A/N: yeah I was really down when I wrote this.
It's dedicated to my Best Friend Mikuru- Nee-Chan. Especially the last part of the story.
I love u.
A Suicide Chain
As the rain ran it's rivers down the window her dreary green eyes searched the clouds, not knowing what to look for.
…..Hope?…..
…A Reason? …
…..Someone to save her?…..
She bitterly laughed at her own pathetic thoughts as she lightly touched the tub of pills.
Fear and nervousness flashed in her eyes as she went over the possibilities in her head. But once again, she came up with nothing…..
…Nothing to stop her..
…Nothing to live for…..
…No-one to stop her…
…No-one to live for….
She carefully popped the lid off the tub and gently poured the contents into her hand.
Slowly returning her gaze to the crying heavens, the same bitter smile gracing her lips, she let her tears fall free.
She examined the small white pills in her hands and wondered in amazement, how these small… tiny… little things, could take away all the pain of the past.
Her tears mixed in with the pills and she took a deep breath to calm herself. In a quick motion, she threw the pills in her mouth then reached out for a bottle of water and gulped it down with the pills.
After draining the bottle, she threw it on the floor and started sobbing uncontrollably.
Muttering repeatedly, she prayed to god "please let today be my last". Taking a few breaths, she got up and straightened her clothes out.
As she wiped her eyes constantly hoping, they would stop falling.
She got to her bed and laid down trying to fall asleep so things would go smoother.
Her head kept filling up with thoughts…
…..the sounds of her friends voices…
… The smiles of her nieces and nephews….
….the love of her boyfriend…
Even with all of this, she still wasn't happy.
…Her friends could easily forget her…..
…Her family never respected her or even realised she was there…..
….Her boyfriend could do better….
She kept repeating the same words over in her head. Chanting. They are better off without me, they are better off without me
Soon she felt her arms and legs go numb. She fell in and out of consciousness. Her final dream coming true.
To leave this cruel world.
She did that night.
On her face….. A true smile.
The next night
Crying could be heard from her room. She had just been informed that the one person in her life that understood her had just committed suicide.
….Her Best Friend…..
…Her Companion….
…Her Sister…
She felt weak and hopeless that she couldn't help her. With that, thought she reached for the tub of while pills.