Prologue

It was raining; rain so hard that the boy couldn't see more than a couple of meters in front of himself. The long range sensors were out. The enemy had spread the chaff over an hour ago and even with the rain washing it away it would be at least another 30 minutes until the effects of it dissipated. He opened and closed his hand again. It was his nervous habit. This wasn't the first time he would be using the EVA to fight something besides angels. This wasn't his first time fighting alone, but with Asuka in the hospital and Rei dead, he was alone.

"Shinji," said Misato softly.

"Yes Misato," said Shinji after a moment.

"I know this asking a lot after what just happened, but please win."

"Right," said Shinji.

Shinji suddenly heard the sound of giant footfalls approaching. He braced himself behind a building; his anti-EVA rifle prepared to. The only advantage Nerv had at the moment was they had an experienced pilot and two battle proven EVA's at their disposal. Finally the enemies EVA showed up on his radar meaning they were with in his rifles range. He stepped out from behind cover and spread his AT field to nullify the enemies. He fired his rifle using 3 burst shot bursts so as to make sure not to hide the enemy with the smoke produced by his fire. The Eva fell over its head blown off and its chest riddled with holes several having gone completely through. Shinji saw blood pooling around the EVA along with LCL fluid… Shinji realized one of the bullets must of hit the entry plug.

"Is that it," asked Shinji trying not to think what having the entry plug hit by a bullet for the pilot meant.

"Yes," said Misato, "For now anyways."

Shinji sat in the locker room a water bottle in his hand, a towel around his neck after his shower. He put the straw to his lips and drank the cold water inside. He was alone again. He hated being alone; well that is ever since his father had tried to initiate instrumentality. For the first time in his life Shinji didn't want to be alone, but everyone around him wanted nothing to do with him. He was Shinji Ikari the son of Gendo Ikari, the man who had tried to end Humanity. Even though it'd been over a year since then they looked away when they saw him, they spoke in hushed tones around him and left him alone.

Shinji looked at the EVA from the command deck as they washed and maintained it. Shinji touched the glass, now the only thing that accepted him was the EVA. Ever since the instrumentality he had felt a weird connection to his EVA. He didn't know how to articulate this bond.

"Why did was my father so obsessed with you?" he asked aloud.

"That is something I myself would like to know," said Misato appearing almost as if out of nothing.

She walked up next to Shinji, and looked at unit-01.

"Your father was a secretive man. We've already looked through all his personal effects and still we are missing answers," she said, "What was he thinking? Why did he choose to kill all of those people?"

"He was selfish," said Shinji articulating for the first time his thoughts on what his father had done.

Misato was silent for a moment as she looked back at the unit.

"Yeah," she replied simply.

She glanced at Shinji, her ward looked thin she wondered if he'd been eating properly. Tokyo 3 had been completely destroyed by Seele's attack, but above them Tokyo-4 had been all but completed. She sighed and looked back at EVA unit-01.

"Do you miss her?"

Shinji didn't reply at first, but then finally he spoke.

"Yeah I do," he said.

"Do you want to go see her?"

"No," was his immediate reply.

This surprised her.

"Why not," she asked looking back at Shinji.

"I just don't want to," he said.

However that wasn't why. Last time he'd been to her room was a moment of shame for him. He'd stood over her shaking her hoping she'd wake up crying her name. The only person he thought might accept him was all but dead to the world. He shook her and finally she turned over. Her hospital gown was undone and her chest was bear revealing them to him. He'd stood over her just staring alone. At the time he'd thought it was a good idea, and maybe somehow she'd wake up, but it didn't change what he'd done… he remembered vividly… how it had felt as he'd masturbated over her unconscious body. Then when he'd climaxed he'd… Shinji looked at his hand remember how it been on her face. An just how much what he'd done turned him on. He put some of it on his finger which put her lips… into her mouth.

All the times she'd called him names, called him a pervert and an idiot had been made true in that moment. Then as he sat there next to her after wards he felt ashamed. He felt sick and truly worthless. Since that day he hadn't visited her again.

"As much as I know you two fought; I think that you should know that I think she cared for you a lot in her own way," said Misato softly putting a reassuring hand on Shinji's shoulder.

'I betrayed her,' he screamed internally.

"I know," said Shinji, "but I can't see her yet…"

'And maybe never again,' he finished in his head.

"I understand," said Misato.

"Shinji lets go home," she said gently.

Nerv Hospital

A nurse came to check on patient 303. As she opened the door she went to the end of the bed and looked at the patients check list. The last person to visit miss Soruyu had been a nurse on the night shift, and the last time her clothes had been changed was 2 days ago. The nurse tutted, the personel really needed to make sure she was changed daily after all she was a girl. The nurse turned to the bed talking to the unconscious person on the bed. All right miss Soruyu time to change those clothes. But as she looked up from her clip board she saw that the patient was gone.

"Miss Soruyu…," said the nurse.

"What?" came an angry voice from behind the nurse.

The nurse jumped three feet in the air. She quickly turned to see the red headed girl standing by the window glaring at her.

"And just so you know I can change my own clothes thank you very much," said Asuka Langley Soruyu the pilot of Evangelion unit-02.