I admit it, as a child I had a great love for the cartoon version of X Men, and I love the movies still. I admit I'm a geek! Not that anybody cares. Anyways, I saw X2 last night and decided to write this piece and another, accompanying one titled "In Dreams ", a Scott's POV after Jean's death. Reviews for both are appreciated. This is a songfic, based off of "My Last Breath" by Evanescence. Amazing group, by the by.
Anything you recognize isn't mine, you figure it out.
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She ran down the ramp quickly, her mind racing furiously ahead of her. She had to do this, she had to. She just wished she could block out Scott's voice calling for her.
The water was coming. She stopped it without rational thought, lifted the jet.
Concentrate.
There it was.
Higher.
Must concentrate.
Faster.
Concentrate.
Up.
Concentrate.
Can't lose focus.
Concentrate.
She was losing strength, she felt her hold waver. A last desperate burst of power lifted the jet out of harm's way. She let her hold go.
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"Welcome back sweetheart."
Scott's voice. She opened her eyes to stare at him. He was sitting on the foot of the bed, worry creasing his brow.
"Scott. What happened?" Memories danced beyond her grasp. Something about water. And fire. What was she doing here? She felt that it was wrong somehow.
"Don't you remember? The dam broke, and you got off the Blackbird. I almost lost you."
That couldn't be. But she remembered it now.
"You can't get rid of me that easy, Summers."
"I'll try harder next time." He almost smiled. But there was still that worry.
"I'm okay Scott. Tired, but I feel fine."
He moved closer to her, reaching for her hand. She felt a surge of guilt when she noticed how his trembled ever so slightly. It must have been bad.
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Hold
on to me love
You know I can't stay long
All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?
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"Come here."
She placed his hand on her breathing chest.
"I'm alive. That's all that matters Scott, that I can be here with you at this moment. I love you. Don't even think about it. It's in the past, and I'm here now. Nothing could be better."
He drew her to him, their bodies so near she could feel him quiver.
"It was so close…I don't know…I can't…" he trailed off. Another word and he would burst into tears.
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Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light it ends here tonight
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"You would have found a way. I'm not afraid of dying Scott, just of dying without your love. As long as you love me, I'll never really be gone. I promise, I'd be right beside you. Celebrating your victories, and guiding you in tough times, they way you always have for me. And I'd make sure you found happiness."
"The only thing that makes me happy is you, Jean. Anyone else would be nothing more then a cheap imitation. You can never settle for second best, not for love at least."
"You'll never have to. I'm too stubborn to die. There are too many good memories.
"Bad ones too," he interjected.
"But mostly good ones," she told him firmly
He ran his hand through her hair, a smile playing on his lips. "There are a lot of good ones, aren't there?"
"More then I deserve."
"Remember that snowball fight. You were dressed up, and on the walk to the restaurant you just bent over and hurled a snowball my way."
She laughed. "We ended up soaking wet. The maître d' threw us out!"
"So we ended up in McDonald's dressed in evening clothes!"
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I'll
miss the winter
a world of fragile things
look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears
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She leaned over and kissed him. He tasted the way she always remembered. It was comforting to know he was there. He hadn't given up on her. He must have gone back despite the odds and brought her home. Whatever higher power had given him to her was too generous.
"I love you Scott Summers. Nothing could ever change that."
"And I you, Jean Grey. I'd just like to see someone try to stop me."
She looked at his face once more, studying every detail. He was so beautiful. She closed her eyes, his kiss still lingering on her lips. She was content.
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Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light it ends here tonight
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But it was all just a dream dreamt in that brief second before the icy waters hit.
She was too tired to fight it. Closing her eyes, she welcomed it. She was engulfed by darkness.
I love you Scott.
The darkness was seemingly gone as quickly as it had come, replaced by a warm glow. She knew she wasn't saved though, just placed in a different death. She hoped Scott would understand.
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Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there
Say goodnight
Don't be afraid
Calling me calling me as you fade to black