SHAWDOW KISS! From Lissa's Point of View. When she realizes that Rose loves Dimitri.
"Oh my God, Liss. You can save him. You can help Dimitri."
Oh, my poor Rose. How could I tell her that it was no use? Her mentor was gone. It wasn't like she couldn't keep learning from someone else…. There were others that could help her train…although I knew Dimitri had the uncanny ability to teach Rose and not piss her off.
I chose my words carefully, "Rose, they say Dimitri is dead."
Rose's face became frantic and her words were fast and slurred, "No, he can't be. You don't understand…. I think he was just injured. Probably badly. But if you're there when they bring him back, you can heal him." Oh, Lord Rose is really desperate if she thinks I can use my powers for this. Immediately I regretted thinking that, because Rose could hear. But, Rose was so far gone off in her hopes that she didn't even notice. "And if… if he did die," Pain etched across her face," You could bring him back! Just like with me! He'd be shadow- kissed too!
My heart went out to Rose, first she lost Mason, now Dimitri? No wonder she felt the need to save him… how much more could she take? But me bringing him back was physically and mentally impossible. Even if I tried, my magic was just not ready for that. And there were other people who were still alive that needed my help, and using it all on Dimitri would save one life… but how many other life's would it cost? Rose, Rose, Rose… I really wanted to do this for her… but it wasn't plausible. Sorrow filled my heart, if only I could save him.
"I can't do that," I began, "Bringing people back from the dead is a huge power drain… and besides, I don't think I could do it on someone who has been dead that, um, long. I think it has to be recent." I hated doing this to Rose. But saving her in the car, I didn't even think about that, it was instinct. And once I save one life, people would take so much more advantage out of me.
Tears glistened in Rose's eyes, "But you have to try."
"I can't. You heard what I said to the queen. I meant it. I can't go around bringing every dead person back to life. That gets into the kind of abuse Victor wanted. It's why we kept this a secret." I thought the mention of Victor would make her understand, I didn't.
"You'd let him die? You wouldn't do this for me? I would do anything for you. You know that. And you won't do this for me?"
Why was Rose doing this to me? She knew I wanted to do this, she knew I felt terribly sorry. But Rose was on the verge of I'm- going- to- chop- Lissa's- head- off. She didn't do this when Mason died! She barely showed emotion when he died. And they were somewhat of a thing. Why Dimitri? Why all the sudden does she take the guilt trip on me? And then…
Rose was crying. Rose was shaking. Rose was going to fall down. Rose was loosing her mind… why? Because she….. Oh shit. It came together. The little glances at each other, the casual mentions of Dimitri, the occasions they had outside of training, the body language, the reason Rose didn't flirt anymore, the reason she didn't get into Mason, the reason she outwardly hated Tasha. She loved him. She loved Dimitri with all her heart.
Why didn't she tell me? Her best friend? Did Dimitri return the love? Did they ever get serious? I would ask these questions when the time was right… but my best friend needed me.
"I am so sorry, Rose. I'm so, so sorry. I can't." I was hugging her, and I felt her stomach growl, I dragged her away to the cafeteria. Rose stared at her food, not eating. I realized it was no use, I walked her to her bed, shooting Christian an 'I'm sorry' look. I just sat with Rose as she slowly fell asleep.
It looked like she would never heel. I quickly discarded that thought. She would heel…. She would heel.