Chapter One:
YOUR CRAZY AND I AM INSANE! I HATE MYSELF FOR LOVING YOU!
Sonny was so consumed by his thoughts, that he was in a zombie-like state.
I have tried staying away from you Will.
I even left and went to Italy for 2 years because
I wanted to stop loving you but I can't do it
I just can't do this anymore will!
You are like a part of me that no matter what I do
I can not live without you. But to live without you knowing how much I love you, it would hurt you more in the long run. You deserve a better man than I am.
Why! Why! can't I just not be in love with you? Why is my heart haunted by your every movement your every smile?
The way that you look when we have been working together on a huge project. The way the perfect idea dawns on you and how it just fits, bringing the whole project together. I love how we pitch a project that everyone goes wild over it.
Will, you completely make me, I lose my mind each time I see those blond locks and those crystal blue eyes.
Will, We've drifted and you're no longer a part of me. You've consumed my whole being, as much as the air that I breathe. I am not worthy of a man as wonderful as you. I feel like an empty shell undeserving of such a treasure. Will you deserve to be treated like a King and to have a real man to love you, not one who can't even face you and tell you the gravity of my love for you. Will I don't know why I have been cursed by this heart that will not allow me to just forget about my love for you and how not feel as if my life is ending if I am not with you.
Will, I am indeed going out of what little mind that I have.
(God! sometimes I feel like you are so cruel to allow me to feel so much love for Will.)
Sonny was across the square when Will Horton his friend from the age 17, and project development partner at Crossly and Burns cosmetics spots him.
Will thinks to himself: Dillon you are supposedly like Sonny's brother but you have been doing nothing except making him think he is insane, and feel unworthy of love. Dillon, I know damned good and well over the years I have been investigating you I even went so far as to get (My late uncles' partner
in the FBI ) Mike involved.
I knew from the start that you were trying to control Sonny's life and that you had everything to do with the attack on him. When Sonny first came out, even if I was not here until a year later. What have you been doing to him for the past four months? So help me God Dillon, I am going to bring you down, I just need to know exactly what has been going on for the past four months.
Hey, there is Sonny! I have not seen or heard from him in over four months.
He has not even been at the office and that is not like him. He always comes to work even when anyone else would have stayed home. Sonny powers through everything and he gets the job done, he's a real workhorse. I am so relieved to see him because Sonny has been acting really odd for the past four months he has not talked to me and I am worried about him.
Will thought to himself.
Will walked up behind Sonny and said.
"Hey, Sonny! I am really glad to see you.
I thought for a while that you were trying to avoid me and the whole town."
Sonny was still consumed by the phone call from earlier. He still did not hear Will at all. Sonny's' world was absolutely shaken to its very core, he was walking around but he was only hearing the conversation from that call.
Will thought to himself:
Man is he really is avoiding me or has something happened to cause him to act like this? Has Dillon done something to him?
Sonny kept walking and that is very unusual, even if he is busy he will always take the time out to at least say hello to me. It is not like Sonny to completely blow me off.
Will tries again to speak to Sonny…
Will smiles and says...
"Hey, are you there?
Sonny?"
Once more no answer.
Will knows that something is very wrong, he yells out…
"SONNY! HEY DUDE!"
Sonny man please turn around, Please talk to me.
Confused as to why Sonny hasn't turned around Will asks himself why has Sonny not answered and why is still walking away?
Sonny still was not speaking. He just silently kept walking, caught up in the happenings that have been plaguing him every day for the past four months.
Will takes Sonny's shoulder and he sees a very thin pale Sonny and that scared him.
Will whispers:
"Sonny are you OK?"
Sonny was shaken out of the endless reel that was plaguing him, to the point that he was reliving the past four months.
Will could see that Sonny had no life in his eyes like before.
Sonny replied with…
"OH MY GOD WILL! YOU SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME!.
Did you say something?"
"Ya Sonny, what's going on man?
"Why do you ask Will?"Sonny asked looking at Will as if Will had two heads.
"Sonny come with me, something is wrong and you don't need to be alone right now."
Will took a shaken Sonny to his car and sat him down. With a very concerned tone, Will said
"Sonny look at me.
Talk to me, please.
Is everything OK,?
I mean clearly it isn't but please talk to me!"
Sonny was a little confused "why are you acting so crazy Will?
You are acting as if I am l about to fall from a cliff."
"Sonny, We are going to go to my place it is closer than anywhere else.
I know that something is up with you but right now I have this gut feeling that you should not be alone."
"Sonny do not forget this is William Horton."Sonny thought.
" I know when things are not right, we have known each other for so long we can read each other like a book.
Sonny, I do not know what is but stay here with me tonight" Will begged.
"Damn Will, what the hell are you doing?" Sonny yelled
"Sonny I have no idea either but I am going to be your shadow until I am damned sure that you are OK!
You are not even sounding like yourself and
I am very worried about you." Will shook Sonny hoping he'd come to his scenes.
"Will yes I am crazy I have lost all common sense.
No, I have not got a clue about what I am doing.
Does that make you feel better?"
Sonny said in defiance.
"Just take me home let me get a drink. I just need to try to get my head on straight.
I will be fine do not worry about me."Sonny tried to reassure Will.
"Sonny Damn it, You are not fine and the last thing that you need right now is a drink plus since when did you start drinking anyway?
We are going to go to my house whether you talk to me or not, I do not give a shit but until I know damned good and well that you are fine and I am not completely terrified that something is going on. It is not good for you to be alone until then you are a guest a Casa De La Horton."
Will gets Sonny to his house and takes his suit coat off. Asking him if he would like to shower before dinner. He showed Sonny where he would be able to find everything and that he needs, and that he is more than welcome to use whatever he wants.
Sonny says...
"No Will just take me back to get my car so I can just go home."
Will was almost yelling at Sonny said:
"Sonny you are stuck with me for a while so stop whining about it. Besides you are too damned cute when you whine."
With a snap in his tone, Sonny asked:
"What the hell did you mean by that Will?"
Will said: "Sonny I know as well as you do that we both have been in love with each other for years. That is not new news. You have been so afraid to tell me or even mention it to me for some reason, I do not know why.
You have always known that I am never going to hurt you ever.
Sonny, I love you so much. I just wish that you would say that you love me too.
You even went to Italy for 2 years but yet you came back.
Sonny, I love you and if this is what is going on with you and you do love me then it is OK you can tell me. I swear to God that I will never hurt you ever.
It'snot true and I just made an ass out of myself over an assumption and I was way off base please forgive me.
Sonny was thinking you don't understand Will I am not any good for you.
I love you dearly and would kill anyone who tried to hurt you.
Please Sonny I am right here, right where I have always been. By your side never judging and never acting better than you or pressuring you.
Yes, Will I know that you are always and you always have been. Sonny replied with tears threatening to come to his eyes.
Sonny I know exactly what happened when you came out and no one should have been put through the shit that you went through.
Sonny I am not going to talk about this issue anymore unless you bring it up.
So what would you like me to cook for dinner?"
Sonny thought to himself:
"Will, you do not know exactly what happened only I know that."
Sonny said: "Hey Will?"
"Yeah, Sonny what's up?"
"I changed my mind I would like to take you up on thatshower. May I borrow a pair of sweats and an undershirt, maybe your washing machine and dryertoo?
"Yes Sonny because tonight you stay here, Got it, Sir"
Sonny replied with "Yes Sir General William Robert Horton.
Will?"
"Yes, Sonny?"