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Hi everyone! Due to the reactions to the two chapters I already posted in my story 'What if' I decided to make this one into another story. I have a lot of ideas for this one and I am confident that there will be a lot more chapters coming soon! Anyone who is new to this story: Welcome, and to anyone who has ever read it already I advise you to read it again before you start chapter three (A NEW ONE). It will prevent confusion.
It all started with; what if Piper and Alex both ended up buying liquor in Queens during Piper's furlough?
Piper had a tough time wrapping her mind around the things that already happened during her first hours of furlough. She was collected at Litchfield by her brother Cal, had seen Larry, drank a decent coffee, went to her grandmother's funeral and almost had sex with Larry in the bathroom.
It was safe to say that she didn't see that last one coming and didn't exactly had that one in mind for her time out of prison. After, more like during, a weak attempt of sex with Larry he had told her that he slept with someone else. After she asked he had told her that it was someone she knew.
After she didn't even try to think about who it could or would be. She knew that Larry and her were over, but that didn't mean that the prick could stick his dick into someone else right away. She knew that thought was selfish though. She herself didn't even last a month before she jumped Alex's bones in prison. Now she couldn't anymore. Alex had fucked her over. Again. Of course she had fucked over Alex many times but that didn't mean that this time was different..
They hadn't seen each other in eight years before prison.. Weren't you supposed to become wiser with age? Because that sure as hell wasn't the case for her and Alex. It didn't matter how much older they had become. Fireworks still went off when they were in each other's presence. Sometimes it was good, oh so good.
Piper never had anyone better than Alex, ever. She knew that there would be never anyone better than Alex. Before prison she'd like to think that she was at peace with that fact. Now, not so much. She loved but mostly hated the fact that after all these years Alex still had this hold over her. That she was still in control of not only her body but also her heart.
Other times.. Times like these were the bad kind of fireworks. The fireworks that went off too early and that was shot in all the wrong directions.
When Alex was released from prison the first few days back in Litchfield Piper tried to deny that Alex being gone affected her in any way. Right away Nicky had known that this was all just a façade which Piper was sporting. She knew from the start that by the reuniting of those two that they never were again able to face that much time away from each other ever again.
That possibility was ruined when Piper had her first taste of Alex again after eight years of going without it. After eight years of imagining and panicking when she realized that she couldn't quite get a hold of how Alex tasted or how she smelled. She hated those times before prison when she would wake up at night all sweaty next to Larry because once again she had a very vivid dream of her bad ass ex-girlfriend. She hated the fact that after such a dream it was almost impossible every time to get back to her own life with her boyfriend. She hated the fact that every time, every dream it became more and more impossible for Piper to ignore Alex. She might not have been there in real life.. but she sure as hell was still very much in Piper's life.
After the encounter with Larry in the bathroom and Cal and Neri's sort of wedding Piper decided to skip the rest altogether and just make the most of the rest of her furlough. Even if it meant being alone, not being around her friends and family. She didn't know where the hell her best friend was during all of this but right now she just couldn't care less.
She figured she could just as well visit Red's store because she didn't know where else she would be welcome or at home at this point. She was walking around in the dark looking for the space with the name that Red had scrabbled on a piece of paper. Just like everything else in her life right now also this place was a goner.
For quite some time Piper just stared at the empty store which was sealed with gates and the 'for lease' sign was displayed at the front. She just wanted to forget everything right now. To forget everything that had happened since that Alex was released if she was really being honest with herself. So she walked to the nearest liquor store she could find.
It turned out that prison was something that Piper could survive.. but she'd rather survive it with the love of her life than without it. And the realization of this seemed to sink in just now. She was going to have to survive prison without Alex. And after prison? She didn't have a place to go. She couldn't go back to Larry and Alex had fucked her over.. Oh what a life.
When she turned around with a bottle of booze in her hand she thought she was really losing it because no one other than Alex fucking Vause was standing in the store. Or wasn't she? She must be really losing it because that was impossible! What would Alex be doing in fucking Queens? After she stared about a minute into the green eyes of her ex-girlfriend Piper made a run for the door.. Because really this couldn't be happening and she couldn't believe that her love for the woman went as far as seeing her in real life even if she wasn't there. She didn't drink enough to have these kind of hallucinations right?
Just as she was about to open the door and leave the liquor store someone grabbed her by her wrist. The person made her turn around and now she really stood face to face with Alex. At least.. she thought she was. She still wasn't sure if the woman was real or if this was just her fucked up mind playing tricks on her. But that thing that was standing in front of her spoke and the noise that came from those beautiful lips was indeed the low and husky voice of her ex-girlfriend, her Alex. And that is exactly what she first said to the woman. "My Alex."
