Beauty in the Breakdown
Matt Ishida paced around the clinic, waiting for Sora to be done. Just that hospital smell made him sick to his stomach; it was as if he ate fish mixed with chocolate and some bananas and wasn't able to puke it out. His head was spinning in more that one direction. Matt looked at the clock. Sora had been inside for more than twenty minutes; was it supposed to take that long?
Sora Takenouchi threw up once again into the bucket that the nurse placed beside her. A nasty smell was going around the room and Sora was sick of it. She just wanted to get it over with. Once she was done vomiting, she lay down once again on the cot, looked at the ceiling, and let the doctors do whatever they had to do.
Tai Kamiya was the only person who knew of Sora and Matt's relationship. The three nineteen year olds had become close when he discovered the "friendship" between Sora and Matt. He was hurt that his friends wouldn't tell him, but also because he secretly pined for Sora himself. He just realized it when he saw her with Matt. He thought he had lost her, and he was sure of it. But she would soon prove him otherwise.
When Matt was allowed into the room, he did not rush in like he thought he would. Instead, he took his sweet time walking, and when he entered, he did not say a word. In the moment, he regretted what Sora and he did, wishing he could take it all back. But fate wouldn't let him.
"Hi," he uttered quietly. Looking at Sora, he could see the pain he had caused her. She wanted to keep the baby at first, but then when she saw that the father of the baby wouldn't be able to handle the responsibilities, she started to feel the same way. Matt felt like a murderer, and there was nothing that could stop him from feeling this way.
Sora did not answer. She didn't want to speak to anyone. Her world was black and white suddenly, and there was no hint of color at all. She wanted to be held by Matt, but seeing him with his hands in his pockets just showed that he wouldn't caress her then.
"Tai called. He said he was sorry about …the situation," Matt said.
Sora looked into Matt's eyes. They stared at each other for a moment and then her eyes began to tear up. Her body started to shake as she sobbed on Matt's shoulder. Her tears stained his shirt. Matt took a deep breath of her hair, and sighed. If someone was going to be strong for Sora, it had to be him. Whatever happened was done, and there wasn't anything that anyone could do to take it back.
"I'm so sorry," Sora cried out. It was the first thing she said the whole day. She was sorry that she went through with this. When the doctor finally did it, she regretted everything. For a second, she even regretted Matt but she told herself that it was just the hurt side of her talking. She loved Matt, she told herself, she wasn't sorry about him at all.
"It's," Matt swallowed before going on, "alright."