"I miss the bad things
The way you hate me
I miss the screaming
The way that you blame me
Miss the phone calls
When it's your fault
I miss the late nights
Don't miss you at all
I like the kick in the face
And the things you do to me
I love the way that it hurts
I don't miss you, I miss the misery"
The loud guitar riff greeted Jensen as he opened the door to Jared's trailer, stepping in almost unnoticed by his friend who was studying his laptop and the woman singing rather intently. Jensen watched quietly, his head nodding to the beat as the woman on stage belted her heart out into a microphone. Her long legs were wrapped in black leather, a strip of skin along her midriff exposed and her torso covered in a blood red corset, matching the red streaks in her dark hair as she banged her head with the audience.
"Firestorm?" Jensen asked, making Jared jump in his seat and whip his head around.
"Fucking hell Jensen, don't you knock?" Jensen laughed as he flopped down in a recliner.
"No...and I haven't in the last five years unless Gen is in town."
"Good point." Jared muted the laptop, grabbing his script for the day and glancing at a few pages before Jensen spoke again.
"She's supposed to be here in an hour." Jared nodded and put his script back down, watching Jensen get up and get an orange juice out of his mini fridge.
"You ready to make out with a rock star?"
"Its a hard job, but somebody's gotta do it."
McKenzie James walked onto the lot of Supernatural and looked around, the various trailers all looking the same as she closed the door of her town car and waived the driver on. She chewed her lip nervously, looking around for a hint of where she was supposed to be. She had come alone, much to the chagrin of her manager and security, but she had insisted and they had thankfully listened. It was a welcome change to leave behind all the people that usually surrounded her, it was easier to feel lonely alone, instead of suffocating in a crowd that barely acknowledged you. With determination she stepped towards the first person she saw, reaching out to grab an arm of the young girl with a headset on.
"Excuse me, can you point me in the right direction? Its my first day, I'm McKenzie James." The girl's green eyes widened and her cheeks reddened.
"Oh my god...I barely recognized you, crap...sorry!" McKenzie smiled at the obviously flustered girl, seeing her wearing a black Firestorm t-shirt.
"Its ok, I barely recognize me without all that makeup." The girl laughed and McKenzie joined her, both of them visibly relaxing.
"You're still gorgeous lady, let me call and see where they want you first, I'm Jenna, I'm a PA on set." Jenna radioed and waited for a reply before pointing over to a trailer with a blue flag.
"Over this way, to the makeup trailer, you have your scripts right?"
"Yeah, got them yesterday. Thanks for your help Jenna."
"Anytime, we'll get you settled in hear with Tiffani and if you need anything just have them call me." Jenna opened the door, ushering McKenzie inside and introducing her to Tiffani. After she was settled in a chair, she and Tiffani discussed with the look for the day was and they were deep in a discussion about makeup when the door opened again.
"Hello ladies, how is everyone this morning?" McKenzie looked up, recognizing the voice of Jensen Ackles instantly and seeing Jared Padalecki behind him. She stood as the boys greeted Tiffani and Lea like family and eventually turned to her. Jared reached her first, holding out his hand.
"Hey, I don't think we've met?" McKenzie bit her lip and shook his hand, Jensen joining them and holding his hand as well as she spoke.
"No, we haven't, I'm McKenzie James." She watched as two sets of eyes widened in surprise and took her in, from the tips of her Chuck D's, up her ripped jeans and faded Aerosmith t-shirt to her black frame glasses, makeup free face and dark brown wavy hair.
"Nice to meet you McKenzie, we're glad to have you here." She smiled and they settled in their chairs, Jared quickly striking up a conversation about the last Firestorm album as Jensen studied his lines.
"Great work today McKenzie." Jared came up behind her and threw and arm around her shoulder, she laughed and looked up at him, her face still streaked with blood from the scene they shot earlier.
"Thanks! I'm exhausted, that was the hardest I've worked in a long time." He laughed as they passed Jensen, who fell in step beside her silently as they made their way to the lot covered with trailers.
"That's what all the girls that have to kiss Jensen say." McKenzie snorted with laughter as Jared cursed when Jensen's hand connected with the back of his head. Jared rubbed the back of his head as Jensen laughed at him.
"Yep, that was what pushed me over the edge, kissing Jensen for an hour was awful." She turned to see the tips of Jensen's ears turn bright red as he laughed.
