Hey! this will probably be a two shot...hmm not sure! anyway, the title will become clear soon enough!
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I think I hate myself
Sometimes I feel as though I am living someone' elses life. Sometimes, my life is too perfect. Everyone one around me is too perfect. I can't live up to it.
It four months, for everyone and Myself to realize that I had stopped growing. My hair still hung down to my waist in bronze curls. My skin was still ivory with human pink cheeks, and my Mom Isabella, still tells me I'm her world. Mom is my world-and my dad Edward is my world. Mind you I couldn't live with out my Grandpa's, Charlie, Carlise, My Grandmother Esme, My Aunties, Rosalie, Alice, Emily and Leah. My Uncle Emmett and Jasper. I have a loving big family. Not to include my werewolf brothers.
It's odd really...It's been six years since I have been in Forks. I haven't heard from the qullite tribe in a while. And I hadn't seen Jacob. I pouted a little. My best friend was in another country. Jacob is also my Mom's best friend. She misses him too. Dad considers Jacob a son which is totally cool thing, otherwise I don't he nor my stunning Aunt Rose would let him through the door.
We used to sneak into each others houses when I was little. We used to have little competitions all the time. Who could be the quietest. Who could be the loudest. Who could catch the biggest hunt.
But that is all in the past now. I'm living in Delali, with my cousins, and the rest of Cullens. It's always white around here. My Mom says she knows how I feel, and that she misses the sunshine. But it's not the sun I long for. It's the woody, rainy mossy roots of Forks. Where I was born and grew up. Where I saw my first snow, tried to catch a snowflake, fell in love.
That's right. In love. I pulled a face, just thinking about it. I'm so stupid! Falling in love with the wrong thing! But he was just so warm. Light and open. I was always sub consciously pulled towards him. Each time he smiled his toothy grin. A jolt would be sent down to my fast, fluttering heart. I fiddled with the carved wooden heart. It was a private joke between us two.
You see, my Mother has a large diamond heart bracelet that sits elegantly on her, narrow pale wrist. My Father had given it to her when she was still human. And Jacob had given me before we left Forks.
A pang in my heart told me...told me I needed to see him again!
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