Hey all,

Sad news; read on Twitter that Dixie (Jane) is leaving! What a shame, she's amazing. I really hope she doesn't get killed off, we already lost one amazing paramedic character that way :O

Anyway just an idea that came into my head earlier, see how it goes really : )

Ethan hasn't had a good night sleep since finding out about Olivia being abused then it got worse when the ED was so busy, Ethan struggled. He further struggled after the death of Flossy, an elderly woman he helped to get comfortable as she peacefully slipped away with her best friend by her side and also finding out that a man he has tried to help committed suicide shortly after. Ethan felt he had failed.

It had been two days since that day happened and Ethan was still stressed in the ED. Cal watched helplessly as his brother crumbled. Cal knew he should speak to Connie about Ethan. If Ethan wasn't going to listen to anyone about going to go see her then Cal should. Cal found himself outside of Connie's office door, he peaked through the window to see if she was there, and she was there sitting at her desk looking down at a file. Cal took a deep breath and knocked.

"Come in." Connie spoke.

"Mrs Beauchamp?" Cal called, poking his head through the door.

"Dr Knight, how can I help?" Connie asked as she looked up at the tall doctor.

"Erm, it's Ethan." Cal troubled to speak of the situation.

"Yes. I've seen him. He looks shattered." Connie frowned.

"He is. He's been freaking out a lot. Lashing out at patients. That isn't him. I don't know what to do." Cal paced up and down Connie's office.

"Cal-" Connie couldn't get a word in.

"I mean, he hasn't slept. He's throwing himself in his work. I basically can't get him to take his foot off the gas." Cal continued to pace but then stopped as he looked at Connie's impatient face. "Sorry." Cal sighed as he sat down.

"Cal, I agree. Ethan is exhausted. I did demand him to go home but he insisted on staying so I have idea for him. A proposition." Connie smiled lightly.

"What's that?" Cal asked. Before Connie answered, there was another knock at the door. Cal turned his head to the door as Connie looked up.

"Come in." Connie spoke quite loudly. That was when Ethan entered. "Dr Hardy. Come in. Have a seat." Doing so, Ethan entered and sat on the sofa.

"Mrs Beauchamp, you wanted to see me?" Ethan spoke nervously.

"Yes, I was just about to talk to your brother about it to see if he thought it would be a good idea but now you're here." Connie took in a breath then spoke. "A patient needs to be transferred to St James and they are requesting a doctor to go with them as he is critical and I think it would be an idea for you, Ethan to go with them. Get away from the ED a bit. What do you think?" Connie looked at Ethan's tired face. "Since you are refusing to go home." Connie smiled.

"Erm, Mrs Beauchamp-" Ethan was interrupted by Cal.

"Come on Ethan, change of scenery might do you good." Cal looked at him, worried. Ethan hesitated.

"When is the patient being transferred?" Ethan asked.

"He's getting ready now. If you go, you'll be there for a few hours max then you can get a ride back in an ambulance or you can go home. Choice is yours. Just let me know." Connie finished explaining. Ethan looked at her for a few milliseconds. "So is that a yes, Dr Hardy?"

"If the patient needs me." Ethan shrugged.

"Excellent, go get ready. The ambulance will be ready shortly." Connie smiled. Ethan faintly smiled back then left her office.

"You sure this is a good idea?" Cal asked Connie.

"I hope so." Connie answered, looking at the door that Ethan left through. Cal nodded lightly then left Connie's office also.

Ethan was stood in his normal clothes outside the ED, looking at the ambulance as the paramedics were putting the patient in. After the patient was strapped down, Dixie walked up to Ethan.

"Right Ethan, we're ready when you are." Dixie smiled. Ethan sighed then looked back at the ED. "It'll be here when you get back." Dixie smiled, gesturing to the ED. Ethan looked back at Dixie and smiled.

Ethan climbed into the back of the ambulance and sat next to the sleeping patient. As the ambulance pulled away, Ethan leaned his head back and closed his eyes, feeling the bumpiness of the journey.

Ethan felt the ambulance stop. He opened his eyes just as Dixie opened the back doors.

"You alright, Ethan?" Dixie lightly smiled, not catching Ethan sleeping as she jumped into the ambulance.

"Yeah." Ethan answered then quickly jumped up to help Dixie with the patient. He's got to admit; he needed that ten minute sleep. He felt a little better and had a little bit more energy.

Ethan, Dixie and Iain wheeled the middle aged patient into St James resus. A couple of nurses came up to the three.

"Right this is Tim Bennett. Involved in a car incident. Has a very bad concussion, two broke legs and a fractured left radius and ulna and a fractured right humerus. Neck was cleared back at Holby. Been in and out of consciousness-" Ethan continued the hand over as they got the patient settled into a cubicle. "He also has narcolepsy." Ethan finished his hand over to the nurses. "Thank you guys." Ethan smiled at Dixie and Iain as they tapped him on the shoulder then left to go back to the Holby.

"We'll pick you up at 6. Be good son." Iain mocked. Ethan chuckled slightly. He stopped smiling when he heard the nurse.

"Dr Munroe. Can we have some help please?" A nurse asked. A Dr with her hair in a ponytail-plait whilst wearing smart clothes and a white coat turned around and walked to the cubicle smiling, which left when she saw Ethan.

"Alicia." Ethan's mouth dropped.

"Ethan." Alicia also did the same.

So I brought Alicia into my story. Originally she was meant to be found in a supermarket but I wanted Alicia to still be a doctor.

I got the title from a Les Mis song. Referring to the ED being Alicia's home because on her last episode she said how the colleagues were her family. You get it.

Just got one more shift tomorrow then I have three weeks booked off so should be able to keep up with this story fairly easily. Next update will be Sunday likely. See you then : )