"Completely agree, worst hour of my life." Jensen stole a glance at her, the corners of his mouth turning up in a grin as her cheeks reddened. She nervously tucked hair hair behind her ear and returned the smile, trying to push down the memory of the way her breath hitched when his lips first settled on hers. What should have been an embarrassing and awkward situation, had turned out to be a moment that took her breath away. As professional as she had tried to be with at least 20 people watching, she had not been prepared for the way her skin tingled when Jensen had leaned in to kiss her on camera. She had been joking around with both of them on set all day, finding them to both be charming and funny, not to mention great actors who helped her a lot on her first venture into acting. Jensen was more quiet off camera than she had anticipated, but they had run lines for an hour or so before their big kissing scene and he had helped her with her character, his thoughts and insights into her character making her see why he was such a great director as well as an actor. He took everything in and used it on set to develop his character like a true artist. She had watched him do a scene with Jared that nearly brought her to tears, he was gifted and he moved her just like music had up until her last album with her band. That was why she had auditioned for this role, she needed to feel inspired again and being around Jensen was proving to be just what she needed.
"You have plans tonight Kenzi?" She looked up at Jared as they walked towards the trailers, trying to remember which one she was using as the guest star.
"No, but I have a radio interview in the morning, so I'm probably going to head to bed as soon as I get back to the hotel, 5 am is very, very early." They laughed and said their goodbyes, Jensen being kind to point her in the direction of her trailer when she looked lost. She grabbed her things and headed out to her awaiting car, exhausted and ready for sleep.
Jensen got to set before Jared the next morning, having an earlier call time and he was on his way to his trailer when he heard the strum of an acoustic guitar. Tossing his bag in his trailer door he turned and headed over to the trailer Kenzi was using, finding her door open and her voice floating out to him.
"Because I'm unapologetic
Unapologetic with you tonight
Nothing to hide
Unapologetic
Unapologetic, turn on the light
All of the lights
And I'll take you as you are
And we'll burn like the stars"
He watched her sing, a notepad on the floor in front of her, her eyes closed and her hands strumming her guitar. She didn't notice him right away and he studied her, finding the girl sitting in front of him to be vastly different than the woman he saw on Jared's laptop the day before. Her skin was free of makeup, her hair a beautiful chestnut with honey gold strands that fell down her back in loose curls. She had gorgeous whiskey colored eyes, a piercing over her left eyebrow the most hard rock thing about her as she was simply dressed in a black tank top and jeans, her feet bare and curled up underneath her as she sat on the floor of the trailer. She stopped playing and scribbled on the paper, dropping the pen and turning up to see him as her fingers played a chord.
"Hey, come on in." She placed her hand flat on her guitar and smiled up at him, her eyes bright as she reached for her coffee and motioned to a recliner.
"I don't want to interrupt." She shook her head as she swallowed her last sip of coffee.
"Nonsense, I could use the break, I've been trying to hammer out these lyrics for an hour with no luck." Jensen sat on the floor across from her, leaning up against the wall with his legs stretched out in front of him.
"Sounded pretty good to me, but that's not saying much."
"Shut up, I've heard you sing, you're really good." His eyes widened and she laughed, resting her guitar on her lap and shrugging her shoulders. "I never said I wasn't a fan of the show, I've seen some YouTube videos, enough to know you have talent."
"Thanks, but I'm no where near your level."
"Everyone has to start somewhere and you do have a great voice, have you ever recorded?"
"Just backing vocals on a friend's album, I love what I do, singing is just for fun. So what are you stuck on?" He motioned to the notepad and she pushed it towards him, he picked it up, grateful to get the focus of himself as he read over the lyrics. He penciled in a few changes and handed it back to her, not meeting her gaze as she picked read it over, wrote down a few things and slid it back to him. They went back and forth for about twenty minutes before she picked up her guitar and sang it through, her voice sure and strong as he relaxed back and listened to her in awe.
Once she was done she put her guitar down and stood, doing a little dance as she came over to him and motioned for him to stand up, throwing her arms around him in a hug once he did. He laughed as he pulled her close, his nose picking up the scents of jasmine and vanilla as her body molded to his. He closed his eyes, unable to stop himself from holding her a litte longer than necessary before letting her go, noticing she barely took a step away from him as she looked up at him from under long lashes.
"So what do you think?" He knew she meant the song, which he really liked, but as she bit her bottom lip he had the feeling she was asking about something more than lyrics.
"It's beautiful." She smiled, running her hands through her hair as she looked down at her bare toes next to his boots, her eyes traveling up the length of him before crashing back into his green gaze.
"Really?" He nodded and her skin flushed, making him lick his lips as he reached for her waist just as someone knocked on her trailer door. She jumped, clearly startled as she took a deep breath and took a step away from him, her voice shaking as she called out.