At that Alex smiled genuinely. The kind of smile that Piper missed the most about her. Not that infuriating but incredibly sexy smirk that was displayed on her face most of the time. It was true. If anyone had a right to sport such a smirk on her face it would be Alex, but still.. when she saw Alex smile like this she knew that she saw the real her. Piper's Alex. Because Alex never really was herself except for when she was around either her mom or Piper, and that would never change.
Piper shook her head to get rid of all of those thoughts and tried to focus on what was happening. "So, you want the long version or the short version," Alex asked her ex-girlfriend. Piper's anger flared at that question all of the sudden. "I want the short version you have one minute."
"Oh, so it's like that huh?" Alex asked Piper. "Fuck yes Alex, it's like that. I'm on fucking furlough because my grandmother died. Up until now I didn't get to enjoy the little amount of free time that I have.. so you have exactly one minute, starting now."
"Jesus Pipes, Celeste died? I'm so sorry." She was cut off by Piper at that. "Yeah, yeah. You're sorry, what else is new?" Alex just rolled her eyes because she was pretty sure that at this moment she still thought that Piper had to be the one that was sorry for picking Larry.. not the other way around.
"Look Piper… I was facing more time than you. My lawyer told me that my testimony would put Kubra away for sure… and that I could walk that same day."
"Congratulations. Your lawyer is a better lawyer than Larry's dad."
"No he isn't. He was wrong. Kubra walked."
"What?"
"There was a mistrial. Some dumb fuck mishandled the evidence. He's out."
Piper was trying to wrap her head around this new information as fast as she could. She wanted to ask what Alex was doing in Queens then. She wanted to ask her if she was safe. She wanted to worry about her. In fact, she did worry about her. But she also really wanted to ask this.
"So I'm the only one who went to prison?"
"I tell you that Kubra is free after I testify against him, and that's all you have to say?"
"Well, I mean, they're protecting you, right?"
Alex chuckled. "Yeah… they're protecting me. There's around-the-clock surveillance."
Piper looked relieved at Alex's words. "And by that, I mean I see my probation officer every week for about twenty minutes."
"Oh my God, Alex." Without thinking Piper grabbed the hands of her former girlfriend and at their hands touching she immediately felt the familiar spark between them as well. But still this was not a time to focus on the fact that she still felt like this being around Alex.
Suddenly all the worry that she earlier felt towards Alex didn't feel misplaced at all. The brunette was not exactly on the run for Kubra but she wasn't safe either.
"Alex are you serious? Alex, you shouldn't be in New York. You should be in fucking Nevada or… or Argentina or something."
"That's fine. Thomas Pynchon hid in New York for years, and Queens isn't that bad. No one comes to visit, but it has pretty good Greek food. Besides, if I wouldn't be in Queens.. I wouldn't have run into you just now." Alex quirked up her eyebrow the way only she could.
It was clear to Piper that Alex was trying to talk over Piper's worry. Normally she wouldn't have any of that but Alex's close proximity together with that quirked eyebrow was definitely working for Piper. It was definitely doing something to her.
Piper was still holding Alex's hands and at this point Alex had started to stroke her thumb over Piper's hand. Just like she always did those many years ago and like she had started doing again during the short time they were together again inside Litchfield. It was a feeling in which Piper could get lost easily. This time was no different. She had about eleven hours left for her furlough and meeting Alex here wasn't something she had foreseen, but right now? Alex felt like a Godsend.
She knew they had a million things to talk about but she also knew spending the rest of her furlough with Alex would be a lot better than she had planned for herself until now. Flashes of Alex and Piper having sex on every surface in Alex's former loft spun through her head. A small smirk appeared onto her lips and in return Alex sported a smirk for herself. At the look on Piper's face she knew the blonde was thinking about them having sex.
She mastered reading Piper's every look years ago and in prison she found out that she was still very capable of reading Piper. Although she knew all of this she still decided to ask Piper about it. "What are you thinking right now?" She looked at Piper seductively and before the blonde woman could answer she spoke again: "Because I am thinking that you are thinking about me… naked… with you… naked… on top of each other in a place where we don't have to be quiet and we don't have to worry about any guards walking in on us." She smiled widely at Piper and hoped that she didn't overstep any boundaries by bringing up her sexual urges around the woman which she so clearly hurt by leaving her in prison while she was out. They weren't even talking for a good ten minutes before the sexual tension between the two women was obviously flowing freely.
Alex could see the hurt over Piper's face all too clearly though, but she could also see that the blonde was desperately searching for things that made her feel free for as long as she was. She knew she could provide that for her. She knew that she owed Piper that much. And who was she kidding? She was desperately in need for Piper herself.. she always was from the moment she met her in that bar all those years ago.
