Paige is in love with Emily Fields, however Emily doesn't even know she exists. How will Paige react to Emily's new girlfriend Maya? Will it finally give her the courage to talk to the raven haired beauty?
Chapter 1
The wind whistled past my ears as I accelerated my motorcycle again. I just need to get away. Away from the pain I feel, the hurt, and her… especially her. Why does it hurt so bad? Why do even care? It's not like we were together in the first place, but it doesn't stop the ache I feel in my chest. I saw her kiss her and I felt my world crumble. My vision blurs as the tears fail to stop. I quickly wipe them away, only to have more fresh tears fall in their place. Why does it hurt so bad?! She isn't mine! She never was! I think in my head. I'm not allowed to be jealous. It's not fair to her, so why can't I shake this terrible ache in my chest over today?
flashback
I watch quietly in the library. I see her, in her perfect crisp white leather vest, her jet black hair falling perfectly framing her face and her perfect honey-crisp skin glowing as the suns rays hit her through the windows. She's talking to her friends at the table, when the new girl walks up and places a hand on her shoulder. I watch as she turns around and smiles, flashing her perfect pearly white teeth, my eyes narrow at the interaction. I want her to look at me like that, but I don't know how to get her to even notice me, and on top of that her "best friend" hates my guts. I watch bristling with jealousy as she brings a perfect hand up to the other girls cheek and leans in smiling as she kisses the new girl Maya I think her name was. My eyes open wide in shock, and surprise. The cup in my hand burst, and I realize that I squeezed it in shock and anger.
"Paige?! What the hell?!" I hear someone next to me shout, but I don't respond. Instead I get up swiftly, shaking my hand of the liquid that spilt, and roughly grabbing my backpack, before storming out of the cafeteria. I can feel the tears prickling my eyes. As I shove my way through the front doors and to my motorcycle. I can't watch that again, I don't even want to admit that it happened. All I know is that I need to leave.
end of flashback
And thats how I ended up driving 97 mph on a backroad to a secret lake. I slow down a little to make the turn, not really caring if I wipe out, because maybe the physical pain will be better than this invisible hurt that I can't get rid of. Five minutes later I reach the lake. Turning off my bike, and leaning it near a tree, I let the tears flow free now that I'm here. I welcome the quiet that this place offers, but at the same time, I wish it was noisy to drown out the sound of my sobs. They started off as sniffles, but soon reached a point of full out cries. I pick up rocks and throw them as far as I can into the water. I kick rocks into the lake, stubbing my toe particularly hard on a rock that was embedded into the ground but was sticking out, but I welcomed the pain.
"WHY DO I HAVE TO FEEL LIKE THIS?!" I shout at the top of my lungs. "WHY THE HELL DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS?!" I slump down onto the rocks in defeat, and put my head down into my arms and sob uncontrollably all over agin. How I still have enough tears to keep on crying I will never know, but here I am, crying over a girl that doesn't even know I exist. Over a girl that is taken by another girl, by a girl that I will never have a chance with because of who she is and because of who I am. Because she's popular and I'm a book worm. She's gorgeous and I'm average. She's amazingly talented, and I'm a loser. People like me never get girl like her.
"It's not fair." I say out loud to myself. "Why are you even crying? This is why she'll never give you the time of day, you're pathetic." I say to myself, I can't help the harsh words that flow from my mouth. It's like another person is inside of me breaking free of an invisible grasp that I have over it, and loves to make matters worse. Only this time, it's taking control of my mouth and saying them out loud instead of keeping the harsh reality in my head.
I pick up more rocks around me and lightly toss the in the water, watching the waves ripple under the moonlight. Before long I lean back laying under the dark sky watching the stars light up one by one, and listen to the quiet song the wind whistle through the trees. Little black movements break in front of the moon and as I strain to see them I notice that they are bats, flying around. I'm thankful for my thick leather jacket, used as a windbreaker as I ride, because its getting cold. but I don't get up or move, I continue to lay here and wallow in my self pity.
EPOV
We were all sitting at lunch, Aria, Spencer, Hannah, Allison and I, laughing over Spencer and Hannah bickering over a homework assignment. Allison is sitting next to me and grabs the apple that was in front of me.
"Thanks babe" she says playfully as she takes a bite. I roll my eyes at her, not saying anything but I feel my cheeks flush a little. I've had a crush on Allison for like a year now, and no one has noticed yet, except for Allison. She always plays around with it, but she's straight and I'm trying so hard to respect that. I see Allison turn towards me to talk, but I feel a hand on my shoulder causing me to look up. The hand belongs to a mocha skinned gorgeous hilarious delinquent I am proud to call my girlfriend. Seeing her instantly rids me of any thoughts of my crush on Allison as I stand up to kiss her. Missing the feel of her lips on mine. Maybe my crush on Allison is the reason for me getting into this relationship. I wanted to feel loved by someone else, and when Maya came along and asked me out, I said yes. It helps that she's also a decent kisser. Much better than my ex boyfriend Ben, who is still not talking to me ever since I came out. except for a snide comment here or there, but thats it.
