Author's note: This is a Yaoi fic but I'm not telling who, you'll just have to read! Also writing, " speaking and thoughts Okay?.. Good!
Disclaimer: I don't own the Ronin Warriors.
WARNING: This is a YAOI fic! Also lots of depressed Sage and lots of dirty little fantasy!!
Chapter1) Thoughts of you
Sage glanced around his room, his gaze keep going back to the door. He was alone and the door was locked, two facts that eased his nerves. Sage carefully opened the drawer of the side-table next to his bed, as if the slightest sound would give him away. He then removed several sheets of paper and small books till the book on at the bottom came into view. He grabbed the book and shoved everything else back into the drawer and shut it. Sage opened staring at a picture of his friends and the person he loved the most. None of his friends knew he had these pictures; they were part of his secret. Sage traced his fingers lightly over the picture tracing his face. His smile seemed to light the photograph up and made him even more beautiful. Sage had come to terms with his attraction, which at first he denied and tried to convince him self that it was admiration or a sort of loving a friend feeling. He realized that it was love after they had defeated Talpa for the first time. It was also when he got this book, so he could keep pictures of the one he loved. Sage flipped to a few pages in where he had started writing at the beginning nonsense, just in case Rowen ever found out about it and asked. Sage stopped flipping when he came to the true portion of his writing. Sage smiled a bit reading it and seeing how foolish it sounded. Why do I feel this way? It's hard to believe I have a crush on him… Then again, he's amazing, hot, and well some one I feel safe around. He'd hate me if he knew what I felt towards him.> Sage closed his eyes reliving that day in his mind.
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He was sitting on the couch reading. It was quiet for once, because Rowen and Kento were outside wrestling, Ryo was upstairs still sleeping and Sai was in the kitchen.
"Um.. Sage, what are you reading?" Sai was trying to make small talk and took a seat right next to me.
"I don't think you'd be interested in it." I said flatly not even glancing at him.
"Oh… Well here. I have no use for it and well I thought you could make better use of it… Or you could give it to one of your girlfriends." He handed Sage a journal and his voice was as soft as ever. I glanced up feeling silly and foolish as I averted my eyes from his as I took the book. "Sage are you okay?" He touched my arm lightly and my body felt like it was on fire. It was something I never felt when a girl touched me.
"I'm fine… Thank you." I got up and left but forced my self to keep a calm pace and a collected mask as I walked to the room I shared with Rowen. Shutting the door I leaned against it running my fingers over the front. The book was a deep green was golden color designs all over it. I laid the book down and touched my arm where Sai had touched it. Shaking my head I got up and headed for the bathroom.
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Sage rested his hand on the stop that Sai had touched that day. It was the beginning to a torturous time for him of secretes and being so close to his British friend and not being able to touch him or anything. Sage stared that the last sentence on that page.
I will never let him know! Never!>
Sage looked back at one of the pictures of the smiling Brit wanting to touch him so bad. Sage licked his lips as images of Sai rose in his mind. Followed by thoughts and images of Sage lying next to him, running his hands over his prefect body. Sage let his eyes slid close and his hand ran down his own chest.
"Sage?" Sage's eyes snapped open and he scramble to put the pictures and book back in their place. Who ever called his name knocked on the door but Sage wasn't sure if they called his name again.
"Yes?" Sage opened the door. Rowen stood there looking a bit ticked off.
"Why the fuck was the door locked?" Rowen asked walking into the room. Sage's eyes darted around looking for an alibi, and thank god he had mess up his bed a bit.
"I was taking a nap." He said walking back over to his bed and started to straighten it back out. Rowen nodded grabbing a book from their bookshelf. Sage glanced back up at Rowen chewing the inside of his lip. If I tell him first maybe he can help me. "Rowen? I need to talk with you." Sage said stopping Rowen from leaving.
"About what?" Rowen asked, usually people talked to Sai so why did Sage need to talk to him. Sage shut the door and locked it.
"If I tell you promises to keep it a secrete." Rowen nodded very curious to what could rattle Sage. "I… I'm gay. And I think I love Sai." Sage finished before Rowen could say anything. Rowen stared at Sage surprised by the statement. Rowen took a second to gather his thoughts then looked back at Sage.
"All right… what ever float your boat is my opinion." Rowen shrugged turning back to their bookshelf screeching for a book. "But why are you telling me shouldn't you tell Sai?" Sage fell back onto his bed with a sigh of frustration.
"It's not that easy… It was hard enough telling you!" Rowen looked at Sage confused. "I've known that I was gay since we defeated Talpa the first time."
"What!… But all the girls you.?" Rowen made a hand jester and closed his eyes in order to calm down so he wouldn't yell again.
"It was just something I did to try and convince myself I wasn't gay… They didn't mean a thing." Sage confessed. Rowen sat down on his own bed trying to figure out a way for Sage to tell Sai.
"How about you ask Kento?" Rowen shrugged.
"You've got to be kidding?" Sage glared at Rowen.
"Sai probably would have told him if he liked men, right? I mean I don't think Sai as good at bottling things up like you are."
"And if he doesn't then Kento knows I'm gay and what if he tells Sai anyways?" Sage hated this. Why did he have to love Sai? It's hard enough confessing you're gay but then telling the person you love and not knowing if they're gay? Rowen rested his chin on his hand trying to imagine how Sage felt.
"What if I ask Kento as sort of a curious thing?"
"Would you?" Sage asked hopeful that Rowen would.
"Sure… but you've got to tell Sai how you feel if he is. Got it?" Sage nodded. Rowen got up and headed back towards the door. "Oh by the way, if you two hock up give me warning so I can move out." Rowen smirked.
"Fuck you!" Sage growled hitting Rowen square in the face with his pillow.
"No don't please." Rowen laughed as Sage lunged for him. Rowen shut the door in Sage's face and held it shut till Sage stopped trying to open it so he could kill him.
"I'll get you for that!" Sage yelled picking up his pillow then grabbing his favorite bath oils headed for the bathroom.
Author's note: Hope you like it! It's my way of making up for making Sage such a dick in Awaken your love for me… Anyways you know the rule by now 1 review and I update.