One Shot

His eyes gazed over the night sky. The stars twinkled brightly and the moon casted down its silver light. Darkness consumed the earth and hushed everyone to sleep, but one boy stayed up trying to remember what her smile looked like. The memories came back to him, one by one. At some he frowned and others he smiled. Her face was the brightest star in his sky. He wished she would come back and shine for him again. The world seem to disappear when she was around. All the worries and fear always left, and all that was, was him and her. Those were the times when everything was perfect but behind every smile is a secret. One that's never really spoke until you feel your heartbreak because of it.

He loved to watch her paint. The way her eyebrows knit together in concentration. At the end of it all, there would be a beautiful picture captured by her hand. In her eyes every thing was perfect but in her world pain was a drug. He held the note she gave him the day she left.

Dear Jace,

Where do I begin with you? I love you so much and out of all seven billion people that walk this earth, I'll miss you the most. I want to stay with you forever but I guess life has finally caught up with me. Every smile I would make was always for you. My heart was always yours. It wont change even if I'm gone. I love you, I love you, I love you. It seems like I can never say it enough. I'm so sad. So broken. I can't fix it even if I tried and trust me, I've tried. Everything is so messed up. Life is dull. We both lost someone special and I guess it was a deeper cut than it seemed. I left something for you, in Luke's farm house. It's upstairs. I hope you'll like it. Please, don't forget. Don't forget who I was to you. Don't forget all the times we've spent together. Please don't forget me. Live without me. My life may be over but yours is still going. Find someone else, she'll love you and give you more than I ever could. I may not take my place down on earth, by your side, but I will watch over you in Heaven. As your angel, as you were mine.

Love,

Clary.

The sky never looked bigger as it did today. Jace looked upstairs and saw what she had left for him. A painting of a girl in a boys arms. He was crying and she was smiling. Two day before that, he went to visit her. Jocelyn said she was in her room but when he got there, the door opened to a girl bleeding on the floor of her room. Open cuts on her wrists. He never felt pain that bad before and he hated it. Living was now a curse to him. Every second away from her felt like death clawing at his feet. The faint figure of her smile always danced in his head. He only wished he could join her up there. To smile and laugh with her, but knowing everyday that she was gone caused every ounce of happiness to drain out.

His eyes continued to watch the stars. The more they shined, the more he lost himself in them. Like he was flying in an empty land, where he could at last be free. Even if freedom walked its way up to him, he was always lonely. What's the point of being free if your alone with no one to be free with?

Warm tears fell onto the green grass. He reached his hand up to the sky but he could never touch. It looked so close. Close enough to feel but distance. . .distance makes you want, and want slowly kills you.

"Remember when we first met?" he whispered to himself. He just hoped she could hear him. "I was such a jerk to you."

Clary walked into her new school and sighed. She didn't want to move but her parents forced her. She looked around and saw students staring at her. She put her head down and continued to walk.

She found her way to her locker and opened it. As she grabbed her things she continued to walk down the hallway. There was no one to talk to and she was very lonely. She had to leave her friends behind at her old home. Lost in thought, her body collided with someone else's. Her eyes snapped up to a boy standing in front of her. He had blonde hair and golden eyes. She instantly thought he was the most beautiful thing.

"Watch where you're going will you?" the boy sneered. She nodded in fear and walked off. "Hey! You new here?" he asked her. She nodded shyly. "Then don't mess with me." he smirked and walked off. She sighed. 'Great first impression!' she thought as she made her way to her first class.

"If only I wasn't so much of douche." he laughed to himself. The star above him twinkled brighter and that gave him a comforting feeling.

Jace sat at the lunch table watching Clary draw. Her red hair and green eyes. Her freckles and dimples. She was beautiful. She was perfect.

"My heart belonged to you the first day we met. Being cold and mean helped hide my emotion." Jace said and continued to watch the night sky. "I wish I could hear your voice again. Listen to your laugh and I'd take back all the times I was such a jerk to you." He placed his hand over his eyes and cried. "Ever since I lost my parents, I never cried for anyone. That was so long ago I forgot what it felt like to cry. Here I am. Crying for you." he whispered. The pain was unreal and he wanted it to go away so bad. "I JUST WANT YOU BACK!" he screamed and let out sobs. "I want you. . .back."

The more we want what we can't have, the faster life kills us and the more cruel the worlds joke on us gets.

A/N: Well then. I got this idea when I was star gazing. I thought of a friend of mine I lost a few months ago and this kind of wrote itself. This is my first fanfic so sorry if it was super bad. I'll get better I promise. Anyway, thanks so much for reading my crappy story.