I wrote this on my phone in like 15 minutes while on a road trip, so please excuse the spelling and grammar mistakes, lol. This is a bit OOC, but hopefully you guys like it!(:
Fanfic is a little out of whack of me, this is a Damon and Katherine fic, not Elena. Also, it has been deleted before, so sorry if it's deleted again(:
Please enjoy!
He stares at himself naked, just the way nature intended. He isn't astounded by the beauty of his being, rather he is disgusted. Disgusted by the visage that he can so easily create to hide the monster within the unbearably beautiful shell of a man.
He knows that inside, he is seething. What used to be an emotionally driven man, is now a cold hearted beast, that hides behind a character. This character is hated by most, including himself. But he knows that man is only the tip of the deadly iceberg that is Damon Salvatore.
He feels pain. He feels hate. But he cannot feel love. He cannot feel it because it has been torn away from him in the most vicious way imaginable.
By the woman he loved.
Katherine Pierce.
Even he cannot comprehend how deceiving she is. He sees her as the most complicated thing to ever grace the minds of many. He finds her to be more complex than than the beginning of vampires, than the beginning of the human species, even more complex than the beginning of time.
But sometimes he feels like he has it all figured out. She's simply a cunning and conniving thing. But then he feels that it cannot be that simple. Something had to happen to such a being, to make them so cruel. So pathological.
But that is her, and she created this version of Damon. Someone who kills, and it's mostly for no reason at all.
So when Elena, the woman he pretends to love, asks if he will continue to kill for pleasure, he simply answers with a cool "yes" and no more questions are asked.
He kills so that he can feel. He's searching for something, for anything that will make the world a sensible place.
But the relief never comes. He tries to ignore the truth. The truth is that his relief will never come, and killing will bring him no peace.
For the vampire world revels in the chaos of the people, and the blood of the mortals. He can try to fight the truth, he can try to find the meaning of his life, but there isn't one. He is simply living just to live.
He sees it and he knows that he has become nothing but Katherine's mirror image.
A/N: I know it's very short, and quite morbid, but I still hope you guys liked it. I know that Damon does feel, and he does love, but that's why it's a OOC.
Thanks for reading!
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