Perennial
If there was to be a moral to their story, Gabriella whispers to the darkened sky, it would be this:
In the summer everything tastes sweeter.
Sharpay just rolls her eyes and arches a single brow, but the corners of her mouth twitch up as she turns away.
Theirs is a story in four parts.
1.
The first time that
Sharpay kisses her they are in the deserted cafeteria, autumn just
coming to a close. The fluorescent lights and open spaces dig into
Gabriella's brain, mimicking the edge of the wooden table that
presses into her thigh and leaves some sort of residue on the back of
her skirt. It is a surprise, lips cutting her off mid-word, and all
she can think about is what people will think if someone pushes their
way through the doors. No one does, but she doesn't dare to look up
at Sharpay. Troy's face takes up all of her vision, filled with the
shock and confusion and disgust that she can imagine far too easily.
When they get back to class there's a buffer of silence between
them and the pink paper of the hall pass is crumpled into the lines
of her hand.
2.
The second time they
kiss, it is winter. The frozen atmosphere cracks like brittle bones,
and with each sputter of warm air from the vents Gabriella can see
the school's meager budget streaming away. She curses global
warming and dreams of hot tea and popcorn while she's supposed to
be solving math problems. No one notices, and she really doesn't
mind the quiet solitude that comes with being ignored. When she slips
into the theater during lunch Sharpay is already there, sitting at
the edge of the stage. They stare at each other. Gabriella listens,
until the rhythmic click of Sharpay's heels against the side of the
stage is all that she can hear. When Gabriella kisses her she keeps
her eyes open, and she can see the spark that burns its way down her
spine, until her clenched fists grow slick with sweat and her toes
start to twitch. That night she can't sleep, and the cold sneaks
beneath her blankets and makes her desperately aware of her solitude.
3.
The third time they
kiss, the trees are just starting to come alive again, tiny green
leaves stretching themselves under the cool sun. Sharpay is furious
about something (afterwards she can't quite remember what it is),
and when Gabriella smiles in that sweet, condescending way her anger
just rises up, pressing against the surface of her skin until it
explodes. They vie for control, grasping each other painfully, and
neither of them hears the opening doors or the approaching footsteps
until they are already caught. The cool air on Gabriella lips makes
her dizzy, and she's not quite sure if she's imagining Troy's
shocked face. It looks just like she imagined it would. Her shoes
scuff against the concrete pavement as she walks inside, and the
click of Sharpay's heels resonates in her brain. The wrinkles from
Sharpay's clenching fists mar the fabric of Gabriella's shirt for
the rest of the school day, and Gabriella's fingertips trace the
creased fabric as she stares off into space. The pocket of silence
around her is absolute, and she waits on bated breath for the storm
of rumors to begin.
4.
By the time summer
comes, with its endless days and empty promises of happiness and
laughter, Gabriella is a stranger. When she catches slight glimpses
of her reflection in darkened car windows she doesn't quite
recognize herself, doubles back just to make sure. The days stretch
silently in front of her and she takes to waking up early to go on
long walks to nowhere. She can still feel her mother's questioning
gaze and rigid smile, and the darkened light just before the sunrise
is a welcome relief. She walks along Eubank past the darkened strip
malls, and ends up in a Starbucks by Candelaria, morning light just
warming the backs of her bare legs. She sits at the edge of the
sidewalk and absently swirls her fingertip in the whipped cream that
adorns her iced coffee, creating a whirlpool of spiral patterns. When
she looks up and sees Sharpay it's somehow better and worse than
she has imagined, and she's not quite sure what to do. The fourth
kiss tastes like coffee and chalky lipstick. When Sharpay pulls away
the determination on her face starts to falter, but Gabriella grasps
her arm and draws her back in before it can. She doesn't let go
until Sharpay pushes her away and haughtily demands that she share
her coffee. Gabriella shrugs and hands her the cup.