"Come in!" Jenna opened the door and bounded up the steps, clearly surprised to see Jensen there as well.
"Hey McKenzie, here's your script changes for today, oh and your's too Jensen." Jensen took the newly printed script from Jenna as she continued. "We're going to start a couple hours late today due to the changes, we've already contacted your manager McKenzie and he said you could take a flight out late tomorrow to allow for the extra scenes tonight."
"Oh, ok." McKenzie started flipping through the script, seeing Jensen pull out his as well, her eyes widening when she got halfway through the script.
"What the hell?" Jensen's voice startled her, making her look up to see him pull out his phone and type out a text before looking over at her.
"I take it you got to the sex scene to?"
McKenzie was standing on the set of a motel room, the lime green and wood fixtures reminding her of how her grandmother's house was decorated, like a scene from 1970. She heard heavy footfalls behind her and turned to see Jensen stop within arm's reach of her and she gave him a small smile.
"So you're ok with this?" He seemed overly concerned, even a little shy for having done this before.
"I'm good Jensen, at least it's day two, our last video I got to roll around the sheets with some dude in the first hour. I'm ok, really." She reached out and touched his arm, giving him a reassuring smile as the director came over to talk to them before they started the scene.
It started as an argument, then she shoved him, yelling at 'Dean' for putting himself in danger over her. He yelled back, gripping her arms tightly and snarling down at her, the tension building as she broke his hold and slapped him hard across the face. Her chest heaved as he laughed and took another swig from the whiskey bottle, holding it out to her and grinning when she took it from him and took a long pull before setting it down on the table. She turned to him, seeing him smirk before grabbing her by the waist and pulling her into a kiss, breaking free only to help her rid him of his shirt then hers, his laugh echoing off the walls as she pushed him down on the bed and straddled him, his hands running over her skin as she dipped her head to kiss him.
McKenzie stared up at the ceiling of her hotel room, wide awake as she thought of an excuse to text Jensen. He had been on her mind all day, the ease in which they worked together, the way he made her comfortable while they shot their scene together a few hours ago, acting completely professional and doing all he could to use his body to keep her's covered as much as possible to the limited crew on set. She wasn't a prude and she wasn't shy, she had bikinis that covered less skin than she had shown today, but spending that much time in an enclosed space with Jensen had fried her nerves a bit. She could have taken a flight home tonight, well to Nashville, which was a part time home for her these days, but she had opted to keep her flight for tomorrow. She was done on the set of Supernatural, her guest star experience over, she would presumably never cross paths with Jensen again and the thought left an empty ache in her chest. With a huff she sat up and walked over to the small kitchen area, opening the fridge and grabbing a beer just as a knock sounded at her door. Setting the forgotten beer down on the counter she looked down and shrugged at appearance, the grey tank top and pink shorts covered everything as she leaned into the door and looked through the peephole, her heart racing when she saw him run his hand through his short hair. She fumbled to open the door, reaching for his hand and pulling him inside immediately.
Jensen opened his mouth to speak, but nothing came out as she took his hand and pulled him inside, the door shutting behind him with soft click as she led him into the middle of the room, the small sitting area on one side and the unmade king size bed on the other. Their hands were still entwined as she looked up at him expectantly, but he couldn't find anything to say, an hour ago a thousand thoughts coursed through his brain, finally making him leave his apartment and grab a taxi over to the hotel to see her. Now here he was, with her looking up at him like he owned the sun and all he knew was that he couldn't let her leave tomorrow without seeing her again. As he stared down at her he felt his heart thud in his chest as she bit her bottom lip and looked down to where his hand held hers.
She looked up at him just in time to meet his lips, his arms coming around her and molding her body to his as his lips brushed over hers softly. She moaned into his kiss, her hands sliding up over his broad shoulders and into his hair as she stood on her toes to kiss him back.
Jensen's tongue licked at her lips and she opened for him, grabbing fistfuls of his shirt and walking backwards as their kiss became a tangle of lips, teeth, and tongue. She pushed his jacket off his shoulders as the back of her legs hit the bed, her lips leaving his as she climbed on to the soft mattress, kneeling on the bed as she took in a deep breath and he yanked his shirt off, toeing off his shoes before leaning down to capture her lips in another searing kiss.
