I don't own Sailor moon
I don't own Sailor moon. The song is How Do You Get That Lonely by Blaine Larsen so I don't own that either.
This is short little one shot song fic that may spark a companion piece.
Serena is listening to the radio in her room. Thinking about her life so far and wondering about what is going on with it.
It was just another story
Read it on the second page
Underneath the tigers football score
It said that he was only eighteen
A boy about my age
They found face down on his bedroom floor
There will be services on Friday
At the Lawrence funeral home
Then out on Mooresville high way
They'll lay him neath the stone
What so now I am allowed to listen to the radio, you mean I actually get the choice to listen to music. I thought that destine had already planned out everything that I will do and that for the sake of the future I have to sit and play little miss innocent. How can I be so trapped? Ho can my life become my prison and my loved ones my jailors?
How do you get that lonely
How do you get that lonely? Well I don't know…how about having no chance at all to be yourself. Having absolutely no one there for you. Having your friends look through you and only see the future.
When everyone wants you to be something that you are not and only sees what they want to see it gets lonely.
How do you hurt that bad
When no one notices when I cry it only makes me want to cry harder. When they think that I am happy and when they tell me it is for the future. Every time that they take something away from me.
They won't let me play around any more.
I can't sleep in class.
I have absolutely no freedom.
To make you make the call
That having no life at all
Is better than the life that you have
I have no life as it is. I only have a mere existence of fighting and the letting the others
pull the strings. Now I know how a puppet feels. The difference is that I am a humane.
I don't have the rights that others have.
How do you feel so empty
You want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely and
no body know
They all think that I am ok with having no life. They think that I am happy even though I can not move with out being warned about changing the future. They think that I am going to screw up and ruin everything.
The fact that they think that I will be the one to mess up the future hurts me.
Did his girlfriend break up with him.
Darien dose not love me. He sleeps around and I can't break up with him for the sake of the future. He resents me for sticking him in this situation.
Did he buy or steal that gun
Did he loose the fight with drugs or alcohol
If I was going to go through with it then I would have to steal the gun. I would have to shoot myself. They would pump my stomach if I took drugs.
Did his mom and daddy forget
To say I love you son
Mom and dad don't know but they don't help. All they want me to be is perfect by their standards. They never say that they love me anymore and I think that they would be fine if I did it.
Did no one see the writing on the wall
About a month ago I started screaming. Took a tube of lipstick and wrote all over the walls about how I don't want to be princess and all that got me was grounded for two weeks and having to clean my walls.
I'm not blaming anybody
We all do the best we can
I know hindsight's twenty twenty
But I still don't understand
The only thing that I don't understand is why I don't do it. I am not even living so why do I keep fighting so that others can leave me in my misery?
How do you get that lonely
How do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call
That having no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty
You want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely
And no body know
They don't even look at me anymore. They don't have time…
Serena…