summary: what drives a man to the edge. how far will a man go to get revenge for the one they love. what can make a man lose it. Abby in the hospital and strange pills. Tim McGee will find out, but can gibbs stop him before it's to late.

A/N: this is my first fan fic story so please be nice. and please read and review.

Disclaimer: i do not own ncis or any of its characters.(though i wish i did). and in no way am i making money off this. besides it be useless to sue me. i got nothing but a pack of gum, and $2.00.

The Pain and Angst of Timothy McGee

Chapter one: The beginning of sorrow and pain

The NCIS crew was doing their usual rounds that afternoon,investigating a homicide of a Petty Officer and his wife at the Moon Light Motel, which was at the outskirts of town. An almost remote location with only the motel, a small stretch of road that led uphill to another small rural town, which Tony called a "hillbilly hick town", and acres of woods surrounding the motel that seemed to stretch on for miles.

"It seemed like he was shot three times in the chest," said Ducky, talking to Gibbs, "but I wont be able to tell which was the kill shot till we get him back to headquarters."

"Very well then," Gibbs replied, "as soon as we finish up here we'll leave."

Gibbs, coffee in hand, walked over to Tony, McGee, Ziva, and Abby, who were all at the door of the room where the homicide happened.

"What do we got?" asked Gibbs.

"Owners says the two checked in late last night and were alone when they went to their room," replied Tony.

"Neighbors say they heard gunshots early this morning," Ziva added, "and saw a man run out the room and drove off in a red and brown 1993 Camaro with license plate number N037739."

"Alright then, Tony, Ziva, you guys stay down here and question the rest people in rooms, McGee, Abby, you guys go up top to the second story and question all the people there, got that?"

"Yes, boss" Tony answered, distracted by a scantily clad young blonde-haired woman next to the pool, "And I think I've just spotte my first witness..."

Gibbs responded by slapping him in the back of the head.

"Gotcha, boss." said Tony.

XX

"So why did you come with us again, Abbs?" McGee asked as they were walking up the stairs,

"Cuz' I need to get away from the lab, I get so lonely in there while you guys are gone," said the young goth, "Why, you don't want me to come?"

"No, I'm happy you came."

Actually, McGee would prefer that Abby always came with them. He liked being around her and he knew she felt the same. McGee always had strong feelings for Abby ever since he first laid eyes on her. He can't stop thinking about her. She had the most beautiful eyes he had ever seen. He wishes he could stare into her green eyes and get lost in them. But he had never told her how he felt about her because he was afraid that she might not have the same feeling towards him. He was afraid of being rejected. Besides, he didn't want jeopardize their friendship.

When they reached the second floor they decided to start with the hallway on the opposite side of the staircase. They could see the pool area where the rest of the crew was doing their thing. They didn't find anybody in the first five rooms but just as they were about to reach the next room, the door banged open with a lot of force and a man fell out of the room. When McGee and Abby went to see if he was okay they noticed several guys in the room.

Just as McGee was pulling out his pistol to yell freeze, one of the men pulled a gun out from his pants and fired first. BANG! McGee tried to move Abby out of the way but the bullet caught her in the chest.

"Abby!" McGee exclaimed as he caught her in his arms and fell to the floor with her away from the door.

McGee couldn't believe what just happened as he held a bleeding Abby in his arms.

"McGee," she cried out softly looking up at him before her eyes closed.

"Abby," he whispered back, as he wiped off the blood coming from her mouth.

Just then the guy who fired the shot came out the doorway, the gun still in his hand, and grabbed the other guy on the ground by the collar.

Something inside McGee burned when he looked at him. As he was staring at him rage surged through his body. He had never felt rage of this high intensity before. He wanted to hurt the man. He wanted to torture him, to make him bleed. He wanted to KILL him.

"You bastard," growled McGee.

All fear and sadness left him as he picked up his pistol and fired at him. He missed as the guy jumped into the room.

McGee got up and chased him into the room where he ran into the other men. But before they could even pull out the guns and aim at him, McGee started shooting, blasting at everything that moved trying to get the guy that shot Abby. He didn't care who got in the way as long as he got the bastard. But the guy jumped out a back window, onto a roof and ran. McGee ran to the window to chase the guy but he was already gone.

"Shit," he said under his breath.

McGee was fuming. He couldn't believe the guy got away.

He turned his head in time to see one of the guys on the floor reaching for a gun. McGee went in and stepped on the guys' finger just as he was touching it, making him groan in pain. He looked up

to see the murderous face of McGee glaring back at him.

Just then McGee saw the face of Abby shooter on the guy and immediately raised his pistol and shot his face. At that moment he looked up to see Ziva and Tony walk in, with their guns drawn, shocked at the massacre that was left behind in the room. Gibbs was outside tending to a still unconscience Abby. McGee dropped his gun and ran up to them.

"Abby," cried a tearful McGee.

"Somebody get Ducky up here, now," yelled Gibbs, who also bursted into tears as well.