Who I'm Not
I was the avenger,
I was the hatred,
The one you dimmed worthy of living,
The one you thought worthy of killing,
And I stand here,
Alone and cold,
The ache in my chest,
Now times ten fold.
You lay before me,
Your own pool of blood,
I watched silently,
Your coat stained with mud.
Dead-You're dead?
Gone-again?
Frozen-your frozen face.
Lifeless-your lifeless eyes.
All my life,
This was my goal,
All my life,
You kept my soul,
And I never noticed,
That something was amiss,
That I wasn't who I was born to be,
That this silent silhouette wasn't me.
It was who you shaped me to be,
Who you forced me to be,
And I hated you for it,
I loathed you for it.
So I stand here now
With you motionless at my feet,
Do I regret?
Do I feel proud?
Do I smirk and laugh at the fear,
Still in your lifeless orbs?
I should,
I would,
Or so I tell myself,
I kneel here,
Alone and cold,
The ache in my heart,
Now times ten fold.
This is who you shaped me to be,
This is who you want me to be,
And without knowledge,
Without clear reason,
I cry silently,
For you,
-Aniki.
By NeverRightNeverPerfect