George knew he had to get away. He was disgusting, and he couldn't take it anymore. He couldn't tell his parents they would throw him out. He couldn't tell Ron, Ginny, Charlie, or Bill. He couldn't tell his twin either. How do you tell your twin, your mirror that you wanted him?

He couldn't tell Fred…he would think he was disgusting. He watched Fred every day wanting him and craving him, but George knew that if he ever told Fred, his twin would push him away.

He wasn't himself anymore. He pulled pranks but Fred could always tell something was wrong. He'd ask, "George, what's wrong? It isn't your ear is it? I told you before, it make you look distinguished."

George would just nod his head and walk away. Their mother Molly started to notice his change too. He didn't smile anymore; he was always trying to fight the constant battle in his head. He barely played pranks anymore, and when ever his twin was around he never seemed to be. Whenever Fred walked, whenever he talked, George just wanted to touch him. He wanted Fred all the time, he couldn't take his eyes off him, his body reacted in ways it shouldn't when he saw Fred coming in from outside or getting out of the shower.

His mind was in constant turmoil. He wanted to cry all the time, to hide in a hole until his body…and his heart stopped acting so irrationally. His head said no but his mind and heart screamed yes.

Fred walked out of the bathroom completely naked, George averted his eyes and pretended to be looking for his wand. When Fred actually got some clothes on George tried to relax. Fred stared at him and then walked over to his bed. Fred hugged him and George shrunk away, his touch set him on fire. Fred's brow furred, "What's wrong with you? Are you okay?"

George ran from the room, he couldn't take it anymore. If Fred hadn't let go soon he would have done something he regretted. He ran until he came to a tree and sat down he cried softly but hid himself when he heard Fred calling his name. He had to leave, if any one in his family found out they would hate him. So would Fred…the thought of him never wanting to be around him made George want to cry.

He got up and walked inside the whole family looked at him. When Molly came forward he shook his head, "No leave me alone. I don't feel good…I'm going to bed."

Arthur tried to object but George ignored him. He ran to his room and sat slowly on his bed…he had to get away, he could deal with not seeing Fred just as long as Fred didn't hate him. He packed his bag and hid it under his bed, then he sat down and wrote a note to Fred,

Dear Fred,

I'm sorry. I have to leave. You would hate me if I told you why so just tell the family that it was because of Lord Voldemort. Tell them that when we where fighting at Hogwarts one of the Death Eaters did something to me. I don't care what you tell them…but don't look for me. It's better for everyone this way. Get on with your life, and don't worry about me. I'll miss you and your the sole owner of the shop now put it to good use.

Always, George

He lay down and heard, after a couple hours, Fred lying down. He waited and until he heard his twin lightly snoring in his sleep. He rose from his bed and laid the note on his pillow. He grabbed his bag and walked down the stairs, careful not to step on the creaky steps. He Apperated on the steps of number Twelve Grimwauld Place, he took a deep breath, and knocked.

A blond woman carrying a baby on her hip, and a big belly, opened the door. Luna Lovegood, smiled at George, "Oh, George, what are you doing here? Hold on, can you take James for me." Luna and Harry had gotten married a couple months after the whole Voldemort and Hogwarts battle thing. Harry and Ginny both agreed that their feelings had changed and Ginny was now dating Neville. A few months later Luna was pregnant and Harry and Luna were married. Hermione and Ron were engaged and it hurt that George wasn't going to be able to see them get married. George thoughts were interrupted.

She gave the baby to George, and let him in. He closed the door and walked farther into the house, "Harry, come down here it's George!"

Harry smiled at Luna and then walked over to George. He grabbed James from George and kissed the baby on the cheek. "What can we do for you George?"

George swallowed and shifted his weight, "Um…do you think that I could stay here for a while…just until I can get enough money for my own apartment?"

Harry tipped his head to the side and studied George. Luna smiled and nodded her head, "Of course…I take it that you don't want us to tell any one, seeing how you came in the middle of the night."

George nodded his head and looked away. Harry came over and slapped him on the back, "Of course, you'll have to help with the baby and stuff, but you can stay up in one of the free rooms. So, if someone comes here asking for you what do you want us to say?"

George kept his eyes averted, "That you don't now were I am…please don't let them know I'm here. I know your friends with Ron but we've always been friends and I could use the favor…I'll repay you later on. Or I can help pay for food…"

He was uncomfortable under Harry's gaze, but Luna smiled at him and motioned for the stairs, "Of course, if that's what you want. There's probably a good reason for all the secrets. Come on I'll show you to your room."

It was a little guest room but cozy and he immediately collapsed on the bed when Luna shut the door. He would have to get a job in the Muggle world; he'd have to do something with his hair. It was a dead give away and you could spot it a mile away. He felt the tears run down his face; you would think he was running from the Ministry the way he was acting.

