Disclaimer: Characters belong to Stephenie Meyer.
I clenched my eyes shut tightly.
I couldn't believe it. No, this could not be happening to me...
"Please! Don't go!" I whispered desperately.
The cold was piercing every inch of my skin but this pain didn't compare to the agony I felt within.
"Jacob ... Kiss me."
He obliged willingly and his mouth was suddenly upon mine, moving rhythmically to the sound of my accelerating heart beat. I wanted to pull away but the desire to stay, to satisfy my curiosity, overpowered my weakened thoughts. My only thought was the moment. Me and Jacob – together.
The tent was cold, I remember. But the heat from Jacobs's excited body could have melted the snow-caps on the mountains.He lowered me carefully onto the thick sleeping bag and rolled slowly on top of me.It was strange how perfectly his body moulded into mine, into every space. It made me feel as though we had been made for this sole purpose.
It made me feel deeply complete...
The tears brimmed within my eyelids. I refused to let them fall. I deserved all the pain that they caused.
Unwillingly, I opened my burning eyes and looked at myself in the mirror, hating the reflection that I saw blankly staring back at me.
I picked up the item from the floor and looked at my sickening form once more. A deadening numbness had spread its way around my body and had encapsulated my heart.
I deserve nothing.
I broke into a sprint, shoving the object in my pocket angrily and started my truck forcefully. The engine roared to life and soon I was at my desired destination.
My meadow shone strangely in the moonlight.
I laughed to myself bitterly. How ironic it was that the same field that caused me so much happiness with Edward was now the place I chose to dispose of the only evidence to a crime that once could have easily broken his heart.
Edwards name made me wince with internal pain, but blindly I soldiered on with my task at hand, trying in vain to forget him.
I smiled weakly to myself as the fire became completed and burned happily in the evening air.
Breathing deeply, I sat cross legged and tried to calm myself. I hummed the only tune that I could think of.
Edwards lullaby.
"NO!"
I screamed at myself, furious that I could betray him like this, and threw the test onto the fire.
I sat down sobbing. Tears rolled down my face as I stared at the roaring fire. I thought that it would have caused me satisfaction to see it destroyed, maybe relief. But instead, I could hear my heart breaking.
Hours passed.
I sat until the flames had burnt down to scorching embers and wished that I too had been thrown into the heart of the inferno that I had created.