A/N Hello everyone! I'm back with another story for ya! So I don't want to restart from the very beginning of the hunger games and put her dad in it. I honestly wanted to just to a post mockingjay story, however there will be a lot of flashbacks because that needs to be included if I'm not completely rewriting the story. So yeah. I will lay out the setting for you, Prim is alive because I think maybe her dad could have stopped her from going to her death, Katniss and her mom have a better relationship because she never went into depression, and they all live in her house in the victors village. I hope you like it!
Katniss pov
I wake with a scream. Thrashing around I fall to the floor and scoot to the wall where I bring my knees to my chest and cry into them. The door opens and my dad pokes his head in. "Katniss?" He says as he walks in. He comes over to where I am and sits next to me. His arms pull me into him and allow me to cry into his chest.
"Shhhh...It's okay Katniss, it's all over now."
"Dad, people died because of me. I killed innocent people, innocent children. I constantly relive it. It's all because of me. If I would have just died like I was supposed to, so many people would be alive. Peeta would be normal and his family would be alive."
"Katniss, you can't beat yourself up about that. You made Panem better, and I am so proud of you. Yes, you may have killed people, but you were forced to. You can't change that. But Katniss, it would be the worst thing in the world to lose you or Prim. I love you both so much. And as for Peeta, you can't change what happened to his family, but I believe that he will come back to you. I believe he will someday be normal."
"He hates me... He should hate me.."
"You and I both know that's not true. Peeta has loved you for a long time, and I part of him still does love you. I know you think you don't love him, but I can see the way you look at him. Katniss, a lot of people always thought you and Gale would end up together, but you're just like me. What you need isn't more fire, you have enough of that yourself, you need something softer, something like a dandelion. They're delicate and pleasant. Someone who is understanding and loveable. Someone like-"
"Peeta..."I finish. I sigh and look at the floor because it's too late. He's gone. He's replaced with someone different and even though he only lives twenty-five feet away, it feels like he's in a whole new world.
My dadkisses my forehead and then stands up. I do also and crawl back in bed. He pulls up the blanket just like he used to do when I was little. Whenever I'd have a nightmare, usually about going into the games, he would tuck me in and sing me to sleep. Then just as I'm about to fall completely asleep, he kisses my forehead and quietly leaves whispering,"I love you,Katniss."
When I wake up, it's to the sound of a shovel outside. I look out my window to see a blonde head working hard outside. He stands up and wipes sweat from his brow. His wife shirt has mud and sweat on it.
I run downstairs not bothering to check how I look. My mom gives me a smile as I walk to the door. When I go out, I slowly walk from the porch to the side where he stands.
"Katniss," he says.
"Peeta,"I say,"you're back."
"The doctor didn't let me leave until yesterday...I uh, I saw these and wanted to plant them. You're dad said I could."
At first I want to scream. He holds in his hands, roses. Bright yellow and pink roses. But then the full name comes to me. Primroses. I smile and say,"thank you."
"Are you doing okay?"
"I could be better...You?"
"Same."
"I have to go,"I say before running back up to the house. After shutting the door, I slide down the wall to the floor. He's getting better. But he's far from good. Tears roll down my face as Buttercup comes in. He meows at me which results in me throwing a shoe at him. Dumb cat.
As I walk back upstairs, I catch a glimpse of myself. Bags under my eyes, my hair messy, and my grey eyes lifeless. And oddly, it's exactly what I imagine me to look like. Maybe I'm seeing the mutt Peeta sees me as. Or maybe I'm just seeing my true self. Whatever it is. I accept it.
What I see is the murder, the mutt, the mockingjay, the victor, the tribute, the star crossed lover, the girl on fire, the ally, the seam girl,...the ghost. I go to my window and watch him from afar. This window is the same window that only a few days ago I threw a vase of flowers out of.
Flowers from Snow.
I see Prim walk out side and wave at Peeta. He waves back to her and then continues to work. She continues to walk on and I wonder if that's how Peeta and I will be for forever. Just a series of waves and hello's and small talk.
Rory runs up to Prim and hugs her. Even Prim has found love and a friend in him. All my friends have hates me, Gale went off to two, Madge is dead, Finnick is dead, Cinna is dead, they're all dead or hurt because of me.
For the rest of the day I just sit under my window until my parents force me to eat. But from the window, I can see his blonde head walking home and i wonder if he's lonely. If a part of him loves me.