Title: Normal
Author: VanessatheMagnificent
Rating: G
Feedback: Would be nice.
Spoilers: Standard S11.
Disclaimer: I own no part of E.R., and I certainly don't make any profit from this.
Author's Note: To be honest, I only started watching E.R. three years ago so I don't know much about the show's background much pass the Abby/Carter thing. So as a precaution I wrote drabble-like thing as a sort of a pre-Abby/Neela, and if you guys think it's worth something full-length, I can give it a shot.
Everything in my life was finally normal. Normal as my life could get.
I was sitting here on the couch with Neela who was on my left as we indulged in our favorite pastime- watching reruns. I wasn't paying attention to the television; it was on because it was a soothing habit- there to relax me into a mind-numbness. I was deep in my own thoughts when a forgotten 90's sitcom came on. I wasn't concentrating on the storyline, but I did notice that the main character failed at every attempt change his life for the better.
As I sat there, staring unfocused on the images passing by on the t.v. screen, I try to compare my life to his.
My pitfalls, my loves, my losses.
I realized that my life had too many ups and downs, whether they were good or bad. I've never had a period in my life where I felt in control, in sync with the world.
Sitting there silently with Neela as I reviewed life's progress, I noticed that my existence has never been as calm as it is now. Since this woman came into my life, and most importantly- my home, I have bonded with her like no person I have ever before. To me, Neela embodies every quality that I lack- youth, fierce intelligence, clever British wit, and innocence. She has been both a blessing and a curse.
A blessing because she adds serenity to my life, a curse because she is the reason I need it.
My world has changed for the better because of her, although she does nothing out of the ordinary.
For me, that is all I ever wanted.