I always wondered
what death brought you
where you went, what you felt
if past mistakes were forgotten

I still wonder
as I lie here on the floor
draining out of me
life's blood, life's breath

yet all fear has left me
I no longer feel
for I know I shall get
whatever I deserve

I have caused so much pain
that I can not seek
foregiveness, only penance
that is what I deserve

as i am going to my grave
I ask not pity nor forgiveness
please move on and love again
only this time someone worthy

you know who you are
of who I speak
please listen
dont drown in greif

I'm not worth it
you know as well as I
that we could never
really have love