He smiled bittersweet, in a way he was running from something worse.

The next morning he woke up and it took a minute for him to recognize where he was. He rose, took a shower, and threw on some new clothes. He headed down the stairs and went to the kitchen. Harry and Luna were both smiling down at James who laughed and started waving his hands when George came into the room.

George gave him a little smile and ruffled his hair. Luna set a plate of food down in front of him and he immediately felt bad.

"I'm sorry. I won't be here long, I've just got to find a job and then an apartment and then I'll be out of your hair."

They both smiled at him, Harry rose from the kitchen, "I have to go to work, and my guess is Ron's going to be asking around about you. I have to ask though, are you in trouble with the Ministry?"

George nodded his head, "No…Harry…I appreciate what you're doing for me…but I wouldn't but you or your family in danger. I just need a place to stay until I can make it on my own."

Harry nodded and kissed Luna, James, and Luna's tummy. He patted George on the back and then Apperated out of the kitchen. Luna smiled at George and sat down. She was feeding James when she asked, "So was it because of the Fred thing that you left?"

George choked on his food and stared at her, "What?"

She smiled, "You know, that you love Fred more than a brother…"

George stared slack jawed at her. Then a horrifying thought came to mind, if she knew how many others knew? "How….I mean…I never acted…"

She shook her head, "No one else noticed not even Fred…I just saw you looking at him when you guys where at the hospital with me. And I remembered that's how I looked at Harry and how he looked at me. You hid it really fast though and I haven't seen you do it again. I'm just keen to those types of things."

He stared again and then looked at down at his plate. "I…I had to leave…they would have all hated me…and so would Fred. I couldn't deal with it if Fred hated me…I can't control my feelings though…so I had to go away…Does Harry know?"

Luna looked slightly guilty, "well I pointed it and he knows…but I didn't know I'm sorry George. If it helps we both understand. We don't care just as long as you guys are happy…"

George tried to smile, "It doesn't matter any more…I need to go look for a job…"

He gave her a hug and ruffled James hair, then went upstairs and got ready. He changed his hair color to a brown and covered up his Freckles. Just the week before, Fred had successfully made a potion to get rid of freckles for a day. He had at least a week supply but he knew the recipe for more. He left and started his search. Apparently, all lot of places was willing to accept him. He got a yes form a store called Hot Topic, a restaurant, a diner, and a clothing store.

He decided that he'd work at the restaurant, it had a dress code, but it wasn't to fancy. He was in higher spirits when he got back that night. Harry smiled at him when he walked in. "So it was the whole Fred thing. Well Ron was asking everybody if they had seen you. Everyone's really worried, and Fred looked really wiped out. I saw him putting up signs. Hey you look a lot different!"

George tried to smile and then looked away, He heard James crying and Luna came down the stairs. James instantly stopped crying and tried grabbing for George. He picked him up and gave him a raspberry; James squealed then smiled at Harry. Harry lifted him into the air and then George turned to Luna, "So how old is he going to be?"

She smiled at George and looked at Harry and James, "A year soon. He's got maybe a month and a half."

George smiled when James yelled "Da Da."

"How many words does he know?" Luna smiled when James grabbed onto Harry's hair.

"Um…he knows how to say mom and dad, and bottle. Plus doggie, which is weird because he's never seen a dog before…and fly. That's just because Harry's put him on the broom and flown with him. Were thinking about getting him a broom for Christmas…"

George smiled lightly and then they went to the kitchen. He was about to rinse his plate when Krecher came waddling in, "Krecher gets the dishes madam. And master's friend Ron is in living room, with master's friend's brother Fred."

George's head snapped up and he instantly Apperated to his room, he wanted to see Fred so bad, and he wanted to hear news about Ron and Hermione, he sighed and decided on listening in.

He made his way down the stairs and stopped when he could hear everyone, "We don't know where he could have gone too. We checked at our relatives and Tonks's house. I know he told us not to look but did he seriously think we wouldn't."

He heard Luna speak up, "I just got a letter from him, he said that you guys would probably over react and think that he did something wrong. He said it's something personal, and he doesn't want to burden you, with it."

He heard Fred snarl, "Bull Shit! He would have told me! I'm his twin! He would have told me something…wouldn't he?"

George heard Fred's voice break and slowly made his way back to his room. He cried, hating himself for his feelings, hating himself for hurting Fred.

Maybe he could send Fred something just to let Fred know he was ok and that he was sorry that he was hurting him…he waited until A knock sounded on his door. Krecher was waiting out side the door, "Master Potter asked Krecher, to come get you. Krecher said he would, and he told Krecher to tell you that the guest where gone."