Some things will go a different way so you can see it clear above us , not the left and not the front but certainly above us. As you look at the clouds you see the white mist of water and dust as tears start to form in your eyes. As you start to cry more heavier you wonder, why did she have to go and you will never know the reason why but all you know is that, you can always rely on the help of friends and close friends like family. So what your are'nt crying as hard as the next guy, but still you know that your heart has had a part ripped out, and taken with the loss of her, but you don't care you may let her.
As you have thought, it has been hours since you had ran away from the place, then ran away to the field of grass with friends close to follow. You have been lying here for hours, but you don't care. You have been lying here for hours and now it's getting dark, but you don't care. One more thing that crosses your mind before get up and go, you can't help but think about that part that is gone from your heart, you think positively and think it's for the best. Maybe it's time you better go and leave, As you sit up you stretch your back and reach out for the sky and with one hand you wave and smile for the first time in a long time.
You start to get over the way you think about how you feel lost and empty so you go to one of you friends house but you can't you're to weak and you have to stay right where you are. You think that maybe he is taking it harder then you are but he was in love with her so that makes everything so much more depressing for him.
So you take take your hands and put them on your face with a little power and rub your face, now you move your neck a little to get it going. Now you take your shoulders and roll them in a circular motion to get them working. Here comes the challenge. As you try to lift your leg it doesn't want to move or lift. You turn your body without the corporation of your legs and take your hands, put them into a fist and hit down on the part of the knee where the nerve is. Your leg gives a weak kick and so you stand up. Right when you stood up you fell, something isn't right here, and you need to make your legs move. Some strange reason they don't and you stomp one foot on the ground and wince in pain. You do that to the other leg and wince in pain again, again you try to stand up and this time you don't fall, but however you still have on your shoes. When you came back home you untied them but forgot to take them off, now you have fallen again. As you sit there helplessly on the ground you can't help but wonder, but this time you think about how helpless you look right now.
You look ahead in the mirror in front of you, you use the little bit of sunlight that shines through the only window you have. The sunshine shining on you. Bright and highlights the tear marks. You don't really care though. What would you be doing now if she was still here you wouldn't look helpless and messed up you'd be the person you are. You are the one and only person that is strong enough to cry while you know your best friend is watching you from above.