Hoping to Remember
Summary: Day after day I tried to push through the agonizing pain. Him leaving was the worst pain I'd ever felt. My heart had been ripped out and taken with him...Wherever he is. Desperate to hold on to my memories of him, I found our beloved meadow, where the fiery haired devil herself found me. Ironic isn't it? The place I came to find me memories, will be the place I loose them.
Disclaimer: All characters and this story belongs to Stephenie Meyer. Not me:(
(A/N) This is my first fanfiction ever! Please review and tell me what you think. If theres any way you think I can Improve the story PLEASE tell me! But nicely though:)
Chapter 1: B.P.O.V
Previously...
"Bella, we're leaving," My brows furrowed, not understanding.
"Why now? Another year-"
"Bella it's time. How much longer could we stay in Forks, after all? Carlisle can barely pass for thirty, and he's claiming thirty-three now. We'd have to start over soon regardless."
His answer confuse me. A small, painful light-bulb went off in my head as my stomach rolled.
"When you say we-," I whispered.
"I mean my family and myself." Each word hung in the forest air. I shook my head in disbelief .
"I'll come with you." I said.
"You can't, Bella. Where we're going... It's not the right place for you."
"Where you are is the right for me."
"Don't be ridiculous." He replied unemotionally. I wanted to sound angry, but instead it sounded like I was begging. "You're the very best part of my life."
"My world is not for you," he said grimly.
"What happened with Jasper- that was nothing Edward! Nothing!
"You're right," he agreed. "It was to be expected."
"You promised! In Phoenix, you promised that you would stay-"
"As long as it was best for you," he interrupted to correct me.
"No! This is about my soul, isn't it?" I shouted, furious the words exploding out of me- somehow it still sounded like a plea. "Carlisle told me about that, and I don't care, Edward! I don't care! You can have my soul! I don't want it without you- it's yours already!"
He took a deep breath and stared , unseeingly at the ground for a long moment. His mouth twisted the tiniest bit. When he finally looked up, his eyes were different, harder- like the liquid gold had frozen solid.
"Bella, I don't want you to come with me," he sighed. The words turned and twisted in my head.
"You...don't...want me?" I spoke the words he meant. I pleaded for him to take me back, to not mean what he had just said.
But nothing worked. I felt like my legs had turned to jello.
He smiled gently. "Don't worry. You're human- your memory is no more than sieve. Time heals all wounds for your kind..."
(A/N) sorry I had to shorten it. I never noticed that them breaking up was like 5 pages longggg.)
6 months later...
It is now spring. It's been 6 months since he left me stranded in those trees, heartbroken. For weeks after I wouldn't eat, sleep, drink, or talk. I would just stare blankly at the wall. My dad eventually called my mom. She came to Forks and started packing my things insisting I was going to go to Florida with her. That's when I lost it. I threw things, I screamed, I cried, there was no way anyone was taking me out of Forks. I eventually calmed down enough to convince them to let me stay. I went back to school, got a job and came home and did chores. Nothing else. school-job-home.
My friends stopped calling. After weeks they stopped talking to me to. I sat alone at lunch. My life was a simple routine. I was very thin to begin with and now and since he left I've lost even more weight. But I still couldn't stop loving him. Which brings me to where I am today. After weeks of searching I found The Meadow. I looked around as tears gathered in my eyes. Everything was dead, the flowers, the grass, everything. My feet were standing on a giant patch of dirt and nothing more. The occasional tuft of yellow grass poked through the brown floor. The hole in my chest became unbearable as I cried and the memories of him broke through like a flood. My knees buckled and I curled into the fetal position, hugging my knees to my chest praying for the pain to stop. Thats when I heard her...
"Aw, poor wittle human. Where's your owner?" The snake like voice taunted. I quickly looked up to see her wicked smile and pitch black eyes. Her smile faded and brows pointed straight down in anger. Victoria grabbed the front of my shirt and lifted me like a doll into the air, then threw me into the nearest tree.
"ANSWER ME!" she commanded. I felt the pain, but it wouldn't travel to my voice. I'm almost positive my arm was broken along with something else.
"Lie," a velvet voice told me to do.
"H-h-his family and him went hunting out of town. They'll be back any minute!" My words trembled. The fear was so overwhelming all I could do was shake like a scared puppy. She didn't seem to like my answer.
"LIAR!" Victoria screamed. Her foot came smashing down on my right leg. This time I couldn't hold it back. My scream echoed through the entire meadow as Victoria smiled successfully. The sickening snap encouraged the black-eyed monster even more.
"Aw, did that hurt? You see Bella," She sneered at my name. "I don't like to be lied to. I stopped by the Cullen house before I found you. Their smell is old, barely even there. Meaning they've been gone for a while." She laughed wickedly, dancing around my crumpled body.
" Left little bellsie all alone! Did Edward finally grow tired of you?" I winced at his name. "Well seeing now that he won't care if your dead or not, I suppose this changes my plan. See, I was going to torture you, maybe call your boyfriend let him hear some of it, then kill you. Mate for mate, but I see how much pain he left you in. What better solution than for you to live with it for the rest of eternity." My brown eyes stared at her in terror.
"No-o-o. Please just kill me!" I pleaded.
"Oh, but that would be too easy. Well, I have places to go and people to see. So lets get this started." I begged, I pleaded, even though I knew she wouldn't stop or take mercy. She broke my legs, my arms. She clawed at them with her glass-like nails. After what seemed like hours of torture she stopped. Between my agonizing screams, I was telling everyone I loved them and that I was sorry in my head. I told Edward I loved him repeatedly.
"Oh well aren't I the little artist. Just a couple more details and my work will be done." She licked her nails and stabbed them into the right side of my face. I couldn't scream anymore. The pain was too much. Every cell and nerve of my body screamed for death, begged for it. Her nails dragged down the side of my face cutting it wide open from my temple to cheek. Victoria then flipped me on my stomach, which made my broken limbs burn to a point where it felt like my body was filled with magma. She made a giant V with her nails and finger an inch deep into my back. From my left shoulder blade, my lower mid-back, and back up to my right shoulder. Lastly pulled my blood stained hair , exposing my neck. Venom was already beginning to spread from her cuts, making the magma pure burning hell.
"Farwell Bella." She hissed sinking her teeth into my neck, then disappearing. The fire erupted. Thankfully I lost consciousness before I could hit the ground... But before I did I thought my one last thought.
"I'm sorry Edward, I tried. Forgive me. I love you." Then the black dark hole welcomed me with open arms.
(A/N) So what you think?!Please tell me I worked really hard, this is my first fanfiction so I'm ! I'll try to update soon!Sorry for all the grammar and spelling mistake.
Love,
Izabeth