Prologue

Writers Note: I don't own Twilight or any of its character, plots, whatever.. Only New characters and plots:D

After New Moon

Edward and Bella are married

At Edward's house

Bella's POV

Regrets

"What do you mean?"

"Bella, I mean that I can't live without you! I didn't want to leave you! I had to! Well, that's what I thought! If I knew that it would only hurt you, I wouldn't have left you at all! Don't you see? You are the only person in this world I can't leave. And wouldn't want to leave."

"What about Alice? And Carlisle? You can't leave them. Right now they need you!"

""Bella , you need me. You need me more than they do. If I leave you now, I may lose you forever! Besides, I've already left them before. Those months when I...left you, most of my 'distractions' were hunting and trying not to think of how you were. Those months, I couldn't function. Couldn't speak, anything. Edward Cullen was still in Forks, Washington."

His words trailed off. I suddenly knew that I had hit a sore spot. It wasn't his fault. None of it was. Not Jacob leaving, not Victoria trying to kill me. Not even him leaving. He only wanted to do what was best for my stupid health.

Instead of speaking more, for fear of upsetting him again, I reached out my shaking hand to his warm, strong one. Part of me was happy. I wouldn't have to leave my first family and friends. I would be able to have a family with Edward, have an almost normal life. But part of me was also sad, both Edward and I would have to say goodbye to our second family. And we wouldn't have eternity either, only about 80 years.

If only that witch had had more than one vial of vampire reversal potion, then I wouldn't have to say goodbye to Alice, Esme, Carlisle, Emmett, Jasper, or...Rosalie. Would we ever be friends before they had to leave? Part of me feared I already knew the answer. But more importantly, would I really be satisfied with this life? I was ready for eternity with Edward. Ready to spend the rest of forever with him. How can someone give up time like that?

So here Edward and I were, in the last place I would ever expect him and I to be : Sunny California, trying to find the one person I would least expect to be looking for. The one person that didn't want to forgive those who had hurt him, but was forgiven by those he hurt. Jacob didn't want to forgive me or Edward. Edward for the obvious reasons, and me for reasons I don't enjoy discussing.

Why did I lead him on when Edward left? Why? Was my heart still breaking? Or trying to heal itself? But how could I ever convince myself that anyone but Edward could ever mend my broken heart?

If only I had known that he would hurt so much when Edward returned. I wouldn't have even went near him. Then he wouldn't be trying to go kill himself. If only I hadn't went to his house that day. If only...