gabriel?" Castiel ventured nodding at the book in Dean's hands and Dean chuckled.
Dean liked Cas, he was sassy.
"Oh and you are? What are you doodling anyways?" Dean retorted looking at the doodle on Castiel's desk.
Cas looked up and him and smiled and Dean just realized how blue Cas' eyes were. How so, blue.
"Well, I read this book over the summer. So I am drawing,.. Uhh, a political cartoon?" Castiel said showing it to Dean, Dean saw that the drawing was of a Hitler pig kissing a Stalin pig and he couldn't help but toss his head back and laugh. Dean was liking Cas more and more.
"Ha! That's fucking hilarious. You're really good at drawing Cas. I can call you Cas right?" Dean added the last question because he realized he'd come up with the nickname 'Cas' inside his head and said it out loud without thinking.
"Cas is nice, it's better than Cassie. And thank you." Cas said blushing a little.
Awhhhhhh, he's blushing! …Dean focus. Someone actually calls him Cassie…? Dean thought. Dean really needed to get a hold of himself if he couldn't be a regular old friend with some dude because he was adorable, and hot, and super hilarious, and wow. Alright.
"Ahem, Novack you little shit, stop distracting Mr. Winchester from the work you've already completed. Have you done anything productive?" Miss Bradbury asked Castiel and Dean raised an eyebrow confused because Miss Bradbury wasn't usually like that but then he saw her grinning, and then he saw Cas grinning. Favorite student alert. Dean was about to ask him about it when he spoke.
"Other than finish the book? I drew a controversial political cartoon? Would you like to hang it up?" Cas asked snarkily and she waved him forward.
Dean smirked, and looked at the boy from under his eyelashes while he spoke to the teacher. He'd just met this kid and he was already going to be the death of him. Dean knew it.
When Cas got out of his seat to approach Miss Bradbury's desk Dean had to cross his legs for fear of a boner popping up in his jeans. Cas' well fitted tshirt only reached a little bit above his hip bones which jutted out above the waste line of his jeans. The elastic waste of his boxer briefs were somewhat visible and just above was a strip of lightly tanned skin that just beckoned to Dean's wandering fingers. Boy was Dean happy he came back when he did because Cas was just...perfect.
Ughhhh, Dean thought and smacked himself in the forehead with the palm of his hand.
Then, just as Cas was sitting back into his seat, after having a rather hilarious conversation with the teacher, the bell rang signaling the end of third period and time for lunch. Dean knew he was going to sit with Jo and Ash, he was just curious as to who else they were sitting with now a days.
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Cas rushed to lunch, he always packed his own, and skidded to a halt in front of the small lunch table that only he and Meg sat at everyday. Meg was already sitting there, legs stretched out in front of her on her own bench.
"What's got you all flustered and nervous?" She asked grinning at him.
"Oh only the fact that I just met one of the infamous Wincheters and not only is he absolutely gorgeous buT I FLIRTED WITH HIM I WAS SO CONFIDENT AND I WINKED BUT NOW IM FREAKING OUT" Cas practically shouted at her. His anxiety was kicking in because he was afraid he did something wrong or came on too strong or maybe now Den thought he was some sort of weirdo. He tried to slow his breathing.
"Hey, Clearance. You need to calm down. I'm sure everything is alright. Was it Dean or Sam?" she asked. She had been at the school with the Winchester's so she knew of them but she'd never talked to them before.
" Dean." Cas whispered.
" Ooh, Clarence you are in luck because that hunk of meat swings both ways." She said smirking and winking at him. Castiel glared at her over his thermos of soup.
Meg had started calling Castiel " Clarence" the day they met because he explained that he was named after an angel and so the first angel she thought of was Clarence from the classic Christmas movie It's a Wonderful life.
Cas was sitting on top of the table next to Meg who was stretched out on the bench. He had his knees tucked up to his chest and his thermos of soup on top of them.
Just then he saw Dean walk in with Ash and Jo awh fuck, they were with Castiel's older brother Gabriel. Well, this was going to be fun.
As they walked by Cas and Meg's lunch table Gabriel pulled out a sling shot and tried to hit Cas with a thick rubber band ball but Cas was a step ahead of him. He held up a lunch tray and easily shielded himself from the blow. Taped onto the lunch tray was a hand written sign that said the words "you suck Gabriel". It was Meg's idea and Cas thought it was amusing.
Gabriel and Dean walked up to them while Ash and Jo went and sat down a few tables away.
