Heartless
Prologue
Me? I'm just here. Nothing more, nothing less. Just... here. I go unnoticed, untouched. Living a silent life, in a tormented world.
The others? I don't have the faintest idea where they could be. If I absolutely HAD to guess, I'd say they are living unlike me. They would be making themselves something in this place, instead of what I do... anything and anyone are better than me, or anything I do.
I stand for beliefs society lack. But then again.. what doesn't society lack? You see, I'm a tormented soul, in a broken home, and in a wrecked life. Nothing special, nothing out of the.. 'ordinary'. I live in my own created world of madness. Now, now; there is really no need to worry, darling, everthing will make sense soon. In the mean time, pleasure to make your aquaintance. I am Alyss, this is my story.
Chapter 1...
Plunging. Down. Down farther and farther into the abyss before me. I choke, unable to breathe. This isn't water, isn't air. What is it? Why can't I remember? Forget it. The pressure in my chest is growing, I have to get out of this. But I don't even know how I got here. Muchless, how to escape. This isn't hell. It feels worse than that. My eyes. They... they feel empty. I open them. I begin to panic. Not only can I see, but I'm watching someo... what the.. I'm watching MYSELF.
I continue looking at myself, drowning in a abyss of thick, black substance. It's pouring into, what I think is, my mouth, but I can't feel it anymore. I don't feel the pain. I feel nothing. I surge my arms out, then straight up. Maybe I can reach the top if I try t..
"AH!" I called out, jumping out of bed. Sweat, drenched I sit back on the side of my black, queen sized bed. "God damnit.." I mumble. Same dream, different night. It's always the same, no details changed, and I never figure out the ending. "Humph." I stand, and turn to my full body mirror. I take myself in for a second. My jet black hair cascaded over my right shoulder. My grey Of Mice and Men tank top just about cover my plaid short shorts. I'm slim, and have a concert tan from my previous adventure to South By So What. I sigh. I never look good enough. I hate my stomach.. I think as I grab at it. Too big. My thighs, also too big. No thighgap like I want. That will have to come later. I glance back to my face. My face is perfectly framed by my hair; even my collarbones are starting to show. Atleast something looks good.
I really hate myself. I have for quite a few years now. I decided if I got thinner, maybe I'd be pretty like other girls. I doubt that will work, but this is all worth a try.
I walk to my stereo, reach for my PSP Go and scroll through it. Hmmmm. Where is it... there we go! I think, selecting my personal favorite album at the moment, Sempiturnal by Bring Me The Horizon. Can You Feel My Heart starts to blast, and I take on my daily routine of getting ready for my hell of a school.
Oh joy.
Author's note: Thank you for reading! I'm new to this, so please give me feedback! This story is going to be 80% based on REAL events. This should be fun. Anyways. Keep watch for more! My goal is to upload atleast once a week? Maybe more? Idk yet. Again, Thank you for taking to to read! :3 -L.