Born after watching Kuroko no basket 2 episode 15
Pairing –Aomine x Kuroko
Rating – M (be warned its M for a reason – might contain swearing, curses and probably some yaoi)
Summary:
Kuroko has been in love with Aomine for a while but his way of brushing him off has been hurting him deeply…
It's actually 5am so I am going to sleep after posting this but I hope you like it even though I've written it while being very sleepy :D
The tin difference between happiness and melancholy
Some people say that falling in love is one of the best things in the world… I have to oppose that statement- for me falling in love was the biggest and longest nightmare I've ever had…
At first it was just an ordinary friendship, I was just having fun in his company and then slowly I started to want to see him more, be around him more, my eyes followed him everywhere and the actual truth of my feelings hit me like a boomerang through a wet dream in the beginning of which we were just talking and then we were kissing and than doing more… I was in love with him and ever since I understood my feeling I felt like I was in heaven every time I was talking to him, standing next to him, when we bumped out fists together, but then he started distancing from me and I felt sad and soon after he stopped bumping our hands. Each day the distance between us was widening and the talk we had at the river broke my heart and when I made it back to practice Akashi told me to 'give up on Aomine', he might have had a different meaning but those words crushed in pieces my already breaking heart. By the time graduation come I had trouble sleeping because I had nightmares and I had trouble going to school because I had to see him every day and I felt like I was slowly dying.
After middle school I felt so much pain and I suffered so much in my tries to forget Aomine, in time I learned to live with it but we met again and the pain come back a hundred percent stronger than before and I felt my heart getting crushes as we lost to his team. I wished to rip my heart out so I wouldn't have to suffer this pain anymore.
Telling me that my basket could never win against him felt like he denied my whole existence and right after Kagami left me alone in the changing room after saying those words… is my life a never ending nightmare? Once again I was desperately trying to lift myself from the dirt and get up and I had to thank Kiyoshi-sempai for he somehow helped me and I found out why Kagami told me to stop passing him the ball and that got me back on my feet and playing again…
I wanted to win against Aomine next time just so I could see him smile while playing again, but life kicked a bucket at me again- right after our match with Kirisaki Daichi I started feeling strong pain all over my chest and I could barely take breaths and after I went home I closed myself in my room which surprised my parents who were home, but I didn't want to worry them, I thought I had just exhausted myself however when I got up from bed and made it to the kitchen I felt like I couldn't get even engulf of breath and I passed out, scaring my parents. When I woke up I was in the hospital and it was the afternoon of the next day and I knew I wouldn't get any good news with the sad faces of my parents looking at me worriedly. "What is going on?" I asked yet no wanting to know the truth.
"You passed out and were out for 20 hours. The doctor made a lot of test while you were out and found out that you have HCM, Hypertrophic cardiomyopathy. Tetsu I am sorry, son, but you have to give up on basket…" My dad told me and my eyes filled with tears. Can I ever archive at least one dream I have?
"One more match… can I play one more match?" I pleaded and they both looked at me worriedly.
"We will ask the doctor, he said he would give you some medicine receipt that you would have to abide to strictly. If he says you can then you can but if not, then you give up on it." My dad said with a slight smile and then they both left to talk with the doctor.
The doctor had said that if I took my medicine and I didn't play for the whole game I will be fine and hearing that somehow brought a smile on my face…
For once I counted myself luck because our next match was against Aomine, playing against him again wasn't easy but all of us grew stronger than last time, however I almost let my tears out when he stopped my vanishing drive and even though I knew he would stop my ignite pass kai I felt like running in a wall and after getting benched I couldn't hold it anymore and let some of my tears back but I got cheered up by Kagami 'the match is not over yet and this is my last one, I can't give up here…' at that time I decided to bet everything on this match, I had to drink my pills between the quarters but I had read that they slow down the person and I needed to be at my fullest to beat Aomine, so I didn't drink them. Soon everyone were whispering that I was giving up on wining against Touou ever again but I wasn't playing against them ever again so why not go all out. I was barely breathing by the end and having to cross the court to get to the ball in time made my vision fussy but somehow I succeeded in throwing the ball to Kagami and then the referee said that Seirin wins and I felt my chest hurt like crazy and my world become dark. 'Will I die? Is this it? Well at least I got to see Aomine smile again thanks to Kagami, so I can die happy… but yet I am scared, I don't want to die! Some people say that falling in love is one of the best things in the world… I have to oppose that statement- for me falling in love was the biggest and longest nightmare I've ever had…but I want to have the time to find a love that would return my feelings… I want to live!' Kuroko thought as the darkness surrounded him and the last thing he headr was the yells of his name.
"Kuroko!" "Tetsu!" Both – Kagami and Aomine screamed as they saw the blue haired boy on the floor and quickly made their way to him…
I will finish this and update king of the court tomorrow
See ya