"Hey babe." Maya smiles at me, "Ladies," she addresses them, "You guys wouldn't mind if I borrowed her for a minute would you?" She asks, trying to sound gentleman like, or gentlewoman like.
"No, Not at all" Spencer and Hannah say at the same time, while giving us playful smiles.
"Actually, I do mind." I hear Allison say next to me. she smiles up at Maya, but it's her mischievous smile that never means anything good. "We were talking about something kinda important before you interrupted."
"Allison." I warn, I'm so sick and tired of her games. She does this all the time, it's like she doesn't want me, but she doesn't want anyone else to have me either.
"Well we were Emily" she says matter-of-factly. I know we weren't, and I can't figure out her motive behind it. Normally I would say sorry to Maya and ask for a raincheck, but Allison has been getting on my last nerve with her attitude towards Maya lately. I'm finally happy with Maya, so why can't she be happy for me as well? "So Maya, how about a raincheck on your not so secretly planned make out session with my little innocent Emily here?" she smirks up at her. i can see Maya getting ticked off and honestly I am too.
"Actually Allison," I say quietly gazing up at Maya. "I'm gonna have to ask you for a raincheck…" I trail off, I don't take my eyes off of Maya, because I know if I look at Alli I'll crack. I can see the surprise in Maya's eyes
and I hear a sharp intake of breath from one of the other girls at the table. Without looking at Allison, I quickly grab my backpack and take Maya's hand. She leads me out of the cafeteria, and down a few different hallways before she pushes me into an empty room. As soon as the door closes behind me I'm pushed up against it and Maya's lips are on mine. The soft quick kisses are soon replaced by hungry rougher ones as her hands begin to roam by body. My hands reach up to cup her face, and I moan when she places her thigh between my legs, slowly grinding on her to gain friction.
"God Em." she moans quietly as I spin us around and pin her to the wall. Forcing her legs apart, I put my hand down there and start rubbing circles on her mound through her jeans. She groans in pleasure and I move my kisses down to her neck, roughly sucking on her pulse point. Things have never gotten this far with Maya before, at least not in a public place, but for some reason today, I'm feeling wild. I push past any insecurities or fears I have about what I'm about to do and just do what I want to Maya. I bring my hand away from her pants, replacing it with my leg, as I bring my hands to cup and massage her breasts through the soft material. I move the kisses back up to her mouth and simultaneously slip my hands under her shirt trailing them up until I feel the silky material of her bra. pushing it up until her breasts spring free as I grab them roughly while biting her lip. She groans again, and I bunch her shirt up so I can suck on her pert nipple. She gasps as I alternate between sucking, biting, and flicking it with my tongue. "Shit Em," she breathes. I move my hands back down and switch to her other breast, as I fumble with the button on her jeans. swiftly pulling down the zipper i shove my hand between the jeans and her underwear, drawing small circles on her clit through the soft material. I move back up to kiss her roughly and continue to rub circles on her. Her breathing gets shallower and I can feel her legs start to shake, signaling that she's getting close. I pin her body harder against the door to keep her upright, and move my left hand to cover her mouth it opens.
"Come on baby, cum for me" I whisper in her ear. I see her eyes close and her head tilt back as her back arches off the door and presses tightly into me, I rub my fingers faster and bite down hard on her neck, moaning into the flesh as she lets out a groan into my hand thats covering her mouth. I slow down the movements and let her ride out her orgasm and kiss the spot on her neck that I bit, kissing all over her neck and trailing back up to her mouth to kiss her passionately again. her body racks with shakes, and I let her lean onto my shoulder, keeping her pinned to the door kissing her shoulder every so often.
"That was… wow" she says still trying to claim her breath. I chuckle softly and she smiles at me, able to stand on her own again. "What's gotten into you today? I mean, not that I'm complaining or anything, but I like this new Emily, she's a lot more daring." Maya smiles at me. She's right about the more daring part, I have never in my life had the balls to say 'no' to Allison, and I've known her all my life, and I defiantly never ever would have done what I just did on a normal day.
"I have no idea…" I say honestly, "I guess I'm just sick of how Allison treats you, and me."
"So.. what you're saying is that that was revenge sex?" Maya questions. I can't interpret the look she's giving me, and I don't know what to say, but before I even have the chance to say anything she cuts me off. "Cause if thats true, then remind me to get into more arguments with that bitch." she laughs. I can't help but cringe at the word 'bitch'. I know that thats how Allison has been acting lately, but she's still my best friend.
"We should get to class" I say, I'm pretty sure we've already missed the class after lunch but it was just math, so i'm not that worried about it.
"Yeah, you go on, I need a minute to recover still." she says to me, I know she's lying and is probably gonna skip the rest of the day and smoke weed or whatever, but I don't comment on it. With a peck on the lips and a quiet goodbye, I slip out of the door and make my way to the bathroom to fix my hair before going to class.