Her head was spinning, her nostrils filling with the scent of him, warm cologne with a hint of peppermint as he bent over her, pushing her back onto the bed and crawling up over her, their legs intertwining as he settled his body on top of hers. She welcomed the weight of him, his erection pressing into the soft curve of her hip as his tongue danced with hers, making her shiver underneath him. His lips left hers as his jean clad thigh scraped against her soft skin, his hand tugging the tank top up and over her head before his lips found her neck. He sucked on her skin, vanilla filling his nostrils as she moved underneath him, whimpering his name as she shifted and eventually cradled him between her thighs. His mouth captured her rosy nipple, making her inhale sharply as he lavished her with attention. Jolts of electricity ran up and down her spine as his teeth nipped at first one, then the other, his tongue quickly soothing the pain over and over again as she grew more impatient with him and reached for the button of his jeans.
Jensen sat up, letting her eager hands ease the pain of his tight jeans and his head dropped to her shoulder as her hand slid over the hard plane of his abdomen and down into his boxer briefs, wrapping around the hard length joyfully as he sucked in a lungful of air. He raised up, grabbing her wrist and stilling her motions as he looked down at her. Her hair was spread out around her like a dark halo, her eyes glassy and her lips plump and bruised. Her breasts heaved as she fought to breathe, desire darkening her eyes and making her impatient. He left her long enough to shuck off his jeans and take another deep breath before hooking the waistband of her shorts, pulling them off and leaving her in just a wisp of lace covering her sex.
He lifted her leg, his lips kissing the arch of her foot, then her ankle, biting at her calf, licking just behind her knee and running his tongue up the inside of her thigh, only stopping once he reached the black lace and teasing her with the tip of his nose. She groaned in frustration as he ghosted over where she needed him and went back to her other foot, repeating the process until he was back to her dripping center, nuzzling her until he could hear her moans turn to cries of frustration. Then and only then did he grip one side of her panties and tug, ripping them from her body as he took one long, slow lick that made her cry out with tears in her voice. He used his shoulders to spread her out for him, his arms going under her thighs and his hands splaying across her abdomen as he held her down to the bed and at his mercy.
Her head swam as he circled her clit with his tongue, tasting every crevice without touching the nub that would make her writhe and shake. Her skin burned from the scruff along his jaw, the pain oddly soothing as he continued to torture her. She tugged at her own hair, her hands running over her face and then over her breasts as he stared up at her from between her thighs, his desire growing as her hands continued down and then made their way into his hair. With earnest tugs and throaty moans she begged him for more, her eyes meeting his and the sight of him between her legs nearly pushing her over the edge. His tongue fucked her mercilessly, little cries leaving her lips as he lapped up her juices, finally letting his lips wrap around her clit and suck hard as she screamed and flew into a million pieces.
Lights flashed behind her eyes and vaguely she heard him talking to her, whispering sweet nothings and impossible promises. She turned her head to find his mouth with her own, tasting herself on his tongue causing a shiver to go down her spine as he pushed into her gently. She winced as her slick walls stretched around his rock hard cock, his breath ragged against her cheek as he held her gaze and buried himself slowly to the hilt. His body stilled, every muscle tight beneath her fingertips as he lost himself in her, her voice wrapping around him much like her body as she begged him not to stop. Her nails raked down his back as he began slowly building her back up, pulling out nearly all the way before surging forward and filling her again. As she throbbed around him he could feel the need for his own release spiraling out of control, his hands grabbing her hips as the feeling grew like a fire in his belly.
She felt the familiar coil of energy, the pull of his eyes as he drove himself into her frantically, the green orbs begging her to come with him. Her hands cupped his face, feeling his forehead touch hers as their breath mingled and their bodies tangled. He couldn't take his eyes off of her as she pulsed around him, the slick channel of her sex clamping down on him just as he found his release and filled her with hot cum. He was shouting her name, not giving one fuck about anyone hearing him as she exploded around him again.
He could feel tears on her face as he collapsed on top of her, wrapping his arms around her and rolling to his side, raining kisses on her face and wiping away her tears. She buried her face in his neck, feeling him pull the covers up and over them, her eyes closed and her body wrapped around his. She wanted to stay awake and talk to him, but she was spent, every muscle of her body lax as his lips kissed her softly and she slipped into sleep.
Jensen squinted against the bright sunlight, turning away from the window and reaching for McKenzie, his hands finding nothing but tangled sheets. He sat up and looked around, the hotel room quiet and cold. She was gone, no sign of her ever being here left. He stood and found his jeans, pulling out his phone as he saw something on the bed, the blood draining from his face as he picked up the magazine, a note sticking out of the glossy pages. His chest tightened as he turned to the page with his face on it, his arm around the smiling blonde with a large diamond ring. Picking up the note he felt all hope leave him.
Jensen - congrats on your engagement. Kenzi