She decided to take her chances on this one. Staying in this store was no option and leaving Piper right now was definitely not an option for her. "Pipes.." She decided to use the nickname for the woman that she still loved with all of her body, mind and soul. "I know we have a ton of things to talk about still. I also know that you're mad that I'm out and you're still at Litchfield.. but still; you're on furlough and all I want to do is spend you're free time together. Just you and me. I care about you and even if you don't want to believe it.. I love you, so fucking much. Babe.. please come home with me and we'll figure all the rest out later… PLEASE."
Alex was begging at this point and she couldn't care less. The worst of it all was that she absolutely didn't know if there was even the need for her to beg Piper to come home with her. She knew for sure that she definitely saw lust in Piper's eyes but it was still Piper's furlough, the little free time that she had left and she had to choose that she would want to spend that little time with Alex.
What Alex didn't know was that for Piper this was a no-brainer. Yeah she was still pissed at Alex for fucking her over again. Yeah she still didn't know whether she could trust the woman that was standing before her.. but still. On the stand she vowed that Alex was the love of her life. For the first time in a long time, maybe ever.. she admitted that not only to other people but to herself also.
Alex couldn't have said anything that made Piper want to be with her any less really. Alex was still the love of her life and she could think of a million reasons other than that to also spend her left over free time with her ex-lover.
She was sure that Alex would be capable to fuck her brains out. She was sure that with Alex she would laugh until they couldn't stop. If they would argue it would be so good and so hard that eventually they would always end up having make up sex. And there wasn't a thing in the world that was better than the makeup sex between Alex and Piper.. well except maybe for their love sex. Which of course they wouldn't admit but they simply loved each other so much more than they would ever care to admit.. but then again maybe this time was different. Maybe this time Alex would speak her mind and Piper wouldn't be afraid to tell the older woman just how much she was in love with her all those years ago and how that love never, not even in the slightest bit, went away.
"Let's get out of here, Alex." Alex just stared at Piper as if she didn't believe whatever she just heard. "Come on Alex.. Lead the way, will you?" Piper held her hand out for Alex once again and she waited patiently for the older woman to be ready to grab it.
Alex's apartment in Queens was indeed nothing like her loft all those years ago. She didn't own any luxurious furniture and her four poster bed was replaced by a small double bed. But still, to Piper this was heaven and being with Alex only made it better. The brunette woman wanted to talk about Piper before they would even start to get completely comfortable around each other again. But Piper had other things on her mind. By now she had about ten hours left before she would have to go back to Litchfield and she wasn't planning on spending those hours talking which would end up in fighting with Alex.
Piper walked towards the bed and let her body fall onto it face first. "Ugh, this surely feels like freedom to me. I can't believe I have to go back tomorrow." She kept laying in the bed and tried not to let those thoughts get the best of her. But seeing the situation of course that was pretty difficult. "Pipes, do you want something to eat or drink?" Alex just kept pacing around her own apartment, not really sure what to do next. "Nope, I'm good. I had enough to drink earlier and I'm not hungry for food. Will you just come here, Alex."
The blonde woman always knew the most fun ways to turn Alex on. Not hungry for food.. really? Like Alex didn't understand what that really meant. "Not hungry for food huh?" She asked her former girlfriend.
"Nope, just you." After all these years it's still you, Alex." She hoped that the older woman understood the real and heavy meaning behind those words. She hoped that this time Alex understood that this was Piper being completely honest. Not afraid of what losing Larry might do to her former life. Not afraid of what her family might think of her when she would choose Alex for real this time.
There was still a lot of explaining to do from both sides. She was sure that they both knew that. But these upcoming hours they wouldn't spend their time explaining themselves. They would spend that time getting to know each other once again on an intimate level which they both missed so much over the years. You could say that they already started in prison but that didn't even scratch the surface of which they both knew their love was capable of.
Alex lay down beside Piper on her back and stared at the ceiling. Of course she wanted to be with Piper just as much as Piper wanted to be with Alex at this moment, maybe even more. But that didn't mean that she would be the first one to reach for Piper. It was Piper's furlough so in her mind Piper would be completely in charge of what they would be doing with their time together. So she waited patiently to see what Piper would do next.
Piper was still with her face first laying on the pillow. She wasn't in any hurry to move her body off of it because the pillow smelled exactly like Alex and she just wanted to remember every detail of that smell before she would go back to Litchfield tomorrow. "It smells like you." She finally lifted her head a little to look at the woman who was laying besides her.
"I'm sure it does Piper. I've been sleeping on it you know," she chuckled because she really didn't know how to act around Piper anymore. Piper went to sit on her knees and moved her body until she was hovering over Alex completely. She looked the older woman deeply into her green eyes before she laid her body on top of hers. She brought her face into the crook of Alex's neck and found that the smell that was uniquely Alex was even stronger here. "You smell good."
