Hey there! I'm Fieke and this is my first ever fan fiction. If my English is crap, then it is crap. Don't judge me. I know I can't describe that good things you can see or how they feel etc, but I try my best to write one bc there were some people who inspirated me to start one, so enjoy!

This begins after Allegiant, when Tris went into the room where she's close to dead, you know what I mean if you've read the book.

Chapter 1

Tris POV

I pushed the green button. I fall down on the ground and the ground feels cold. Everything is getting black and I can't see anything, but I try to hold my eyes open. I hear someone running inside, and I know it isn't David. It can't be Tobias either, bc he isn't here. The person picks me up, and I can't see who it is and everything is black.

I wake up later, or I think I wake up. I only can hear things but I still can't see anything. What's happening? I hear Tobias talking to someone, he's screaming and in panic.

"So it can be she's never going to wake up?!"

"Maybe you first have to calm down, Four. It maybe can be, but screaming and crying isn't going to help.", says a girl. She sounds like Christina, so I think it's Christina.

"Wow, that's really going to help me. Do something please! She can't be away forever, I can't live without her". Why don't I wake up? It's so hard to hear him carying so much about me. I have to wake up. I have to.

I want to feel his arms around me, kissing me and holding me tight. I want to smell his fresh body, his soft lips fitting on mine and feel his hands on mine.

"I know this is hard, I can't stand it too. She's also my best friend, it's not like I don't care about her", I hear Christina saying, and crying. C'mon Tris, just wake up, open your eyes and say you're still alive.

I want to say something, but I'm to tired and I don't know what's happening to me. It's like I'm between real life and dead. C'mon Tris, you can do it.

Tobias POV

I can't imagine a world without her. I even don't know how I survived those 18 years without her. Sometimes I'm asking myself the question how it would be if I stayed in Abnegation, and she also did.

I can remember those years I just saw her as a normal girl, like the daughter of Andrew and Natalie Prior. I even didn't stand her brother then. He was always being to Abnegation, and then he just left Tris and her family like they were nothing for him.

If he just went into that room, Tris would still be alive and he would be dead. He doesn't deserve to be alive after what he has done.

"I know Christina, but isn't there anything we could do?" I ask, still in panic and in shock with tears falling down on my cheeks about what happened.

"I don't even know if she's still alive, but maybe we have to search for a nurse?" she says, asking actually to let me go searching for a nurse, but I stay here with Tris. She needs me and I need her. I don't want to leave me, even if she's going to leave me or already left me.

"Yeah, Christina, you can search for a nurse, but I stay here with Tris" I say. I even just fit by Candor by this part.

"Okay, I'll be right back", she says, a bit annoyed because she either didn't want to leave Tris.


Tris is still in the same pose as she was before. Her clothes are still full with blood because David shoot her. If I find David, he never wanted to see me again, what would be no problem because will push his eyes out of his head.

I hear coughes from Tris' bed. Omg, she's alive. She's alive! I want to scream so hard right now, but I keep myself calm and wrap my arms around her.

"Tobias", she says really tired and scared.

"Tris, I'm here for you. I thought you would leave me and that you never were going to be awake." Tears are rolling down of happiness, and by Tris too.

I kiss her and wrap my arms around her waist. She gives me a little smile and kisses me back. Christina comes in with a nurse, and runs to Tris' bed and hugs her with happiness.

"Tris, you're awake, you're still alive!", she says as one of the happiest persons on earth, but I'm that person right now. The nurse walks to her bed and checks her heartbeat if everything is okay.

"Calm down, she's not so long awake and she has to take rest" says the nurse, more to Christina than to me. Christina is a bit resentful and she tries to calm down of her happiness. I just want to be a little while alone with Tris, just us.