I know, this is different for me. But i felt like I had to do it. I feel bad for Demi & Selena. It doesn't matter if I like Niley or Nelena, or Memi or Semi . No one deserves to lose their best friend. Hope you like it :/

Where's Our Goodbye?

Demi.

I looked at Miley and forced out a smile. I didn't want to ruin her night just because I was pitying myself. It's hard to replace Selena though. Everyone keeps telling me she changed, but she didn't. She didn't change at all, and neither did I, and neither did Miley. Holly wood didn't change any of us. It just tore us apart.

We aren't friends anymore. At all. I'd been in denial for months, but today I had to face it. We avoided each other completely, not because Disney told us to, but because we wanted to. We saw each other, we were both walking towards each other, and we both started to dramatically swerve to the side, keeping away.

I don't care how famous Miley is, she can't replace Selena. The same way Selena couldn't replace Miley in Nick's eyes. They're exactly the same, yet so different. They both have the same dream, and they're both outspoken, and they both love to rap.

Still, Miley can't replace her. Because they're different in the ways they're the same. Miley can't handle her dream – she wants part of it to go away. Selena embraces it, and feels the need to be bigger. Miley never tries to hurt anyone when she says what's on her mind, but Selena let's everything out. And Miley can pull off rapping. Selena sucks at it.

It isn't the same. And even if Selena and I do decide that this is all stupid and we should just talk, it's already too late. Things won't ever be the same again. We're down too deep. And it hurts to know that. To know that I will never be able to call her when I'm pissed off or sad or just when I feel like it.

I remember when we shot PPP. Everything was so simple then. Miley wasn't part of the picture, we didn't even know or care about OceanUp or any other gossip sites, and best of all, we were the two best friends, shooting a movie in Puerto Rico. It was our dream.

Then there was the tour with the Jonas'. That couldn't be any better. Her visits were kept on the DL, but she always came to see us. Nick was her boyfriend, I was her best friend, and Joe and Kev were like her brothers.

Then... A year later and I don't know what happened. We can't even look each other in the eye anymore. We stay as far away as possible, pray not meet. I hang out with Miley and she hangs out with Taylor... I can't understand.

It's the most pain I've ever felt. It hurts more than a breakup, more than a hate comment, and even worse than finding out I'm not in that new movie.

The worst part is, we didn't even fight. We didn't even try to save us. We just stepped back, and watched us fade away.

Now, six months later so much is done that we couldn't save us if we tried.

To know that nine years of friendship is gonna go down the drain is the stupidest thing I could think of. Yet, here we are about to do it.

The hardest part really is giving up..

I just can't believe we are.

I know that this wasn't good, but honestly, no one can express how it feels to lose a friend. & to see it happen to the two of them especially... I do love the Memi friendship, but Semi has history. It's sad to see it all thrown away. Tell me what you think.