Shield
How do I begin to explain? I have issues. Everyone does. Anxiety, self doubt, a low self esteem, low motivation, little direction. Some are antisocial. Others don't know how to socialize properly. Depression, anger management and trust issues. Yeah. There are a lot of issues. And I have a few. But most of all as I sit in a library wondering what I am about to do with my life now that I lost my job, have a low savings, and a empty apartment to go back to as I stare at books. You see, I'm about to be deported back to America. Not on bad terms. I'm an exchange student and my time is almost up. But I'm kinda out of money. I got let go from the only job I could get because my exchange program was running out and as frugal as I tried to be, I couldn't make my savings last. And no one seems to be willing to hire me anywhere else. I wanted to stay in Japan for just a few more months. Spending most of my time studying did not exactly give me a lot of time to sight see.
I'm not particularly caught in the spectaculars of this country . It has some interesting stuff , but it didn't feel better than my home country . Actually some of the native people have made it a point in a passive-aggressive manner to make sure I didn't feel like I belonged here. Despite the strong efforts of the people who did try to accommodate me and make me feel at home. I wanted to see more. But every effort of exploration was foiled by my job or by class. No time to explore. No money. But I wanted to see more! But that had to be put on hold. I was going home soon. I didn't really want to go home. The states sure. But not home. Plenty of siblings I loved and adored but by now I probably burned those bridges down. They are better off without me. I don't like being around my parents.
So, as I said. Here I am killing time looking at books. Most of which I can barely read. Then one hits me in the head. I was mad. Not at the fact that something hit me in the head. Well, that was very irrigating. No. That someone would treat a book this way! I mean really? So I pick it up and look at the title out of instinct. And despite my luck, it is in English! I really should have learned Japanese... But I was actually told not to in order for my participation with the exchange program. Instead, manners and an open mind was more important. The title said, 'The heroes of the four legendary weapons. ' Interesting. So I sat down and read the book. It started out explaining the state of the world. Waves after waves of calamities threaten to destroy the world. And thus the Heroes are summoned from other worlds. The thoughtful spear hero, the dashing sword hero, and the Robin hood like bow hero. And finally there was the shield hero.
I stop to read it again. Shield Hero? Awesome! Someone finally recognizes what a shield can really be used for other than for blocking. It was also a great bashing board! I smile to myself knowing a little about medieval combat and how shields could have been used. So I continue reading on about how the heroes go about polishing their skills and strengthening there weapons. But there is one problem. The princess. She never stayed with just one hero and she wasn't kind at all. When I finally got to the part about the shield hero I was very surprised. The pages were blank. Everything after it was blank!
And then I lost consciousness.