Family Complications
Disclaimer: I don't own BLEACH or Evanescence's "Missing."
Rukia sat by the door of the Shrine of Penitence, eyes shimmering as she thought of what she had just been told. Renji said Ichigo might have lived, and now Renji was defeated. She winced as a thought came unbidden into her mind. Nii-sama… won't take kindly to this…
Speaking of her brother, Rukia flinched as she remembered the indifference in his voice as he recited the fate that had been decided for her. She didn't regret any of what she did in the living world, but a part of her would always strive to please him, and, right now, she could only imagine how displeased he was with her.
She closed her eyes and began to sway back and forth slightly for a small comfort. She had never meant to displease him - she had spent too much time trying to live up to the clan name. A tune ran though her mind and she could help but find it appropriate for her situation. It was one she had heard Karin playing, an English one.
"Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
'Isn't something missing?'"
That's true… She was to be executed, she could be able to go home again, and her brother probably wouldn't even notice that she was gone. Would he miss her?
"You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant?
Am I so insignificant?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"
That's right… he only came to look for me as a mission… If he had truly missed her, as a captain he would have had the resources necessary for finding her. And was she truly not worth it? If that's the case, why did he adopt me in the first place? Would any of the clan miss her? A sad smile crept to her face because she already knew the answer - they wouldn't.
"Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?"
A joyless laugh escaped her lips as she thought about the words. She was going to die partly so that the clan wouldn't be charged with housing a criminal, and she knew that he wouldn't try to help her. He made that clear last time we spoke… She would die to know that he loved her, even if just a little bit.
"Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
'Isn't something missing?'
Isn't someone missing me?"
She knew that her brother was closing himself off from the world, and she knew that it was slowly destroying him. She had been subconsciously doing the same thing, and she didn't know what would have happened if she hadn't met Ichigo, but… Byakuya had no one.
"Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?"
Her throat constricted before she could continue as salty tears flooded her eyes. She would do anything for her brother, all he had to do was tell her, and she didn't blame him for what was happening now, she couldn't. Nii-sama…
"And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you,
I'll wake without you there…
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something…"
Tears started falling down her cheeks as she remembered the time he had somewhat comforted her, right after Kaien-dono… right after she killed him. Byakuya had allowed her time to mourn, and would stay one step closer to her whenever they both had to go out, two steps closer when around Ichimaru Gin, acting as a buffer between her and the world. Now he didn't care.
"Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?"
The Kuchiki was reduced to sobbing, slowly resigning herself to her death, but she didn't feel the source of a powerful reiatsu outside her door, slowly walking away, his dark eyes closed so no one would see the conflict there. The Kuchiki head looked up at the sky, seemingly trying to find answers written in the clouds. "Hisana… what do I do?"
AN: First attempt at BLEACH fanfiction, so please go easy on me! I just up and wrote this one day for seemingly no reason at all. I'll be the first to admit that crossovers by far are my forte and this is just kinda there, so please review and tell me how I could make it better!