A/N:Okay it's been two weeks... I am having some really bad Shameless withrdrawls.
Obviously there's going to be a lot of swearing in this, what else do you expect from Mickey Milkovich?
I don't own Shameless, duh.
It'd been a month since he'd seen him. An entire month since he'd seen that stupid freckled grin and that familiar shock of red hair.
He wanted to punch a wall. He wanted to punch his dad. He needed to punch something. He settled for just kicking his closet door until he couldn't breathe and there was nothing left to hit.
Stupid fucking Gallagher.
All at once, it was too much. Mickey's knees seemed to collapse beneath him. He fell to the floor, loud sobs wracking his body. He cried and screamed like he was five years old and he was too exhausted to hate himself for it. He felt like a 13 year old girl, on his bedroom floor, reduced to tears, and for what? Because some guy saw him for what he was and didn't want to stick around for it?
He felt stupid for missing him and he felt stupid for crying and most of all he felt like a fucking idiot for actually caring that Ian was gone. Ian. Even in his head the name left a bitter taste in his throat. He laughed angrily at nothing in particular and curled in on himself like a wounded animal. He pulled his cell phone out of his pocket. He didn't know if you were even allowed to bring a cell phone with you to the army, or if Ian had even bothered to bring his, but he started typing anyway.
Hey asshole. I just wanted to say fuck you. Fuck you for leaving and fuck you for wanting me and fuck you for making me want you back and fuck you for being there and fuck you for waiting for me for so long and fuck you for making me think you cared and just fucking fuck you okay? Fuck. You. I fucking love you you piece of shit.
Don't die.
He hit send. Nothing left to lose, right? He tossed the phone down and just sat there. Sat there staring at the wall. There was a knock at his door. Mandy opened it slowly and sat down next to him. For a minute, they just sat there together, saying nothing. She grabbed him and held him there, and he just cried.
He was so fucked.