"You do too Pipes." Alex was still being careful with Piper. She wrapped her arms around the younger woman's waist. "I missed you," Piper said to her. "I missed you too Pipes,' Alex answered. Piper immediately knew that Alex didn't really understand what Piper fully meant to say with that. "No Alex, I mean that I have missed you so fucking much for so many years, and I'm so fucking tired of missing you. I don't want to do it anymore. I can't do it anymore. I know we still have a lot of shit between us that we need to attend to.. but I want you Alex, all of you. For real this time. No drugs, no WASPy family and no fiance in the way this time." She lifted herself to the level in which her face was hovering just above Alex's. "I really, really love you Alex. So what do you say?"
"I love you too, Piper Elizabeth Chapman. And yes.. I will be whatever you want me to be. Your lover, your girlfriend. One day I'll even be your fucking wife and even a mother to our children at some point. If that is still what you want. But I will never again be your mistress or secret or anything like that. From now on; you are mine for real," she looked at the younger woman that was still hovering above her. "And I am completely yours, okay? Everything that I am was completely yours from the day that I met you, and that has not changed."
"You got yourself a deal babe." She flipped them over so Alex was on top. "Now make me yours again." Piper brought her face closer to Alex's and she waited for the older woman to close the gap between them. It would be their first kiss since Piper told Alex that she chose Larry. After all that's happened after that it seemed like a lifetime ago. All Piper knew was that she would put her everything in this kiss. Tonight she would show Alex Vause just how much she meant to her.
She heard herself repeat the words she once said to Larry just before she surrendered herself. "Please just fuck me, Alex." This seemed to take Alex aback. For the past month she had dreamed those words almost unstoppable but when she heard them they didn't sound quite right to her. Fucking is what they had mostly done in prison. "We'll fuck later Pipes.." Piper seemed surprised by Alex's words. Alex smiled genuinely into Piper's neck and spoke again. "Right now I'm going to make love to you."
Piper could've sworn that that was the sappiest thing she ever heard Alex Vause say to her. When they were together all those years ago Piper knew that Alex loved her. She might have not known exactly how much and back then Alex wasn't an expert in telling Piper how much she meant to her, but still.. she knew that she meant a great deal to her. She was eager to find out what it would be like to completely loved again by Alex after all those years.
And indeed. When she was finally naked Alex worshiped her body like nobody else could. Alex worshiped her body like she never did all those years ago. Alex worshiped her body like she hadn't really made love to Piper in eight years. She was soft, gentle, not rushed and completely overwhelmed herself by what Piper's whimpers, noises and begs did to her own body. After Piper nobody could get Alex's body to react like it did to Piper.
Alex tingled Piper's skin with a brush of her fingertips until the blonde woman was squirming beneath her. When Piper told the older woman that she couldn't handle the anticipation any longer Alex peppered her whole body in kisses and didn't leave an inch of her body untouched by her mouth and tongue. When Piper was again squirming underneath her she knew that she really should take this up a notch. She still hadn't touched the parts of Piper where she knew the blonde woman needed her the most. And quite frankly she couldn't keep herself much longer from touching those parts.
She wanted to taste the younger woman but then again she couldn't tear herself away from those blue eyes and those gorgeous light pink lips. So she decided to bring Piper to an orgasm with her fingers first. Clearly Piper was thankful for it because she kept kissing Alex's lips with more force when Alex's thin, long fingers came in contact with the silky heat between her legs. For a few minutes Alex just kept sliding her middle finger through the moisture and it was nearly driving Piper insane. She needed more, so much more but knew that if she begged for it Alex would only postpone the contact she needed the most.
You could say that teasing Piper wasn't exactly the way to make love but for Alex it was. She knew she could bring the younger woman to a much higher level when she would just tease her the right way. She wasn't going to torture her tonight though. In the early days of their relationship she liked to figure out just how much she could tease Piper before she really couldn't take it anymore. Before she would almost cry in pain for the fact that she needed to cum so badly.
So when again she felt Piper squirming underneath her and her whimpers became more audible she slowly entered Piper with her middle finger. She figured that Piper deserved some release from the teasing that she was providing her with. Up until this point they were still just lazily kissing in sync before Alex pushed her tongue into the younger girl's mouth and at the same time she entered her with two fingers this time.
Piper growled in response. Alex closed her mouth and Piper could feel the older woman smirking against her lips. "I thought you were going to make love to me and not fuck me Vause? I personally think that implies a little less teasing and a lot more from your mouth babe."
Alex again smiled against Piper's lips and pecked them before her mouth moved further south. On her journey south she placed open mouth kisses all over Piper's abs. She always loved the way they flexed when her back arched from the bed whenever they would fuck or make love. She kept moving lower in record speed all of the sudden and in no time she was hovering above Piper's pussy waiting just one single moment to say something before she dove in. "As you wish, princess."