I dont own Kingdom Hearts. I wish i did though.
this is my second fic hope u like it if i get good reviews I'll post another chapter. Thank you and happy reading.
Journal Entry
Entry 1
As i sit here, i begin to realize that i am alone in this world. The only thing that ever had meaning,...has no meaning anymore. The only person that i ever wanted to impress did nothing as i was mocked and ridiculed by the others. He even laughed with them. The embarrassment drove me to walk away from everyone in a rage until i found myself outside amongst rumble. I ache all over, but this pain in my chest just wont go away. Why? I myself don't know. I will not ask the others or my beloved who I believe never really wanted anything to do with me. Why do i put up with any of this? Oh, now i remember its to gain what was lost....our hearts. But why should i want to gain back something that can make you weak just as it can make u strong? My thoughts always just lead me asking questions that no one can seem to answer. I can't go to the Superior with this because I'll only get a lecture on our goal. The same goal that has me guessing. Why is all i can say to myself? If we were to gain our hearts will that mean risk losing our powers and our abilities just to be human. Humans die like weak play things. They die from illness and old age. Why would i want to die from old age and risk being a corpse? Or better yet becoming a Nobody once more. The Heartless will just come after us again, so whats the point of gaining it only to lose it again. Damn this pain. I refuse to seek out help. I don't need them. That's a lie I do need something but not the underlings. I need him but all he does is ignore me or talk to me about Kingdom Hearts. I am nothing to him but a faithful servant or dog as the others call me. But i only do what I'm ordered to do to make him happy, even though i no its a lie. He'll never be happy. But i know in my nonexistent heart that i can make him smile a real smile that is filled with emotions. At least make his eyes light up. Hm i still find myself thinking that this goal of ours is very stupid. Is eternal death what he truly seeks. If i were to go to him and tell him my thoughts on this matter he would only give me this long speech on how wrong i am for questioning him. I am his second in command. The others think I had sex with him to gain this position, but that is simply not true. Really i do not kno why i was giving such an honor. You know what I'm still trying to figure out why they call me a dog, I'm just helping the Superior keep order. Without order there will be an uproar.