Sometimes
By: Lady Dark Angel
A.N./Disclaimer: Hi everyone! LDA here and this is my very first Naruto story! I'd originally thought my first would be a Naru-Saku (it's my fav pairing after all) but after watching an AMV on youtube, I had the urge to write a Saku-Sasu based on his leaving. Hope you like it! And no, I do NOT own Naruto (too bad…)
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Shadows. Sometimes all I ever see is shadows. I shifted on my cot, watching the candlelight flicker against the barren walls of my room.
Nothing was familiar now; not my home, my room, my bed, team, or training. Absently I stroked the mark on my shoulder, deep in thought.
Sometimes her face pops in my mind, invading, unwilling to be pushed away. Her voice, clear, in my ears… I try to silence her but sometimes…she won't leave.
Sakura…
That night…was a night of many thoughts: where to go, what to do, how to do it, what I left behind…whom.
She had known.
"You're leaving aren't you?"
All I had seen was her eyes. A sea of green, pleading with me, full of sadness. My hand fell down to my chest.
I wanted power, I wanted revenge…but sometimes… no focus. It's all I want.
But is it? Her voice…her lips a soft pink… lighter then her hair.
I waved the whisper away. Yes it is. Nothing can come before my goal!
I love you! Tears…
The candle flew across the room and collided with the wall turning the room pitch black. I couldn't see but I knew it was there. My fist. Wax splattered and shaking. I can't love you…
You can't go! I'll scream! Desperate…
And yet her eyes screamed ever louder 'what if Sasuke…? What if?'
I retrieved the
candle placing it back on the bedside table, leaving it unlit. She
deserved so much more... What could a man like me offer her…my
heart is frozen beneath a mountain of ice. I couldn't taint her
with my darkness.
What if...
Could I have loved her if my clan were not destroyed…? Maybe even be happy? Would we have been better friends? Teammates…
Shame, unbidden, crept up my throat. I had treated her bad, as a friend and as a team mate… as a person. But I still cared. I may not love, but I can care. Oddly, I was humbled by her love and devotion, despite my own actions. I was glad inside that someone cared so much. But, it couldn't work. Not with my revenge incomplete…but what if…?
You really are annoying……thank you. I'm sorry.
She never saw it coming…but I didn't realize until that moment…Sometimes I too wonder 'what if'… I regret leaving her on that bench… her tears mingling in the wind, beautiful in your sleep.
A knock at the door rips me from my musings. I open the door, coming face to face with Kabuto. The four eyed prick.
"Sasuke, Lord Orochimaru, has a mission for you…" I nodded and follow after him.
What if….?
I shook my head, banishing the sea of green and pale pink from behind my eyes. Sometimes, there are too many 'what ifs'.
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Fin.
A/N: So…did you like it? Hate it? Gimme a review and tell me whatcha think! XD lots of love!!
LDA