and im using it for a school writing sompetition because wahtever. wish me luck. if you're judging the song and think i copied it, no i didnt copy it a wrote it and decided to post it here.
to my readers-hope you enjoy!
note: oh im probably going to try and fail to make a tune for this and post it on youtube... yeah its hopeless cause im horrible
I think we both knew from the start
That everything was never happening
But yet from the first time i saw your eyes
Couldn't stop thinking about those dyes
I don't know exactly how this is truly real
My heart tells me not to think but feel
Yet my mind tells me to turn away with disgust
But my heart just wants to gain your trust
What is happening to that wall
That i built so i wouldn't fall
What is happening to this boy?
The one who wears a mask of joy
Was it ever worth fighting for?
That impossible hopeless childish war?
I guess it was always just impossible
You sure it wasn't ever plausible?
Could i ever have made it come true?
That dream that had me with you?
Or was it just an impossible dream?
One where we escaped this cruel regime?
You were the hope that i saw every day
But i had to keep my feelings for you at bay
Hide myself and turn away
Cause i don't want you to lose your way
Some part of me whispers to give up on you
Cause you were never worth the trouble with blood not true
But that pesky heart whispers back
That you were the only one who ignored the black
What is happening to that wall
That i built so i wouldn't fall
What is happening to this boy?
The one who wears a mask of joy
Was it ever worth fighting for?
That impossible hopeless childish war?
I guess it was always just impossible
You sure it wasn't ever plausible?
Could i ever have made it come true?
That dream that had me with you?
Or was it just an impossible dream?
One where we escaped this cruel regime?
Now it's over and you won the war
Yet who was i fighting for?
Guilt and shame cloud my thoughts
I betrayed you once and for all
I hide the love and run away
Trying to let you choose your way
Except i think we both knew you didn't have a choice
In that matter you didn't seem to have a voice
Maybe once we'll meet someday
After today when we part our ways
And go on with these lonely days
Hoping that someday we'll have a change again
What is happening to that wall
That i built so i wouldn't fall
What is happening to this boy?
The one who wears a mask of joy
Was it ever worth fighting for?
That impossible hopeless childish war?
I guess it was always just impossible
You sure it wasn't ever plausible?
Could i ever have made it come true?
That dream that had me with you?
Or was it just an impossible dream?
One where we escaped this cruel regime?