Living through a world full of misery, i truly can't take it. But when i found him, all of it was gone... My life started again, when i saw his angelic face. I knew then, he's going to be my soulmate, he's going to be my life. And now he's gone, i feel like the world turned it's back on me. The world i've lived before, came back again. My heart stopped beating when i was turned into a vampire, but this time... its feels like it's beating faster and slower at the same time. If only i have seen it... but unfortunately, i didn't! And Oh, i wish i could turn back time. I wish i could, but barely can't. This is too much, i think i'm going crazy... Yes! Maybe i'am crazy! I keep finding things that weren't there, a person who's not there... anymore.

Jasper Whitlock Hale, you're so MEAN! Leaving me in this world alone... I truly can't forgive you! You didn't even say goodbye! You're a stupid freak! Why did you leave me? You know i can't live without you, but why of a sudden? You leave me in this lonely world! I can't forgive you... No, i can't!... I felt tears in my eyes. Wait... Vampires can't cry. What's going on? Well, maybe it's just the water flowing in my veins... What am i thinking? I'm thinking nonsense! Well, i can really say i'm getting crazy.

Suddenly, something struck me... What if i die? Again. Well it's going to be painful, but ... Would he wait for me? Would he do the same thing i have done before, when i waited for him for so long? Would he do that? I know Jasper wouldn't want this for me, but i have no choice! I have thought that if die again, am i going to the same place, where Jasper is? Is it in heaven or is it in hell? Well, it doesn't really matter to me. As long as Jasper is with me, even if it is what they called hell, i'll take my chances. If i die today i know i'll be with you... Japser Whitlock Hale, my husband, my soulmate, and my life. Wait for me... And with God as my witness, i will love you forever and always!