i tried to kind of freestyle or something on this idk i just like fics that are written kind of like this so i thought, why not try it? so i did haha but yeah, just a kind of drabbly piece inspired by this photoset: untamedobsession dot tumblr dot com /post/41553816639/i-chose-you-you-just-didnt-see because oh god feelings so yeah, here goes...
she can imagine what the commentators are saying right now. what's crazy aj going to do next? who is she going to screw over? they don't understand that she's just a girl with a crush - no, admit it, a girl in love with someone who doesn't love her back. that's just how it is. she's not crazy, she doesn't deserve the chants of 'crayj'. because she just loves him and he doesn't love her and she just doesn't know what to do about it.
(the obvious thing to do would be to tell him, right to his face, i love you i love you i love you, but when your life is being broadcast to millions of people, it's harder than you'd think)
so instead she watches as they're both led on the table and she thinks back to all that time ago when she'd kissed kane and tried to block out what she was feeling for her tag team partner and she'd sat in the ring in his position, the way he'd sat during the pipe bomb, and she'd smiled at him and back then she was so much less conflicted, confused, in love. so she sinks to the floor and sits in that same position and hopes hopes hopes he gets the message.
(he doesn't, of course he doesn't, because it's cm punk and he's so oblivious to everything and he's such an idiot sometimes and that's just why she loves him so freaking much)
and unbeknownst to her when he watches the match over later and hears the commentary - 'i still don't know where aj stands' - he knows. he knows exactly where she stands.
(with him with him with him and he's surprised at how happy that makes him)