I star up at the sky, I know why I'm here and it pains me, I don't want to be here but I can't fight myself anymore, the voices I have can't keep me from slipping away from what I have, It's too late to save me know, I'm far to broken to be put back together. This is where I have to end it all, i can't keep fighting a battle I can't ever win. I have lost so much and yet here I am with so much, I'm torn between worlds stuck in a cage that I can't escape no matter how much I try the bars never...break! I squeeze my nails into my head. I want to hurt myself, but I know that this is all wrong that I shouldn't be doing this that I shouldn't try taking my own life away because I'll lose so much but i can't control it, I never could, they called me a monster...I scream out in flirtation. I'm so close now why can't I just jump and end my pain and suffering?! I'm not human, I lost my way so long ago that I can't go back and change and trying to change know? It feels so useless, so hopeless...I can't wake up without pain, I suffocate in feelings that consume me so that I become someone else. I suffer all alone because I don't have anyone here to help me. I lost friends and I can't wake up. I look down at the raging sea below me as the rain poured harder and thunder cracked the sky. It's time for me to end this pain to finally have my freedom...I jump and I smile as I hit the water hard as water fills my lungs, I slowly begin to close my eyes and I smile. "Goodbye, everyone." I say to myself silently before I fell asleep, forever...
A/N: Hey everyone, th-this is what it's like for me when I'm broken, when I can't keep fighting, I look to pain to wake up from all my suffering, in this case darkshade is sick of her life and takes it, I can't bring myself to do so but sometimes I fear that maybe one day I might. please forgive me for this, but I guess you should know I do my best and worst writing when I'm like this.