"Help; help, no, no somebody help me, Sam? Sam. Where are you? Sam. Oh god the pain. Please."
Dean had no idea how long he had been there. Torn… Broken… in agony. Time had no meaning. All he had was the pain, alone.
He had come to realise things here in the dark.
For instance he knew that you could keep screaming long after your voice was gone.
That it was possible to cry until you had no more tears.
That there was a pain worse than being shot, stabbed, electrocuted…, or torn apart.
"AAAAAAUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!"
"Stop it! Just make it Stop."
When he had first told Sam about the deal he had joked about how hell would be all boy band music and ugly chicks.
Sam.
"Help me?"
Sam is dead
No one can save you.
"Sam is alive "
No Lilith killed him.
"No I can't think like that. Sam is alive "
"Sam!"
"Snap out of it! Think of something else. "
'Mom."
Yeah think about mom.
"Mommy"
"NNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!"
"Sam! Get me the fuck out of here!"
"Sammy?"
He's not coming.
"Sam."
He, doesn't need you like you need him. Remember the Djinn? Sam can have that now your not there. He could even go back to Stanford and forget all about you!
"No."
Yes.
"NNNGGGHHHHNNN!!!!"
"Get out of my head."
I can't, I am you remember.
"Okay fine then, I'm just going to ignore you."
Fine, but then you really will be alone.
"Dad was here and alone for a year. He made it out. I will too."
You are not your father.
You couldn't even kill your brother when he turned bad.
"It wasn't Sam, it was Meg."
You promised to protect him. You let him die.
"Shut up"
You're nothing, as mindless and obedient as an attack dog
"Shut up"
Dad knew who you really were a good soldier and nothing else
Daddy's blunt little instrument
"I said shut up!"
Your own father didn't care wether you lived or died why should Sam.
"You're not real"
I am.
"No."
You can't escape me. You can't even break free of your own chains.
"What?"
Oh come on man, you remember A Christmas Carol. These chains; you made them in life just like scrooge did.
"Yeah I agree with the screwed part"
Sam's not here to laugh at your lame ass jokes.
"He's not ever coming here. Not if I have something to say about it"
You don't.
"What?"
Your not there to stop him now. Ruby is gunna make him turn to the darkside. I bet with you here he's even angrier than Vader!
"Who's making bad ass jokes now?"
I'm being serious.
"So am I"
I know a way out.
"No"
All you have to do is forget
"Not happening. Sam is my brother. Sam and…."
What?
"Nothing."
You forgot something already, haven't you?
"I… I haven't forgotten Sam."
What's our name?
"What?"
I asked you what your name is.
"your name its Dean right?"
I didn't ask you what my name is. I asked you what yours is?
" I…. I don't, I know. That's bad right."
No that's perfect.