A/N: SPOILERS FOR NAME HUNT STATION ARC. This is mostly just...a tweaking of canon interpretation. I don't think SIU was trying to show this at all. I just found the concept potentially interesting, so I wrote it. And then it ran away from me.
This takes place during season 2 episode 205, aka the episode where Endorsi/Androssi tries to convince Baam to help her fight Kaiser.
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Endorsi didn't start out strong.
She learned.
In the short, harsh period where her ascension was plotted out in blood and fights, she learned how to greedily grab onto opportunities, how to climb, how to get power. And once she had it, how to wield it. Impetuously. Gracefully. She is a princess and the whole world should know this, if not by sight or name then by her beauty, her strength, by her absolute rule over others.
Her favors are hers to give and take away. She will allow no one to limit her reign. If she listens to someone it is because what they say matches up with her own plans.
People crack and break and bow down for her, and all she has to do is give a glance, say a word – and if they don't follow, well, Endorsi has always had her own ways of getting people to yield.
But Baam does not falter. He sways but remains resolute. He is gentle, but between his ribs lies a devastating power. For the first time, Endorsi is the one getting on her knees. She wonders if Baam realizes this as she slides a kneecap towards him on the mattress, leans her head near his in a way she knows would make others crumple and fold for her. She's never had to go this far but Baam is special, Baam will be hers, already is hers, he just hasn't quite realized it yet. And so she asks him for a favor.
He refuses.
She can't believe it. Why? Because Rachel? For that insignificant smidge of a girl, he refused her? She won't hear his excuses. She can't. Baam is leaving her to die. No. He wants her to live but can't he see that she needs this? Baam talks of self-discovery and self-understanding and all she can think is: this is not how it was supposed to go.
There's an unfamiliar-yet-not-forgotten feeling welling up inside her as she realizes that there is no solid ground for her here. She violently squashes it and lets anger flood her limbs instead. Anger is good. Anger is the precursor to power.
She can deal with anger.
She screams and shouts threats at him, and when that doesn't work, she leaves.
Endorsi spends the rest of the day snapping at her teammates and sulking in her room. When night falls she's still wide awake. When Anaak asks, she says rather testily that she's running out of patience, she wants to fight Kaiser now.
(she refuses to believe that she might actually be afraid).
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Comments & Critique greatly appreciated.