I felt my dead heart drop. I replayed the hopeless words in my head again. "Edward, you're dangerous for me. This can't work, it won't work. I'm sorry". Bella stood before me, giving me news that I never wanted to hear. I knew one day something like this would happen. She was human and I, vampire. After the incident with Jasper, she'd been distant. I'd tried my hardest to ignore what I knew was going to happen. "Did you hear me, Edward?". I nodded slowly. I dared myself to look up at her face. I regretted it almost immediately. Her brown hair flowing in the afternoon wind.
Her eyes wide and hypnotizing. But most of all her smell, it was everywhere. It burnt in my throat, a feeling I'd become accustom too. "Bella, I can make it change. I'll change. Please…". She put her hand up in protest to my words. "You can't be human again. It's not possible. I can't put myself at risk everyday. I have Charlie and Renee to think about. I put them in danger too. Our love, it doesn't triumph over all, Edward. This is wrong. Against nature. I'm going back to stay with Renee and Phil. I think it's best. Say goodbye to your family for me. I promise, it'll be as if I never existed".
Bella walked away from the forest. I watched her as she slipped away, out of my sight. My knees became weak and I lost my hold. I fell to the ground. Everything I'd worked towards with Bella, was over now. I already missed her. I found my feet again. A part of me wanted to run into Bella's house, tell her I wouldn't let her leave. Tell her she had to stay with me. But another part of me, couldn't go against Bella's wishes.
I ran home, as fast as I could. Anything to stop myself from going back. I could hear the conversations in my house erupting. I stood at the front of my home. Not sure if I wanted to go in there. I knew one thing, I was going to get angry at Jasper. Because right now, I needed someone to blame, and he was the reason Bella had come to a realization. I took an unnecessary breath in and walked through the front door. I was bombarded by a pair of arms. I looked down, Alice. I should've guessed that she would know. "Oh, Edward. I'm so sorry". I didn't hug her back, instead I pushed her off. I walked straight up to Jasper. He could feel my anger, his face was contorted in an expression of pain. Guilt. I looked him, straight in the eye. "You did this".
With those words I went to my room. I knew silence would kill me right now, so I turned on my stereo. The whole that was ripped in my chest ached as Clair de Lune started to play. The world wanted me to suffer heart ache. I might as well let it. I spent the rest of the night, with the song on replay, letting my dead, un-beating heart break.