Rating: pg-13 due to mild cussing.

Disclaimer: I do not own Roswell High stuff or any of the Roswell TV show characters. I only own Nicole/Nicola and her family.

Author's Notes: The story takes place during the season finale of Season 2. The prologue is in past tense, but the chapters after this are in present tense. It has a lot of things that refer to the Roswell High books, although some alien-related stuff I make up. This is my first Roswell Fanfic, actually it's my first fanfic for any show. P.S. it's hard for me to write in present tense so take it easy on me.

Dear Journal,

It's me, Nicole Stoner, or rather Nicola Lively now, I guess. Okay, okay, I know I usually don't do the whole write in a journal thing, but I thought since under the circumstances I should do the "Liz thing." See, recently my life has changed drastically. I am not talking about it changing because I've moved or that my parents got divorced, it's something else. Well, I guess to explain I need to talk about what happened about a month ago.

My life was majorly sucking. Nothing was going right, especially on that momentous June day. It was June 22nd, 2001 at night and I retreated to my bed after a horrible day. I forgot some important homework at home, I forgot to study for a test, I pitched horrible at my softball game (again), and to top it off my mom yelled at me for no apparent reason. All I wanted to do after that was curl in my bed and go into any dream world. I can remember what I thought next perfectly:

"My life sucks. It would be cool if I could be a character on a show. It would be a lot better than my shitty life. Hmm I wonder what show. Dawson's Creek? No, too angsty for me. So Weird? No, killer babes on the show, but I want powers. Buffy? No, although it would be cool to be a slayer and have super-strength powers, it's not the kind of powers I want. I got it! Roswell! I could be like a new alien on their side, but like they are in the books, not the show, and I would have more kind of powers. That would be awesome! My name could be wellI could change Nicole to Nicola just to be different, then keep my middle name as Ai, but change my last name to Lively or something like that. That would be an interesting name."

I know what you're thinking: "What a big dork!" But my life was so boring I had nothing better to do than think up weird stuff. How did I come up with the name you ask? I switched my middle name with my first name, then used the last name of one of the cute actors on So Weird. Anyway, back to what happened.

I looked out the window to search for a star. I could only find one star that was really bright, and now that I think about, it's really strange because it was a clear night. I stared at the star and said, "I wish I was my character I made up on Roswell." I closed my eyes, and then thought to myself how ridiculous & pathetic I was and that my dream would never in a million years would it come true, but boy was I wrong.