Rose POV

CHAPTER 1

After Dimitri left the gym I went to sit down against the wall and start thinking about my life. Since kindergarten that I wanted to be Lissa Guardian. After her family's death I have been over protective towards her. I knew the bond was responsible for a great part of it but Lissa had always been my best friend and I wanted the best for her, even if that meant that I had to sacrifice myself. I even endured her boyfriend, sometimes. Although it was difficult to see her move on, have someone else she could confide on, I found consolation knowing that I lovers would come and go, despite how in love she was with Christian right now, But I would always be her best friend and her guardian. Me and Lissa would have a connection no one else could break.

Yeah, even if I didn't admit it to myself, I had thought about our relationship a lot since coming back to the academy. I just wasn't prepared for my feelings towards Dimitri. I had thought that if I ignored him, the attraction would disappear. But what I felt for him wasn't lust, of course that to, especially during our combat trainings, but I knew him, I could see things about him he would admit to himself, and e ad the same sense of knowledge about me. I felt comfortable around him, no need to speck or been the center of attention.

And it pissed me of that he chooses to run from me and hide than face what we had. I know his excuse: Lissa, Her safety, my age, blablabla…I knew it all, and I wanted to find a solution. He didn't.

That was the main reason I didn't tell Lissa, My best friend, about my pathetic love life, I was afraid, hell, I was certain that she would feel guilty about it all, she would blame herself for my pain and I could not have that. Her relationship with Sparky was another reason. I didn´t completely truest him and I knew that Lissa would go tell him, and he couldn't know. For one thing, I was positive Dimitri didn't want anybody to know, he could tolerate Lissa knowing because he would see that as a heads up (Hey Princess, your tow guardians are in love, even if they don't give into it, so be aware if danger comes, they may very well protect each other instead of you) but anyone else was too dangerous. On the other and I was afraid Christian may use the "information" as blackmail. That would suit him just fine.

I stood like that for a long time. I lost breakfast and the first class. I was sure I would hear about that later. My suspicions were confirmed at lunch time. I had just gotten to the cafeteria and grabbed something to eat, and by something I mean a full tray of the most unhealthy food available, and maid my way to Lissa's table. As I sat down I could feel her worry about me, she hadn't seen me in the morning and knew I skipped first period. She was about to ask me what had happened when a freshman came over and told me to go to Kirova's office. I didn't need the bond to know Lissa was panicking, afraid I would be expelled. She was aware of my short limits since I came back. No one spoke after the kid left, Lissa just had this concerned look on her face that said she didn't know what to do and Christian looked annoyed that I had managed to disturb his lunch after the sex night thing. I could tell they had been both in some sort of trance today thanks to last night.

It was Mason, who was about to sit down that broke the silence. He had come to sit at my side so he hadn't seen my expression but he must certainly saw the others.

"So Hathaway did you take the first class to…" he didn't finish his sentence as he toke in the atmosphere "Ok something is up. Will anyone please tell me what's going on?" he asked.

"I just got called to Kirova's office" I said.

"Why?"

I didn't know what to say. I mean, sure I skipped one class but it didn't seem to be a motive to be called to her office. I knew I had quit a bad file but I had been a Good girl the past months. And then a thought came to my head. My mother was in the academy, maybe she knew I hadn't been in class and wanted to do something about it. But I wouldn't be called to the Headmistress office for that. And then there was that small hope that Kirova knew what Janine had done to me and wanted my version on what happened. Maybe she would press charges. I would love to see the face of the great Guardian Hathaway if that happened. But I wouldn't get my hopes up. She probably just wanted to lecture me about something.

"Rose must have pooled some serious shit to be called to her office at lunch." said Christian, been an ass as always "Did you pot fire on your mom for giving you a black eye?" he asked turning to me.

"No, but if you don't shut up I may very well do that to you. Lissa won't be able to protect you." I shouted back.

"Rose, stop. We have to know what this is about!" said Lissa. It annoyed me that she couldn't see Christian started it all. I blamed the dammed sex for it but it still hurt to see she had chosen to take his side. Beside her Sparky smirked at me and just like that my temper toke the better of me. Throwing a death glare at him I practically jumped of my chair and stormed out of the cafeteria, blocking the bond. I didn´t want to know what was going on in Lissa's head, I felt betrayed.

I made my way to the administration building to see in what trouble I was now.