"Hiya Cassie!" Gabriel said to his brother, "Hello witch" he said then glaring at Meg. Cas smirked.
"Hello Gabriel" Cas replied.
" Hi assnugget" Meg sneered. His olde brother and best friend had an interesting relationship.
"Cassie why do you let her bully me?" Gabe said mock pouting.
Meg chuckled, "why are you such an infant?"
Gabriel stuck out his tongue at her.
"I like that she gets under your skin" Cas said laughing lightly and saw that Dean was still standing there.
"Hello again Dean, I see you've met my older brother Gabriel"
"Hey Cas, uh yeah we have a lot of classes together" Dean said shyly.
"Dean, this is my best friend Meg Masters, Meg this is Dean. Please be nice" he said more as a sarcastic comment then a serious one.
"Of course your majesty" she replied just as snidely, "Hi Dean. Nice to meet you" she said sweetly.
"Uh, yeah. You too." He said smiling a little.
"Well come on Deano, lets leave these butt munches to eat in peace, see you after school Cassie" Gabriel said and they walked away. Dean waved to Cas as they left, Cas smiled at him.
"Oh boy! Cas? He has a nickname for you?" Meg said incredulously.
"Are you trying to make me worry even more?" Castiel asked.
"No sorry. But seriously Clarence, he's definitely got a thing for you." Meg assured him.
"Oh I'm sure. Just like Gabriel has a thing for you" Castiel replied. Meg shook her head because Cas clearly didn't see it.
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Dean met up with Ash and Jo at their lockers so they could head to lunch together, but there was someone else with them.
He was short and had pointy features, not bad looking but he wasn't Deans type, he had light golden brown hair that was combed back, it was almost as long at Sam's, and his eyes looked like bright honey.
"Hey guys" Dean said when he reached them.
"Hey Dean, this is our friend Gabriel, he's a senior like us, moved here last year." Jo said introducing them.
"Yeah this amigo is great man" Ash said clearly a little bit stoned.
"You wouldn't happen to be Cas' older brother would you?" Dean asked.
"You mean Castiel? Yeah. Why? How'd you meet Cassie?" Gabriel asked.
"He sits next to me in my English class" Dean told him.
"That's cool Deano, but I assure you Cassie is not nearly as cool as I am" Gabe said smirking and Dean laughed.
"Castiel is just as cool Dean, don't let him fool you. He's actually pretty awesome, he and Meg hang with us whenever Gabe doesn't wanna choke her" Jo explained.
"She's demon spawn. I don't understand what Cassie sees in her" Gabriel said as they walked into the lunch room.
"Meg his girlfriend?" Dean asked trying to sound as normal as possible. Jo noticed but Ash and Gabe paid him no mind.
"God no. Cassie's as gay and a fuckin unicorn, they're just best friends and she's evil" Gabriel explained.
Cas was gay? Well. Whaddya know. Dean grinned and then he noticed when Gabe stopped to shoot something from a sling shot at his brother and what he assumed was Meg. Where the fuck did he get a sling shot from? He watched as Cas easily shielded the projectile with a lunch tray and Meg effectively flipped Gabriel off without Cas realizing it.
Dean laughed when he saw the "you suck Gabriel" note on the make shift shield.
When Gabriel was talking to Cas and bickering with Meg, Dean was only sort of paying attention. Cas was sitting on the table and not the bench beside it with his knees pulled up to his chest to that Dean could sort of peek through his thin legs to look at his extremely nice ass. Gosh did he have a one track mind.
Dean was so lost in thought that he almost didn't realize Cas was speaking to him.
"Hey Cas, uhh yeah we have a lot of classes together" wow that sounded stupid.
Cas then introduced Dean to his not girlfriend best friend Meg whom Dean liked a lot actually. Gabe then pulled him away so they could sit with Ash and Jo for lunch and Dean turned to wave just in time to see a small smile grace Cas' lips.
"So Deano, got a thing for my baby bro?" Gabriel asked as they sat down.
"What? No" Dean denied. It was too early for anything like a relationship to happen for Dean at all.
"Liar" Jo said with a mouth full of food.
Dean blushed furiously and threw a plastic fork at her.
WHAT DO YOU THINK? I THOUGHT OF IT THE OTHER NIGHT WHEN I COULDN'T FALL ASLEEP BC I THINK TOO MUCH AND I TYPED IT ALL IN MY NOTES ON MY IPOD. ISN'T IS GREAT? I THINK IT'S GREAT.
Review pls? if you even read it..?
One love.
Liz.