The guild hall was crowded, full of people, but to me it was deserted.
" The snow glows white on the mountain tonight, not a footprint to be seen"
Almost. All I could see was the one who had broken me. My big, brown eyes suddenly dripped with tears I didn't bother wiping away. Nobody looked at me anymore anyway.
" A kingdom of isolation, and it looks like I'm the queen"
My quiet tears poured down all the more as I gazed from my corner of the guild at the one I loved... making out with the one once lost, but now returned. I didn't blame them though. I just wasn't good enough, I guess.
" The wind is howling, like this swirling storm inside, Couldn't keep it in, heaven knows I tried"
For months, I had held my tears. Told myself it was for the best. But I can't stand it anymore! I jump up from my warm barstool in the corner, interrupting their conversations as I desperately sprint for the doors of the guild, clawing at my head.
" Don't let them in, don't let them see, be the good girl, you always have to be"
I don't know how I did it, but all I could do was run. I didn't care where, I needed to leave. I just can't live with my heart in tatters anymore, to keep it in that I cried myself to sleep in that empty bed, in the empty house he never came to anymore.
" Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know"
It had been hard for me to be ignored before, but the breaking point was when he ditched me. I don't hold it to him, I can't help but fall in love for him all over again every time I gaze into his sage green irises, see that fanged grin he smiles. But not for me anymore. For her. I'll never forget when he asked me if I minded, never forgot that fake smile I plastered on, never forgot my heart shattering as he pecked her on the cheek.
" Well, now they know"
I didn't care that their concerned cries resounded in the air behind me, as if they hadn't forgotten me for the last five months, had left me to die alone with my heartbreak.
" I'm sorry," I cry as I run into the graveyard that my parents are buried in. I don't notice I have outrun them.
" Let it go, let it go, Can't hold it back anymore"
I throw myself onto their graves, sobbing as I whisper my story to the blank marble headstones.
" Let it go, let it go, Turn away and slam the door"
It's been a while since I came. My sobs slowly begin to subside as the sun disappears behind the small hill behind the graves, sadly sniffling as I glance at the death dates.
" I wish you were here, Mama," I murmur, sniffling.
" I don't care, what your going to say, Let the storm rage on"
I grin as I walk into the guild, my eyes a little red from tears, my first real smile since she came. It didn't matter if it was a mad grin, my iris and pupils small. I walk to the back of the hall, to Master's office.
" The cold never bothered me anyway"
And I walk out with my head held high, although my lip is quivering, and I look at my bare right hand.
Hey minna what do you think? This is my first Fairy Tail fanfic, I was browsing and I felt inspired! Please tell me if I made any mistakes, I don't want to be someone who ALWAYS WRITES IN LOWERCASE- No offense, it's a pet peeve. Anyways, please refrain from flames if you feel the urge to do so, I really appreciate it!
Also, I want to make it clear I don't own any lyrics, nor Lucy, Natsu, or any other characters, so please don't think I do!
Bye,
Nyx