The music blared in my headphones as I ran down the busy streets of Konoha. My body charged from adrenaline pumping through my veins with each step I took. Right foot ,left foot, one foot in front of other, pounding hard against the pavement beneath me. I could feel the burn in the back of my throat from breathing in the cool fall air ,but I welcomed the pain. It was a small price to pay for my moment of freedom. That's how I felt when running ,free.
So free.
With each step every muscle in my lower body burned ,and I knew I would be numb by the time I got back to my prison in the sky. I didn't mind though, because it's something I craved, the feeling of being paralyzed by the pain ,numb to the core.
As I ran the wind blew through my pink hair like a silent caress in the night .My green eyes watered as the cool night air hit my eyes like the end of sharp pointed needle and everything started to became such a blurr. I reached a hand up to my watering eyes and I wiped the tears away with the back of my hand and I pushed myself harder and faster as I sped past the tall building of Konoha .
My heart hammered in my chest at a hard steady rhythm, a vital sign that I was very alive in this sad , dark ,depressing world my life had become.
When I turned the corner and passed the Hokage mount on my right ,I slowed my peace before coming to a dead stop .I wasn't sure how I get back here but when I noticed the familiar scenery I looked up at the tall building in front of me. There I was once again standing in front of my living hell.
Feeling breathless and light headed I bent over and placed my hands just above my knees to stop myself from falling over as I tried to catch my breath. Mysides ached, along with every other muscle in my body and I felt sick to my stomach from running so hard and so long. With the twisting and turning in my stomach I quickly stood and rushed over to the bushes in front of the apartment and shamefully threw up in them.
I didn't always run so hard and definitely didn't throw up every time I ran .I stood and wiped my mouth with the back of my hand and I could sense someone walking up behind me before I could even hear their footsteps. I felt the intense stare on my back as they approached and they were the same watchful eyes that monitored my every move since I left the building over two hours ago.
"Are you okay, Sakura?"I heard the familiar voice ask between hard labored breathing before they placed their hand on my shoulder.
I looked down at the hand resting on my shoulder and then slowly moved my glare to the tall man behind me. Suigetsu ,"the babysitter" .That was the best word to describe him because his main job was to keep an eye on me.
"I am fine." I spat out as I yanked myself away from him and away from his gentle touch.
"Sakura ,Sasuke's been home for over an hour now .I think we should head upstairs."Suigetsu explained with that look of his. I know that look. It was his gentle way of saying I better get my ass home.
Upsetting Sasuke was never an good idea .He was the dragon on tower who breathed fire when was angry .I never saw such a short temper or a short fuss on a person until I met Sasuke.
I said nothing as I followed Suigetsu on my way home and the door was opened by the butler .We got on the elevator and at that moment all I wanted to do was stay there or even better close that door and never get out .The luck was not on my side, like always .
I took a deep breath and slowly lifted my head to walk straight out of the elevator, but the moment I did so I froze.
Leaning with one shoulder against the foyer wall with his arms crossed over his broad chest, standing directly in front of me with a dark and menacing look on his face was the tall man who I feared.
The puppeteer ,the master of manipulation, the one and only. Mr Sasuke Uchiha.
Sometimes I ask myself if I could prevent this, maybe I should have just stayed quiet and waited for this to be over. And I laugh .I laugh because I know that the only way for this to be over is my own death or my family death and even thought the situation is not on my side none of those two ways sound appealing to me.
The other time I ask myself how could a person like him can do something like that .Does he have no heart, is he capable of feeling anything at all. Then I crash down and remember , that I am the reason that he is doing any of this and at those moments I would wish to be dead, never found or remembered and maybe then I could find some peace.
"Dinner is ready in 15 minutes, that will be enough time for you to take a shower and get down.'' God when he talks with that voice cold and distant like he doesn't care about anything at all is when I feel more at peace .At last I know he will not try to get closer to me when he talks like that .I would prefer that over his rough voice in my ear telling me things I don't want to know ,making me feel completely at his mercy and that part is true ,I am at his mercy.
I just nod and go upstairs to take a shower .The bedroom is big with a king bed in the middle ,with its own balcony at the right of the room where I can look over the whole city .In the left is a big closet where my clothes stay inside , they are so much , more like a waste to me .Everything looks like too much to me .The grand mansion , the big kitchen, rooms and especially the bedroom .When most of the time I wish I could get out of it .With a sight I grab my clothes for the evening and go towards the bathroom. I hope I can relax with a hot shower and I try to close my eyes ,try to escape the reality ,just to go somewhere where I would feel warm and good. But that is impossible ,as I close my eyes my mind decides to do its own tricks showing me things I wish to forgot , to burry deep somewhere in a desert part of my brain ,but it is not easy ,it never is ,not with him and me. The more I try to relax the more stressed I become ,visions appearing in my head. Sometime I am at my house in my teens year , I feel happy .The others time just some years later , with him ,I am at his embrace , kept by him with force or just me too tired to do anything to get out of it.
