Disclaimer: I do not own Gravitation in any way, shape, or form.
Yuki threw me out of the apartment again. I guess in a way I kind of deserved it because I did interrupt him when he was working on his new book. The title was called 'Lovers'. In a way I kind of wanted to read it, but I know I won't be able to now.
The reason I say this is because I am about to die. It was morning when he had cast me out and it even then the air had been freezing. The snow that had started did not let up. Now it is dark and I feel numb. Numb in more ways then one.
White….white is all I see.
No green, it has fled away.
Flowers hidden and trees bare until spring.
Only snow 'til spring.
I somehow found the will to walk. It was only a short distance but I was glad I was able to do it. I had dragged myself to the place where I had met Yuki. tears stream down my cheeks as I remember both the good times and bad. They freeze there in place.
The place was covered in snow and what little wild life that was there was now gone. It almost made me sad but it also made me happy in a way. It seemed so suitable that sense my life revolved around snow that my death should to. I sit on the bench and wait. I no longer have enough strength to move so I watch the empty park.
The park, a sea of white.
No green to see, yes I know it fled away.
Flowers withering, leaves gone.
Only snow until winter's end.
My lips have turned a ghastly shade of blue. It's so much different then the beautiful pink they once were. The numbness has over taken me and it gave me a surreal vision of what was happening around me, but this won't be for long. My eye lids are drooping and sleep is about to take me.
I however do not let it at first. I don't want to leave this world. The one I would go to wouldn't have Yuki. It wouldn't for a long time. Yes….I know what you must be thinking. Shouldn't I hate Him. After all he is the reason that I was about to die, but I just can't. Even now I still love him. I still love the snow.
Now only pure white.
Again no green, will it return?
Trees dieing, flowers no more.
Only snow and yet……
I let my eyes close and try to let sleep take me, but then I hear my name in the distance. It sounds far away, and yet at the same time right next to mean. The voice sounds strained and close to tears. I allow my eyes to open perhaps for the last time.
I see Yuki and he appears to be holding me. He is crying over me and as sobs rack his body. It make me want to cry seeing him in this state and also I want to smile. At least I would be able to see his face one last time before my life ended.
Falling crystal, a world of white.
Yes, no green, but do I miss it?
The garden is gone, but do I mourn it? No.
Only Snow can make death seem so Beautiful.
Only Yuki could make death seem acceptable.
Only Yuki.
Yes only snow.