I would miss Forks. Knowing far well that this is my last year here at least for a long while.. My family will never age but are suppose to be. my mother and father to the human world are twenty five but will forever be frozen at seventeen and eighteen. Luckily having a slim petite build, and being on the shorter side at five foot five inches I can most likely pass anywhere from a mature fifteen year old up to a young women in her mid twenties. .With the help of props like my vampire family. Carlisle and Esme are the oldest in every way. they were in their mid twenties when they were changed, but should resemble humans in their mid thirties. Carlisle and my father wore glasses to help. My mother, and aunts wear more makeup and dressed quite mature. even so this charade can only last so long. we have been pushing it.

when I was a baby the story had been that I was my fathers adopted niece. however once they saw how quickly I would grow they knew this would not work they kept me out of the the public eye as much as possible. and never for any length of time. after a bit the story changed someone unknown family member stepped up and I went to go live with them. When I was 4 I resembled a small thirteen year was then I began going to school and began ninth grade at forks story then became that I was my fathers cousin. a daughter to his father's youngest brother. my mother died when I was very young, then my father died in a plane crash. so I was an orphan. If my mind was not so sharp and never ending I would even get confused,

No one asked many questions. they all assumed my parents were still healing from the loss of the baby they helped raise so being a sensitive subject no one brought it now I was staying with the Cullen's on my 4th birthday I only had another 3 years until I was full grown my family knew it would time out just correctly. and they were right. today was going to be my first day as a senior. it is sept 4th and my last real birthday my seventh birthday will be on the 11th. after that I would never age again. my Aunt Alice is throwing me a huge party where to the humans i'll be turning 17.

now it was all coming to an end in my family's defense they have done everything in there power to give me a normal childhood without moving around and keeping me close to my grandpa and Jacob my home but we are on borrowed time and I know that.

Last year I moved out of my parents cottage and into my fathers old bedroom partly to give my parents privacy as well as my own. plus the room and closet that Alice expanded was much bigger.

as much as my father wants me to go to Dartmouth next year on the East coast in a state called new Hampshire he assured me there were plenty of wildlife, though more sunny days that would keep them inside, but it was the second best place to Washington. The rest of my family knows that its always best to start out as young as possible after all I have forever to go to college. so we will most likely start out in 9th grade while Rosalie and Emmett start out as sophomores. then I will become Edwards sister also adopted but the Cullen's. after all I look the most like my father to a human's eye. my hair color is the same as my father. I have my mothers eyes though not anymore.

I will miss grandpa and sue but my Jacob will be coming with us. and we will visit.

"come on Ness you're going to be late" Jacob hollered up the stairs.

I ran down the stairs "okay lets go Jake"

on the way to school Jacob looked deep in thought

"what's wrong Jake" I probed

"nothing Nessie i'm fine ill meet you at 3 pm"

I wanted to remind him that I do not need a vehicle to get home but I know that now more than ever we must keep up pretenses.

I lifted an eyebrow at Jacob

" I know you better than anyone something is wrong"?

he sighed

"I'm just thinking about the move next year I wish there were a way to work this out"

Jake I feel the same way, but you know we can't pull this off much longer well you and I can but my family can't. I can't leave them and I am not happy making you decide between your home your family and mine"

"Renesmee you and the Cullen's are my family. and you and I can come back to visit Bella as well."

school was going by quickly and when lunch rolled around nothing looked very appetizing.

I grabbed an apple and a milk while walking to my table just like my mother before me my list of followers come straight behind me . all the boys in the school have always given me an obscene amount of attention. at first making it hard to make any girl friends but then again my friends and I am used to it by then. my father told me that the same thing happened to my mother when he first saw her my mother tried to deny it but with my fathers ability to read minds he knew what all the boys and girls were thinking.

Andrew Sykes, Brian Connors, and Mark Roberts were the worst of them. Brian was wishing me an early birthday telling me how excited he was for my party aunt Alice sent the invites out weeks ago.

"ya it should be fun" Stephanie said.

Then Brian proceed to ask me if He can take me to a movie Friday night, and I made up some excuse like I had been doing for the past four year's now what I was not expecting was his next question

"are you and that guy Jacob dating now"?

i'm not sure how to answer that knowing that lately I was wondering the same thing well I knew that we were not yet but it seemed we were slowly beginning to make the transition or at least that's how it felt.

"no we are just really close friends" I said

I winced inside knowing that the word friend was never the right word for our connection.

after that I just kept quiet and listened while everyone else talked about things that were of no consequence. after school jake was waiting just as I knew he would be.

Jacob smiled a wide ear splitting grin " hey Ness how was your day".I grabbed his arm and gave him a quick rundown of my my easiest way of communicating. but I can see that

Jacob is still chewing over something but trying very hard not to let me catch on after this morning. I decided to let it go for now /i will ask my parents they will know.

when we got back home I noticed that Jake was not coming inside

" you coming in " I asked

" ill be back later I need to talk to Sam pack stuff you know" he gave me a smile that never reached his eyes.

I shrugged " okay ill see you later see ya"

I would not let Jacob know this bothered me and it really didn't. the fact that he has business to deal with was not the problem it was that he was hiding something and he must not trust me with whatever it is.

when I got in aunt Rose came over to inform me that I got another letter from Nahuel the only male vampire human hybrid in the world or so we know. we have been keeping in touch and in his letter I was told he was planning to come to my coming of age birthday. Allie had invited him. was this what jacob was upset about?

"does Jacob know aunt Alice invited Nahuel? I asked

yes he knows but not that he accepted the invite rose said

" is something wrong"? rose asked

"its nothing Jacob has just been acting strange today that's all

have you asked him about it?

yes he just tells me he is fine that he has a lot on his mind first I thought it was just the move but thats not for another year. i dont know he is just not acting like himself.

I ran to the cottage as fast as I can hoping to get my answers and wanting to see my parents they very aren't there to see me off to school or be there when I get home. when I was about a mile away I could make out raised voices but it was my mothers voice I heard

" don't you dare make our pass about Renesmee it was a different lifetime and you know Jake and I don't feel that way for each other anymore."

then I heard nothing my father must know i'm I turned to run I could see my parents open the door to the cottage and run towrd's me but all I could do is scream in my head that I needed to be left alone.

so this was the big secret this is why my parents stayed home to fight about what I should or should not know. that's my choice. I also can't help but feel my friendship with Nahuel also had something to do with this. I was going to hear this from Jacob now no more lies I'm going to know everything!