I wash fast because I don't want to give him a reason to come and get me .I won't like it. The clothes I had chosen are simple for a night inside the house ,leggings and a sweatshirt .I just dry my hair and put a little cream on my face, just an after shower cream because I don't like make up too much. And the hair after drying it I put some lotion with the aroma of peach and some flower that at the moment I can't remember. Looking at myself in the mirror I look just like every other 19 years girl, so why can't I have a life like one too. It won't do anything to dwell on it now , what happened has happened .
I go downstairs and towards at the dining room and he is there sitting and expecting me to sit beside him ,witch I do exactly that .I am used now , no need for more wars between us , it will do me no good ,he will win , he always does.
He looks at me as I enter , with those black eyes darker then the moonless night that sometime I think they reflect red. I just head at my seat ,right beside him and begin to eat without even looking at him again and I know that he really despises it , me not paying attention to him , not thinking about him and I do it just so he could be hurt . So he could feel what I feel when I am inside here.
I am not so hungry so I just grab a fruit. I don't really have an appetite those times , more like those two months that I have stayed here. Isolated from the world and the people that I love ,mostly going out for a run because he wouldn't want me insane in those walls.
He is looking at me , I can feel it because it is hard to miss his stare .
"How was the run?" I am sure he isn't talking because he is truly concerned , but because he wants to know anything that happens to me.
"Good." Just don't talk, stare ate me anymore.
But no, of course he would glare again .He knows I don't like it , he knows I loathe it .
"For how long will that continue ? HUH? WILL YOU EVER GET TIRED OF IT AND ACCEPT ME ?"That cold façade is of now .He is just showing his true color , just what kind of man he is , forceful , hurtful , arrogant but most of all powerful. The power is in his hands about everything and he knows .Well mostly everything .
"Oh so now you want me to accept you? That was the last of your worries at first , well at last that's how you showed it." That was exactly how it was at first , you didn't care about anything but getting what you wanted .Didn't care that I would lose everything that I would hold dear to me . No , you come into the room and demand things , that's how things work for you.
"Hah worry? About what ? "How I hate that you are so arrogant ,so damn selfish ."That you will get away from me ?And go where ?I will kill every-fucking-body who dare to get you away from me ."
And I know it was true , he would do it , he already did.
"No one is so fucking stupid to fucking come near you without me known it. They know what awaits them. "My eyes are filled with tears , angry tears because I know it is true , I have already accept it there is nothing I can do to help myself , but that does not mean I have to make it easy for him. He wanted me , he will have me at my fullest .
"I am not hungry anymore , I will go to sleep." without waiting for Sasuke's replay I went to the bedroom .I know that he would be downstairs for a little while and drink and then ,then he would have me .Like every other night he would have me in his room, his bed , his arms .Sometimes he would not care if I said yes or no and those times were when I had angered him , just like tonight.
While knowing what waited me I got ready for bed , brushed my teeth and changed into my nigh dress robe .
After half an hour I heard the door opened and closeted .He had come .I heard him taking his robes of and come to bed like always with only his boxes on. Sasuke come near my side of bed and firstly touched my waist with those long and elegant fingers of his .His mouth was at my neck kissing , wet kisses I could smell the alcohol on his breath but I know he wasn't drunk , he never was .He moves his hands toward my left breast and would fondle it sometimes more harshly than others .After getting enough marks and hicks on my neck he turn my head so he could kiss my mouth and first I refuse , I always try to deny him ,but then he gets rough and kisses me harsh on my mouth making me gasp and his tongue to get inside me. His fingers stop touching my breast and move down , at my pants .Sasuke likes to rub his finger outside so he can hear me moan and getting wet , always for him . I can feel him hard and heavy at my back sometimes poking me .After I get wet enough for him and him licking his fingers so I could watch and get all red on my face he takes his boxers off .
Sasuke is a well build man and the area down there I am sure it is big enough to make jealous a lot of male population .He starts slowly because he says to savor the feeling ,then he would be hard and would whisper on my ear how I am his , how he would make the whole world burn just to have me by his side forever. I would always come first with a scream and after a few thrusts he would spill inside me and take me in his arms .I have learned to not refuse him in bedroom because I would not like the consequences.
At first I felt repulsed at him touching me and would not allow him to touch me and that would make him so angry that he even had hurt me .After some time without anyone here , the servants afraid to speak to me , I would yearn for his touch at nights and would allow this to happen. He would feel like he owned me when I would touch him or even caress his body during lovemaking .
After sometime in his arms and him whispering in my ear how I was his precious , him whispering dirty things and sometimes prove them with a touch I fall asleep in his arms like every night.
Hoping that things were different and I wasn't married to Sasuke Uchiha.
The next chapter will explain more because this was only an intro of the story. Please review and tell me what you think. Lots of love podlepoof.