Sebastian/Blaine. T. Drabble.

[Prompt] For anon: Prompt - Seblaine/Friends with benefits.

Blaine and Kurt break up. It's mutual; sad but understanding smiles, promises to stay friends and One day we should go on a double date with our boyfriends, wouldn't that be fun?

Blaine mopes around for a few weeks but he never complains or says anything mean about Kurt and he greets Sebastian with a bright grin every time they meet. But sometimes Sebastian catches him staring into the distance with a melancholic smile and he knows Blaine is thinking about Kurt; the boy he dated for longer than Sebastian can fathom, the boy he decided to lose his virginity to, the boy he loved and maybe still loves a little. His first relationship, now nothing but a bittersweet memory.

"Hey, um… Sebastian, do you still want to… to have sex with me?"

They are lounging around on Blaine's couch, sharing a bowl of cashew nuts, Blaine reading poems and Sebastian rolling his eyes at the political news.

"It's totally fine if you don't," Blaine says quickly, his whole being radiating awkwardness. "I understand if you got bored of the idea after all this time…"

Sebastian looks at him with raised eyebrows, wondering if this is a prank. "I still want you, Blaine. Actually, I want you now so much more than I wanted you the first time we met."

Blaine glances at him, his eyes shocked. Sebastian doesn't know if he should be amused or offended. He toned down the outrageous flirting a little, yeah, but the very idea of Blaine thinking Sebastian no longer wants him is utterly ridiculous.

"Oh, okay." Blaine swallows heavily and Sebastian feels a sudden sharp tug of desire in his stomach as he stares at Blaine's Adam's apple bobble, at his tongue flickering out nervously to wet his lower lip, at the sudden blush on his cheeks. Sebastian thinks about how maybe he finally has the chance to actually press his face into Blaine's neck, kiss those pretty lips until they are both breathless, make that sweet blush spread to Blaine's neck and chest. He had to make do for so long only on his fantasies with his fingers wrapped around his cock and Blaine's name on the tip of his tongue, but maybe now…

"I couldn't do this with anyone else, Sebastian. Okay, I'm not sure I can do this with you, but I… I want to try. I think I could… maybe it would be fun… but only with you."

Sebastian blinks at Blaine, surprised how serious Blaine sounds, but then he remembers sex is a much bigger deal for Blaine than it is for Sebastian, or at least Blaine takes it a lot more seriously. If Blaine thought sex doesn't mean anything he would have had sex with Sebastian all the time even when he was still Kurt's boyfriend. Lack of desire definitely wasn't the issue; Sebastian knew Blaine wanted him since the first time Blaine stumbled over his words so adorably, ducking his head with a faint blush when Sebastian grinned at him.

"Should I take this as a compliment?" Sebastian asks with a small laugh.

"Yeah…" Blaine nods slowly, still so serious it makes Sebastian smile. "Yeah, you definitely should. I trust you enough to try to do this… to have sex with you even though you are not actually my boyfriend. Sebastian, we had our ups and downs, to put it mildly, but I really like you now and you are truly very attractive… I'm not ready to have a boyfriend, not so soon after Kurt. I'm not ready to give my heart to someone right now. And I'm not sure you are ready to have a boyfriend either, to be honest. But I think we could be, well, we are already friends so we could add the benefits part too?"

"Okay," Sebastian says. He isn't sure this is not just a wishful dream but if it is he is determined to enjoy it as much as he can. He is determined to enjoy it even more if this is real.

"If it, uh, works…" Blaine looks so unsure Sebastian wants to try to comfort him; take Blaine's hands between his own or wrap his arms around Blaine or something, but instead he just gives Blaine his kind, supporting smile – he isn't sure he knew how to smile like that before Blaine. "Sebastian, if it works and we think we are both ready we can try to be something… more?"

Sebastian thinks about meeting Blaine's parents and brother one day and promising them that he will take care of their son and little brother, about movie dates and giving each other gifts for anniversaries or whatever and hugging Blaine from behind and saying That's right, he is my boyfriend…

"Yeah, sure. Maybe. But right now… do you want us to fuck in your bedroom, Blaine? I don't think this couch is big enough…"